I find it difficult to distinguish between actual 'maturity' and what society just wants you to do because it's how things are or because it serves the system. Frankly any child-like beliefs I have, I hang on to for dear life as it's the only thing reminiscent of what I thought humanity to be; these beliefs uplift me instead of inspiring dread like my fellow 'adults' like to. Any childish behaviours I might still have don't embarrass me because even if they make me a helpless person, it's a consequence of an unfortunate turn of events to put it simply, and they otherwise make me feel more human in a world that expects you to be almost mechanically well put-together. I can't be shamed by people who don't understand me or why I am the way I am, because if they don't understand then their insults don't make sense, much like how jokes don't work without a logical set-up or premise.