Discussion Does anyone find this site calming?

[ScaredOfLife]

I live on this site, because suicide is on my mind all day. This site helps me to cope long enough until the day I do the deed.

 

[Sayo]

I feel human and I believe that I am probably distressing others on a less fundamental level by saying what I think—I've lived most of my life hyperaware of taking up space. It's calming, the way others interact here seems calming.

I enjoy reading what others have to say here and thinking about it, although sometimes I experience anxiety when going to reply directly to them.

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

Yes, I too often find this site calming when I'm going through a very stressful and depressing time, which has been lately.

 

[Kev]

Yes, absolutely. I think it's incredible that in a world where nobody understands, we can all come to a place where everyone understands.

 

[toolateforme]

Absolutely - it's nice being able to share my thoughts with other people who are in a similar situation.

 

[VanHeineken]

This site is truly awesome! I hope it always will be here. A big thank you to all those who are running this site:-)

 

[ganpres37]

absolutely. it helps knowing that there are others that think about suicide too.

 

[Kogoruhn]

Not only this site, but also researching/fantasizing about suicide makes me calmer too. It is knowing you have a quick exit from life, whenever you're feeling ready to go

 

[Deckchairs]

Yes I discovered the site a couple of weeks ago and have found reading it very comforting. Both to know other people feel and suffer the same and to know that there are methods for suicide that I can research and implement if and when I feel the need.

 

[Edgard]

I literally discovered this website like an hour ago. It feels good to read and to talk to people who have the same mindset and are able to understand some difficult topic. I found this website because I was looking for a way to killing myself so I arrived into the topic "How to hang yourself" and read through it, read the comments, then I started reading the other topics. And then I started writing about some of my thoughts, why I wanted to die and so on. And now I realized it actually helped me and I don't won't to kill myself right now.

I know the thought will come back tomorrow but right now I feel appeased. So thank you for existing website :)

 

[mattwitt]

It has some therapeutic qualities

 

[Volatile]

It's the Elysian Fields

 

[Dead_Inside]

Yeah. Probably not in that " I want to live" kind of way. Just if I am having a really bad time and I come here I know I am surrounded by people who understand- literally. It helps me from doing anything too quick. Which is starting to become a problem...

 

[Sadgirl19]

Absolutely. This is the only place in the world where I don't have to BS and can be totally real and honest, and not feel like a freak or something. I find that comforting.

 

[throwaway123]

Yes I am glad. I am glad that I have a place with people in the same boat.

I thought you were dead.

 

[useless]

Not only this site, but also researching/fantasizing about suicide makes me calmer too. It is knowing you have a quick exit from life, whenever you're feeling ready to go

It's like standing right next to the door. If anything becomes too unbearable inside, fresh air is only a moment away. Just being able to escape lets you last longer, knowing it's going to be alright...

 

[ReleaseMe]

Thinking of suicide and researching methods always calms me, even when I'm not able to go through with it. I like this forum because it makes me feel I belong, despite not being an active participant on a personal level.

 

[Death_From_Above]

More often than not. It also brings me a bit back to myself to the point of getting playful and shit posting a bit, but I try to keep it reasonable without causing too much offense. It just puts a smile on my face to know that I'm not all dead yet.

But then the reality hits and I get panicked and want out, and then you all keep me calm again

 

[solacely]

Absolutely. Whenever I feel really anxious or depressed I come on here and it instantly goes away. I like knowing that I have a way out.

 

[TAW122]

I find it calming and liberating as we are able to more freely discuss about suicide, especially the methods. Also, hearing about people talking about suicide without much censorship and just an honest open view is really cathartic.

 

[wanttodie]

Thinking of suicide and researching methods always calms me

 

[Radaghast94]

I wish I felt the same
I know suicide is basically something I need to do
But it still terrifies me
That sense of calm about death is something I don't have
If I knew for sure I had a sufficient knot and unconsciousness would be rapid
Then the knowledge of knowing I could end it that way would ease the pain
Talking about it here is nice because in most of life people dismiss suicide as ridiculous
So it's hard to have an honest conversation about the reality of the situation

 

[Brokenanddeadinside]

Yes I love being a part of this community I feel I belong here and relate to a lot of people on here.

 

[GoneSeptember2018]

I don't know about "calming," but I'm glad it's here. The people here are generally nice, and the staff are pretty conscientious about keeping this space respectful.

 

[OkTotti]

calming? most of the time... but sometimes frustrating with my unrealistic expectations, thinking that there would be definitive CTB answer to all my problems

 

[ChemicallyCalm]

I feel very calm here, I freaked out when the site went down a little while back

 

[MsM3talGamer]

The word games and story-writing are fun and calm my mind down.

 

[Xerxes]

I've withdrawn for a bit from this site. Great for some that are unsure of death, but for those determined to CTB or have a plan in place, this site becomes a distraction.

 

[azucaramargo]

Ive only been on this site a few days. when i get upset or anxious i read on here and it oddly calms me? Anyone else?

Very much so. Thank you for saying this.

 

[AngelGirl]

Ive only been on this site a few days. when i get upset or anxious i read on here and it oddly calms me? Anyone else?

It is extremely therapeutic in deed and it cured my desire to ctb.

Being able to open up about certain things you are too afraid to talk about in real life feels just amazing. I feel peaceful.