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Discussion Evanescent_eva

Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
A well known user on here that had many friends on here that went by evanescent_eva ctb on July 21st. I just learned this information yesterday. She was suffering for such a long time and im glad she's finally at peace.
I was really close to her and it hurts knowing she's gone.
 
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TBONTB

Enlightened
May 31, 2025
1,114
Hoping she has found peace

Oh wow, I have been thinking about her after she posted her two attempts. She shared such pain.

Is there anything more you can share about her final journey?
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
TBONTB said:
Hoping she has found peace

Oh wow, I have been thinking about her after she posted her two attempts. She shared such pain.

Is there anything more you can share about her final journey?
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She was found hanging in a hotel ...
That's all I know .
 
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bankai

bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,340
Upon a hanging Body said:
A well known user on here that had many friends on here that went by evanescent_eva ctb on July 21st. I just learned this information yesterday. She was suffering for such a long time and im glad she's finally at peace.
I was really close to her and it hurts knowing she's gone.
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I'm sorry OP.I know what it's like. It's a wound that will never really heal. I'm so sorry.
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
2,516
This was her last thread, it seems she succeeded in hanging herself.

sanctioned-suicide.net

If at first you don't succeed (a goodbye thread)

Here we are again. I failed an attempt two weeks ago, because I couldn't overcome my SI. It's possible that that will happen again. But I've barely had a waking moment where I didn't regret my previous failure. The past couple weeks have been agony, on top of a lifetime of agony, so here I am...
sanctioned-suicide.net sanctioned-suicide.net
 
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bankai

bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,340
Upon a hanging Body said:
I'm a woman but thank you so much . She was a amazing person and she deserved peace.
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OK, I'm sorry, I edited my post. Please take care. She's at peace. But this is brutal on the living. I know. I'm in the same position.
 
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r.m.216

Student
Aug 11, 2025
168
Thank you for the update
 
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Grog

Grog

I am a defect.
Jun 3, 2025
499
This makes me super upset… Eva was one of the first people I met on Sasu and she was always super kind to me! She was my Evangelion buddy and my counting game buddy…
I talked to her a few times and told her that she was really a great person and that she mattered. I hope she believed that too at the end…

Rest in peace Eva…

 
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Anonymousa

Anonymousa

Get me Out
Sep 21, 2024
2,395
Glad she wasn't suffering alone off the website and was successful in what she wanted. I was a concerned she felt too ashamed to come back here if she was alive from another failed attempt. She was fun to play and talk with in the counting game.
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
Namelesa said:
Glad she wasn't suffering alone off the website and was successful in what she wanted. I was a concerned she felt too ashamed to come back here if she was alive from another failed attempt. She was fun to play and talk with in the counting game.
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She was a amazing woman who was struggling so deeply for such a long time. She really enjoy sasu and having met so many people who didn't judge her for how she was.
 
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NoPoint2Life

NoPoint2Life

Why is this so hard?
Aug 31, 2024
956
Namelesa said:
She was fun to play and talk with in the counting game.
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I swear everyone who plays consistently in the boys versus girls counting game loved that girl. She was so sweet and funny and seem to have so many interests that she could talk with anyone.
I'm glad she's at peace
 
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Redacted24

Might be Richard Cory... or not
Nov 20, 2023
553
She Hmph-ed me in that game! So mean!

I'm going to miss her terribly but grateful to have known her. Be with peace, Eva
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod | Anorexic Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
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fly high Eva. i'll miss seeing you around. ❤️

sending hugs OP 🫂
 
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gottacheckout

gottacheckout

COB
May 20, 2025
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Damn, we lost a really good soul.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,385
I hope her soul has found peace 🕊️
 
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GlassMoon

GlassMoon

😶‍🌫️
Nov 18, 2024
389
I hope you found peace, @evanescent_eva . I can imagine how much you suffered from your condition, I know quite a few people who share this fate.

I'll miss you around here and especially in the counting game :heart:
 
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waistcoat

waistcoat

wow, i have a lot of people to disappoint :o
Aug 10, 2024
432
aweh man, i was hoping she'd be back :(
rest in peace eva, i'm glad you found the peace you were searching for, you will be deeply missed here ♥️
 
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collapsenik

collapsenik

22 | ask me about the climate crisis
Jun 1, 2023
59
Upon a hanging Body said:
A well known user on here that had many friends on here that went by evanescent_eva ctb on July 21st. I just learned this information yesterday. She was suffering for such a long time and im glad she's finally at peace.
I was really close to her and it hurts knowing she's gone.
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I'm really sorry for your loss. Goodbyes like this hurt like hell, don't they?
Sending hugs.
 
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