Discussion Do you think your life is objectively worse than the average people in your life?

[meatballlover]

Personally sometimes i can't tell if my life geniunely sucks or if I'm too soft and privileged. I see others having friends, hobbies, passions etc. And it makes me wonder if they might also be struggling with life or if they are geniunely just fine.
What do you think?

 

[Hystearical]

In my life? Or in my milieu? Absolutely.

Throughout time and space? Hesitate to say.

 

[meatballlover]

Oh yeah to further specify i mean this timeline

 

[Seneca65AD]

Depends - and this is the great dichotomy with which I struggle. Objectively, my life is better than probably 99% in the world. However, in the context of people my daughter goes to school with and I run across, I am near the bottom from an economic point of view; i.e. I don't come from "old money". So, coupled with my propensity for depression, the result is that I tend to view suicide as an economic decision to give my family the extra tax-free money that would get us out of the "poor side of the tracks". So, is my life "objectively" worse because we do not have a private jet and my family has to fly commercial? Technically, the answer is yes. Practically the answer is "get my head out of my ass".

Obviously, I realize how absolutely stupid the above sounds when other SaSu members are homeless and can't afford proper treatment. But that is the insidious nature of my mixed up thought process. It may be part of the imposter syndrome or I have such a chip on my shoulder from growing up poor that I only focus on what I don't have and not the wonderful things that I do.

 

[Hollowman]

Way worse

 

[shaggy_dooo]

For sure they're doing better than me im mentally ill and disabled bc of it i also have diabetes people around me may not be perfect but they can get out there everyday and function family meetings work hangout i cant do any of that i depend on my parents care i dont see them that bad in life i dont say it out of narcissism but just say what i see and feel.

 

[CPY]

Sure. Of the people I've known in my life I suffer the most by a long shot and I would venture out and dare to say that i'm "high up" among the people who struggle the most at least in the developed world.I know some people with their problems but they can still live a relatively normal life, they have some intellectual disability but they live blissfully in their own world. I also live in my own world but it's made of pure hell and almost neverending suffering.

I've survived until 26 only because I'm "blessed" with a abnormally high SI( I've had all the items necessary to achieve death since 2 years now even the "luxury ones" like beta blockers and meto is even OTC in my country), I think anyone I know would have killed themselves long ago if they were in my shoes, I've beared and continue to bear pain I never deserved and I really hope if anything that I can at least manage to catch the bus before 30 so I won't have to see my parents wither and die and become homeless

 

[voc_89]

as a CTB longer our lives are always going to be worse than normies as we are not on the same levels. What brings them joy brings us pain and avoidance. Clear example. The normie life is to find a lover, get married, have kids, etc. As a CTB lover, due to circumstances, you have preserverance, maybe due to circumstances, to the normie things. So u will never be on the same page. Don't try to align yourself with normies. Accept yourself. Accept your community. And honestly that makes life easier. I mean u can be CTB or well existing. Thats u. If anything on this site. Your decision is yours. But most importantly. Accept u not nornal. Thats fine. No one in my normal operating sphere will know i am CTB. But i am sigh.... 'successful'. Masks are hard. But it works

 

[dcomfort]

On paper, my life should be considered good. I have people who love me, and who at least tell me they are invested in my happiness. I just have problems internalizing any of that, and finding joy in literally anything anymore.

 

[yes7777777]

No. My life is average or a above average I'd say

nothing to complain about at all

 

[TransientEternal]

My life is objectively better/average compared to other people in my life.

 

[Matchaaa]

I feel that my life is objectively miserable, for 18 years, I've been trapped in China, with neither freedom nor money.
And living in China has caused me harm in many ways.

 

[DeplorableHuman]

I'd say worse. Humans are social animals. I can't connect with other humans. That's hell.

I want to, but am unable to. In my mind, I have to lie, deceive and act like an ape to come across as normal. The whole social game that people play constantly feels extremely barbaric to me, I don't see the utility of it. It feels so incredibly fake.

Sadly, to "connect" with other people I have to put a mask on and pretend I'm someone completely different. This is extremely tiring. And when someone's "connecting" with me, they didn't connect with me at all. They connected with a mask which has nothing in common with me at all. That hurts me on the inside.

With "normal" people this all comes natural and they seem to enjoy having conversations, going for a walk, having dinner, being able to express themselves, ..

The irony is that I would love nothing more than to never have to interact with another human being ever again. But if that were to happen I would still be depressed because humans are hard-wired to crave social connections to some extent.

Imagine having to live amongst weird aliens. You have to learn and perform all their non-sensical rituals flawlessly otherwise you're excluded from everything. That's what life's like for me.

Edit: if you mean materially, my life is average.

 

[Front Back]

There's a worse family next door and that makes me even want to CTB

 

[kunikuzushi]

I think my existence is objectively worse than people around me because they wouldn't last a day in this torture chamber brain of mine. I have constant agonizing thoughts that are out of my control. it's pure hell, full of trauma and torture over and over. and I've been forced to slowly build the mental strength to deal with it over the years. but I swear if anyone I knew was able to switch into me for one day, they'd kill themselves by the end of the day.

 

[peacebenow]

absolutely, yes no question.