Ended up being sectioned in a horrific mental hospital in Weston super mare. I made the mistake of phoning a friend , so stupid as I was on the way to the cliffs. She immediately called the police who within minutes were following me and took me to the station , I was locked in a room for 4 days and am now in a hospital with totally crazy inmates. It's horrific in here and I'm trapped. Anything I say staff think I'm deluded and they just Medicate you. In a way if the psychiatrist was good I wouldn't have minded talking to him and maybe getting some really good help and a diagnosis but he is absolutely appalling. Knows nothing about mind loop thinking , ocd, says I've made up abuse I had as a child as a 4 year old can't remember. I'm trying to pretend I'm really calm and well but then have moments of hysteria about being trapped with people screaming all the time and wandering round talking to themselves. I'm more suicidal than when I came and full of murderous rage I've never had before. All in all horrific
Aries
Student
- Jun 14, 2023
- 109
Ohhh....my, you shouldn't have called your friend
Feeling for you Rowantreepeace. Try to keep calm and hopefully you will get out soon
BirdNamedRose
Drinks nothing but stupid juice
- Apr 10, 2023
- 31
Yep been to one last time I tried to CTB and it was like I died and was sent to hell, been through so much more since my last stay in a mental hospital and it's wild to think it feels like it's been years when I was literally there a few months ago, been through even worse since. Stay strong, I got out early by being honest with my doctor, he sorta listened, got me the meds I needed and I spent a lot of time in my room reading or thinking.
Looking like your calm helps, any little panic attacks I had or breakdowns I did in the privacy of my room, it helped that I didn't have a roommate but we don't always get that luxury.
Looking like your calm helps, any little panic attacks I had or breakdowns I did in the privacy of my room, it helped that I didn't have a roommate but we don't always get that luxury.
am1485
Member
- Jul 27, 2020
- 88
So sorry they sent you to a mental hospital. Those places are truly awful. Just try to stay as calm as you can and tell them what they want to hear and they will let you out soon probably. It's a shame the place is not helping you. You would think that they would be more sensitive to what you are going through because it is their jobs. But the truth is there are a lot of bad psychiatrists out there. Definitely follow all their instructions and be compliant. And if they try to genuinely help you, try to keep an open mind. Hope you get out soon!
ferret-in-a-sock
Member
- Jan 25, 2023
- 72
That's horrific. One way I cope with like situations like that is like pretend you're filming a movie in your head on the horrors of inpatient or writing a novel. Or just narrate what you see mentally Steve Irwin style. "Crikey, that nurse looks half asleep. Soon, her shift will end and another of the same species of nurse will replace her."
But unfortunately yeah. Only way out is through. Just don't fight them or argue; they'll extend your sentence.
But unfortunately yeah. Only way out is through. Just don't fight them or argue; they'll extend your sentence.
angelk
Member
- Jun 17, 2023
- 21
Hola,
I have been admitted 7 times. Sometimes voluntarily and other times involuntarily. The reality is that there are many mental illnesses. There are times when I've been scared, but you get used to it. I have severe depression and anxiety, but in the end I live with psychotic people, with schizophrenia, of all kinds. We all have something in common, we suffer. In my case it has not worked for me, but I have friends with income who have come to have a fairly normal life, it is not my case and I wonder why. because I have to feel this pain every day.
Depression is a cruel disease. first it is not seen, second it is not understood and third it is more painful than a kidney colic. I have no advice, I am not optimistic, the reality is that I am dead in life.
I have been admitted 7 times. Sometimes voluntarily and other times involuntarily. The reality is that there are many mental illnesses. There are times when I've been scared, but you get used to it. I have severe depression and anxiety, but in the end I live with psychotic people, with schizophrenia, of all kinds. We all have something in common, we suffer. In my case it has not worked for me, but I have friends with income who have come to have a fairly normal life, it is not my case and I wonder why. because I have to feel this pain every day.
Depression is a cruel disease. first it is not seen, second it is not understood and third it is more painful than a kidney colic. I have no advice, I am not optimistic, the reality is that I am dead in life.
lachrymost
finger on the eject button
- Oct 4, 2022
- 344
Yikes. That psychiatrist really thinks age four is too young to have long-term memories? I just looked at the Wikipedia page for Childhood Amnesia and that's total bullshit. Not that you need me to tell you that. Being at the mercy of an ignorant doctor is a nightmare. I hope you can get out soon.
I'm so sorry you are having to endure this. I hope that you can get out soon! These people should be the ones on the other side of this, instead of running this place. Hang in there best you can.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 38,897
That sounds so horrible, I hate how we exist in a world where suicidal people are punished simply for making a decision in which they have every right to make, mental hospitals really do sound like hellish prisons. I personally think it's always a terrible idea being open about plans to die in this anti-suicide society.
I'm so sorry you are stuck there. My advice, what's got me out of UK hospitals before is to say something like- you feel very depressed but that you want to feel better and you'll try meds or new meds and what they have to offer. That yes you thought about suicide at that time but you wanted help, that's why you called your friend and you don't want to die anymore, you want to get better
Tell them what they want to hear if you want to get out and it's not helping. Don't deny everything like 'there's nothing wrong with me I'm fine' because that normally makes them worry more and keep you longer
Tell them what they want to hear if you want to get out and it's not helping. Don't deny everything like 'there's nothing wrong with me I'm fine' because that normally makes them worry more and keep you longer
Pidgeons_Sparrows
-flying rat
- Apr 16, 2023
- 627
Kerrtu
Komeetta ♊︎
- May 8, 2023
- 474
I feel for you, @rowantreepeace
Years ago, I had two former friends bring me to a "regular" hospital. I had been drunk and crying and former friends pulled up to the house yelling for me to go with them. They tricked me. This was months after the sexual abuse inflicted on me at a different hospital and so-called friends knew of it, and still called.
Terrible experience.
Police officers were holding me down in the hospital parking lot, at one point, an officer put one of his thumbs in my mouth. Absolutely degrading and disgusting.
Hospital tried billing me for approx 2k and I sent them an email to let HR know I wasn't paying one cent as I had been brutalized by 3 cops and if they wanted to continue to try and get 2k from me, I'd see them in court.
Law & Order dun-dun
Never heard back from them, and I wasn't billed again. Ah, but the memories…priceless.
<sarcasm>
I cannot wait to no longer exist.
A psychiatrist told me straight up I wasn't raped. As if she were there, commenting play by play when it happened and somehow thought "Yeah…she's crying and has clearly, repeatedly tried to protect herself…I see the person she's trying to get away from is now removing their clothes and patient is crying for them to stop, but nah, she wasn't raped."
I'm remembering my mother - she told me a few times she thought I was "too young to remember". That's one of the problems at the core of my "family" - I do remember, and I am hated for it.
Disgusting, all of it.
My heart goes out to you, @rowantreepeace
Years ago, I had two former friends bring me to a "regular" hospital. I had been drunk and crying and former friends pulled up to the house yelling for me to go with them. They tricked me. This was months after the sexual abuse inflicted on me at a different hospital and so-called friends knew of it, and still called.
Terrible experience.
Police officers were holding me down in the hospital parking lot, at one point, an officer put one of his thumbs in my mouth. Absolutely degrading and disgusting.
Hospital tried billing me for approx 2k and I sent them an email to let HR know I wasn't paying one cent as I had been brutalized by 3 cops and if they wanted to continue to try and get 2k from me, I'd see them in court.
Law & Order dun-dun
Never heard back from them, and I wasn't billed again. Ah, but the memories…priceless.
<sarcasm>
I cannot wait to no longer exist.
A psychiatrist told me straight up I wasn't raped. As if she were there, commenting play by play when it happened and somehow thought "Yeah…she's crying and has clearly, repeatedly tried to protect herself…I see the person she's trying to get away from is now removing their clothes and patient is crying for them to stop, but nah, she wasn't raped."
I'm remembering my mother - she told me a few times she thought I was "too young to remember". That's one of the problems at the core of my "family" - I do remember, and I am hated for it.
Disgusting, all of it.
My heart goes out to you, @rowantreepeace
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greywings
floating; sinking
- Mar 4, 2022
- 23
So sorry Roawntreepeace :(
I got 5150'd once, and it reallllllllly sucks when the staff just wants to treat you like that... I basically pretended to be fine and well-adapted like the doc who recommended me there was misunderstanding. Also just agreed on the meds and talked about the ideation in past tense. Like "I WAS going to do X but decided to not because YZ and that just didn't get across."
I know it's hard with so much scary stuff around you, and being so upset with how you got there, and how you're being kept there. Like to already be out of your usual environments and have to adapt to all this close and high-acuity contact... I know it can also be hard if you happen to be someone who doesn't like lying. But I'm really hoping you are able to stay calm and make it out of there safely, without too much trouble to follow you out. And I hope at least one person who will hear you out is there while you're stuck. I know you were going to die but while your hands are tied I hope you can hang on to your sense of self, properly.
Got any lyrics you like a lot? Maybe a show? If you can focus on replaying that stuff in your mind maybe it will help you relax enough to do what you gotta do.
I got 5150'd once, and it reallllllllly sucks when the staff just wants to treat you like that... I basically pretended to be fine and well-adapted like the doc who recommended me there was misunderstanding. Also just agreed on the meds and talked about the ideation in past tense. Like "I WAS going to do X but decided to not because YZ and that just didn't get across."
I know it's hard with so much scary stuff around you, and being so upset with how you got there, and how you're being kept there. Like to already be out of your usual environments and have to adapt to all this close and high-acuity contact... I know it can also be hard if you happen to be someone who doesn't like lying. But I'm really hoping you are able to stay calm and make it out of there safely, without too much trouble to follow you out. And I hope at least one person who will hear you out is there while you're stuck. I know you were going to die but while your hands are tied I hope you can hang on to your sense of self, properly.
Got any lyrics you like a lot? Maybe a show? If you can focus on replaying that stuff in your mind maybe it will help you relax enough to do what you gotta do.
Yeah hospitals suck, I got stuck in one for a week when I had a manic episode and was suicidal and had COVID, I was verbally abused by the staff and was paranoid someone was going to kill me when I told people they treated me like an asshole, the reason I got in was because I told my psychiatrist I wanted to kill myself I'm never telling any medical professional that again even tho I don't want to cause my loved ones pain I can't go back there
cami
the lonely
- May 27, 2023
- 186
im so sorry. my psych ward experience wasn't this awful and im sorry yours has been traumatic. these things are very hit and miss and unfortunately the mental health system has failed another patient. places that are supposed to help you shouldn't be like this. you don't deserve this my love. please stay safe.
