Venting dumb fantasy

[degreesoflewdity]

sometimes i want to hope that someone saves me
maybe im scared to die and dont actually want to
im not sure im just ranting again mindlessly, just posting random thoughts. none of my thoughts make sense anymore

 

[CrawlingInMySkin]

We all hope that someone will come and save us, mate. the truth is, nobody is going to. nobody cares enough about the neurodivergent to help more than calling the police and calling it a day. we have to be our own saviors. either pull ourselves up by our bootstraps or let death take us. still, you'll always have the people here to help you along the way and to come back to. lots of love and peace, mate.

 

[Secro]

When reflecting on yourself, try to simply get rid of all feelings etc., because they are something that prevents you from learning the truth about yourself.
Anything that is unpleasant, for example: I told the person that I found them ugly, even though I previously thought I would never pay attention to appearances because I'm such a do-gooder.
Because people, for example, previously thought differently about themselves, etc., it can lead them to lie to themselves.
I have a lot of experience with self-reflection and just wanted to tell you how you could find out the truth about yourself if you really want to.
You said you weren't sure if you wanted to die.

 

[DerBopo]

Dont we all want someone to save us?
Someone to make living worth it again.
Someone to care enough not to see us dead.
I think its less about being saved and more plainly about being alone. Im sure we'd all like someone to care about us when we least care about ourselves.
I cant know what you're going thru OP but thats how i feel incase you can relate.

 

[Off_Switch]

Nobody is coming to save us. We can only save ourselves.

 

[100memoryleaks]

sometimes i want to hope that someone saves me
maybe im scared to die and dont actually want to
im not sure im just ranting again mindlessly, just posting random thoughts. none of my thoughts make sense anymore

i think i understand how you feel.

i reached out to some people online i used to talk to years ago. i hoped maybe one of them would give me some magical solution to my problems i've never thought about before. but you know, i got the same "move on" "get professional help" stuff as usual.

on the night of my attempt i kept looking around to see if anyone will come and stop me. no one did. although when i was close to dying i just heard a muffled voice that disappeared as soon as i saved myself. i wonder if i'll hear it again next time.

 

[burninghill]

sometimes i want to hope that someone saves me
maybe im scared to die and dont actually want to
im not sure im just ranting again mindlessly, just posting random thoughts. none of my thoughts make sense anymore

I understand exactly what you're saying. I used to dream of surviving and getting all the attention that I know I deserve for what I've gone through. I was even going to stage a failed attempt, to be honest.

Also, I notice your username haha, I played a lot of degrees of lewdity in 2024, I was actually saying last night that I might get into it again. Who's your favourite?

 

[degreesoflewdity]

We all hope that someone will come and save us, mate. the truth is, nobody is going to. nobody cares enough about the neurodivergent to help more than calling the police and calling it a day. we have to be our own saviors. either pull ourselves up by our bootstraps or let death take us. still, you'll always have the people here to help you along the way and to come back to. lots of love and peace, mate.

thank you so much

When reflecting on yourself, try to simply get rid of all feelings etc., because they are something that prevents you from learning the truth about yourself.
Anything that is unpleasant, for example: I told the person that I found them ugly, even though I previously thought I would never pay attention to appearances because I'm such a do-gooder.
Because people, for example, previously thought differently about themselves, etc., it can lead them to lie to themselves.
I have a lot of experience with self-reflection and just wanted to tell you how you could find out the truth about yourself if you really want to.
You said you weren't sure if you wanted to die.

i think im just afraid of the silence after death

Dont we all want someone to save us?
Someone to make living worth it again.
Someone to care enough not to see us dead.
I think its less about being saved and more plainly about being alone. Im sure we'd all like someone to care about us when we least care about ourselves.
I cant know what you're going thru OP but thats how i feel incase you can relate.

honestly, I'm definitely just looking for a reason to keep going. someone to care about me

I understand exactly what you're saying. I used to dream of surviving and getting all the attention that I know I deserve for what I've gone through. I was even going to stage a failed attempt, to be honest.

Also, I notice your username haha, I played a lot of degrees of lewdity in 2024, I was actually saying last night that I might get into it again. Who's your favourite?

oh,, hi! i was hoping someone would recognize. sydney is my favorite :) what about you?