Discussion Do you think you'll cry if/ when you come to CTB? If so, why?

[TransTaxEvader]

oh absolutely i would, my bitch ass cries over dropping her salad on the floor. I already put so many tears into my note, I can only imagine what it's gonna be like. it's necessary though.

 

[ForeverCaHa]

I can guarantee I will cry. I plan on reading my late partner's suicide note and looking at photos of us together. That will confirm my motivations (losing so much that I can never get back) and give me any extra push I may need to down the SN mixture

 

[heyismeman]

Cry of hate. I recognize that the only and best method for me is SN, and I completely hate it. I would like to leave this miserable world with dignity without feeling anything, just fall asleep and never open my eyes again, more friendly to everyone.

Have you looked into fentanyl

 

[grapevoid]

No. I don't feel emotional about (my) suicide at all anymore. I didn't cry during my last attempt and I don't think I will in my next. I've definitely disassociated from it and fully separated from my emotions during my last attempt. It's the only way I can overcome the SI.

 

[SufferingInDenmark]

sure. but i would try to make it not so melancholic and just accept it. i wouldn't try to like... set a really sad mood and stuff...
even tho that's what it is. but i would be like "well, this isn't a perfect situation, but my circumstances of life have brought me to this,
so might as well die with a smile" type shit.
not a SMILE, but you know what i mean.

 

[Marbas]

My past attempts to CTB I didn't cry. I was just anxious.

 

[Thomas599]

One of my biggest fears that I will have no way of actually knowing if it becomes true is - Will I be remembered? And if so, for how long? I know that there will not be any national holidays named after me, there will be no statues of me and no streets or schools named after me, but I don't want to be forgotten. I want at least to know that my presence on this planet had more of a positive impact on someone's life than a negative impact on the world. I think the not knowing will make me cry. The not believing that the net impact of my life on the world... will be negligible and that brings me a profound sense of emptiness.

 

[lwovely]

Yes because I am scared it'll hurt and I don't know what will happen after this. As much as I tried to stay I physically cannot anymore.

 

[ButterflyKilled]

Have you looked into fentanyl

I live in Brazil, it is not popular here. Very hard to get, by the way.

 

[doingus]

Ive attempted a few times now, and I definitely was in a panicked/emotionally charged state afterwards, so I most likely would/will shed a few tears next time i attempt

 

[legoshi]

I cry when I think of my mom finding out. I cry when I think of how to say goodbye. I cry when I think how did I get to this point? I cry a lot, so I probably will cry.

 

[CantTurnBack]

The closer I get to attempting; the more emotionless I feel. Last year I called my mom crying harder than I have in my entire life, confessing that I wanted to jump from the bridge or shoot myself with my pistol. Since then I've only grown colder, as I move closer to manifesting my demise from thoughts to reality.

Soon I will be standing on the edge of the bridge or staring down the barrel of a shotgun, and void of all emotions.