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donwhitman

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May 12, 2024
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As soon as you are born , you are on the road to death. So what's the point. ? Zero .Nothing you do now has an impact . It's a meaningless journey.

The pro lifers will say , you give life meaning , wtf does that mean ? Humping some worthless job to pay never ending bills? And if you are fortunate to succeed and be financially independent, it's just material bullshit which you will eventually get bored of . At the end your body will breakdown and no amount of money can save you from the suffering of old age .

Not to mention the leeches and bloodsuckers who befriend you if they find out you are wealthy .

Do something good , they say .. the universe has no concept of good or bad … it's just indifference.

I want to do something good : if I had the power I would end this planet and the suffering of existence for good !
 
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milkfloralblackberr

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Jun 30, 2026
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i was thinking something similar too. Death being the only option gives me hope to think that there is something beyond living, something that isn't just in our imagination. Doesn't it scare you knowing what will happen when you die? Are you really 100% sure about what will happen?
 
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tooafraidtodiez

Will CTB before my favorite show ends
Apr 29, 2026
421
For some it's a beauty for other it's a nightmare. That's life
 
pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
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As soon as you are born , you are on the road to death. So what's the point. ? Zero .Nothing you do now has an impact . It's a meaningless journey.

The pro lifers will say , you give life meaning , wtf does that mean ? Humping some worthless job to pay never ending bills? And if you are fortunate to succeed and be financially independent, it's just material bullshit which you will eventually get bored of . At the end your body will breakdown and no amount of money can save you from the suffering of old age .

Not to mention the leeches and bloodsuckers who befriend you if they find out you are wealthy .

Do something good , they say .. the universe has no concept of good or bad … it's just indifference.

I want to do something good : if I had the power I would end this planet and the suffering of existence for good !
I agree life is meaningless suffering and extreme torture

the worst pain outweighs the meaningless fleeting pleasurable garbage by a billion times
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Existing truly is just dreadful, futile suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll just always see it as the most terrible mistake to exist, in this existence of torturous suffering the peace of non-existence is just all I see as positive, what is so dreadful is how humans impose this existence and cause all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it at all. To exist really is an abomination and there could never be anything desirable about existing no matter what, existence really is the problem and I find it so horrible how a human can suffer for so long just to face the terrible extreme agony of old age.
 
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donwhitman

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May 12, 2024
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Im not scared if I didn't exist because I won't exist to know I don't exist . I also never existed an eternity before I existed.

What I am scared of is this horrible meaningless existence .

I pray every night that I won't wake up when I go to sleep.

People say what about god , etc . What god will
make his creations go through such suffering?

Hell? Existence is hell!
 
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Pluto

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donwhitman

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May 12, 2024
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i was thinking something similar too. Death being the only option gives me hope to think that there is something beyond living, something that isn't just in our imagination. Doesn't it scare you knowing what will happen when you die? Are you really 100% sure about what will happen?
We only think theres more because we can't accept when we die , that's it. Humans think we are so smart that's there is heaven hell, an omnipotent entity that created us etc . We can't accept we an abomination of the universe and our existence is pointless and meaningless. Religion is just copium to makes us feel more comfortable when we exist . To be a heaven or a hell this would mean we continue to exist which is impossible because when we die we cease to exist .
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,220
We only think theres more because we can't accept when we die , that's it. Humans think we are so smart that's there is heaven hell, an omnipotent entity that created us etc . We can't accept we an abomination of the universe and our existence is pointless and meaningless. Religion is just copium to makes us feel more comfortable when we exist . To be a heaven or a hell this would mean we continue to exist which is impossible because when we die we cease to exist .
The whole existence is meaningless. It's just the natural cycle of life and death. We can give it a purpose if we want, but that's just for the sake of it. Otherwise, i don't think life has any purpose. Religious folks say that it's to experience emotions and even Gods incarnate on the planet to experience it. On the earth, they are also bound by karma. Blah blah.
 
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PeaceSeeker83

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Jul 23, 2026
152
The problem is you eventually run out of things to do, and even knowing this is bad. Then what....boredom until older age health complications.

No thankyou.
 
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ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,220
The problem is you eventually run out of things to do, and even knowing this is bad. Then what....boredom until older age health complications.

No thankyou.
Haha true. I'm 36 and if i assume without ctb, i could live up to may be 72. So i have 36 more years of torture left 🥲 that's too much
 
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PeaceSeeker83

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Jul 23, 2026
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Yep...I go with 72 minimum as I alluded to in another thread. Too long. At 43 I feel old.
 
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donwhitman

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May 12, 2024
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The problem is you eventually run out of things to do, and even knowing this is bad. Then what....boredom until older age health complications.

No thankyou.
Even if you became a billionaire overnight , you would get get bored after a few years. If I was given a choice of winning lottery or going to sleep tonight and not waking up .. I would choose the latter
 
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PeaceSeeker83

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Jul 23, 2026
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Even if you became a billionaire overnight , you would get get bored after a few years. If I was given a choice of winning lottery or going to sleep tonight and not waking up .. I would choose the latter
Lol. In all seriousness I agree though.
 

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