Do you think there's something sort of beautiful about dying young?

[SentimentalTrip]

I've always sort of struggled with the idea of aging, even outside of the context about wanting to CTB. I just think its sort of sad to get old and decrepit. I'm young, but I look back at pictures of myself from a few years ago and I see an unusual amount of aging. Maybe it's stress. I have aspirations, but I know that they're almost certainly not going to occur, especially with this debilitating depression. I get sad about the thought of getting older living this way and seeing myself become an old, gross failure. If I were to CTB, I'd never have to see myself arrive at that point, which I feel is almost certainly going to happen.

When you die young, there's still the idea that you might have gone on to accomplish something. Of course the only people who're going to have those ideas are those you leave behind.

Anyone else see things this way? Or am I just an angsty weirdo?

 

[rustcohle4life]

Beautiful, not necessarily. Aging does suck and would be much less scary if people were afforded the right to die on their own terms.

 

[plast1c_sk1n]

I've always sort of struggled with the idea of aging, even outside of the context about wanting to CTB. I just think its sort of sad to get old and decrepit. I'm young, but I look back at pictures of myself from a few years ago and I see an unusual amount of aging. Maybe it's stress. I have aspirations, but I know that they're almost certainly not going to occur, especially with this debilitating depression. I get sad about the thought of getting older living this way and seeing myself become an old, gross failure. If I were to CTB, I'd never have to see myself arrive at that point, which I feel is almost certainly going to happen.

When you die young, there's still the idea that you might have gone on to accomplish something. Of course the only people who're going to have those ideas are those you leave behind.

Anyone else see things this way? Or am I just an angsty weirdo?

I think the same & I like the way you worded it.
Personally, I can't picture myself old at all. Being old sounds unbearable to me. As a kid I always wanted to die before 30. But now that I'm nearly 20, I feel maybe I'll die at 40 instead. Maybe as I get older things will change again? Maybe one day I will want to grow old?
But I've not yet ever felt that way. Always been perplexed by people saying they want to grow old. I never want to be seen that way.
I want to be a kid forever. Dying young sounds wonderful. I think there is something beautiful about it in a way.

 

[_Gollum_]

To me what's beautiful about it is that you save yourself so many years of suffering. I wish I had killed myself when I was much younger -- quitting while I was ahead, so to speak. Now I've lost so much more and gained so many more scars, and it'll all have been for nothing.

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

Yes,, because that is when I am,,, beautiful,, 30 is the plan or more like 29,, but im afraid ill have to do something really not okay in order to..

But really it wouldnt matter when I die as my death young or old will bring me,,, equality,, with a bullet through my head that is.

I must be diligent i have to be patient, not hysterical..

 

[$yck]

I've always sort of struggled with the idea of aging, even outside of the context about wanting to CTB. I just think its sort of sad to get old and decrepit. I'm young, but I look back at pictures of myself from a few years ago and I see an unusual amount of aging. Maybe it's stress. I have aspirations, but I know that they're almost certainly not going to occur, especially with this debilitating depression. I get sad about the thought of getting older living this way and seeing myself become an old, gross failure. If I were to CTB, I'd never have to see myself arrive at that point, which I feel is almost certainly going to happen.

When you die young, there's still the idea that you might have gone on to accomplish something. Of course the only people who're going to have those ideas are those you leave behind.

Anyone else see things this way? Or am I just an angsty weirdo?

There is absolutely something beautiful about dying young. No one will ever know what the world will be like without you.

 

[Leonard_Bangley39]

i wish i could be immortal honestly. to be more specific, i wish i could be immortal the same way Fushi from To your Eternity is. Stay young forever, but still be able to agree if i want, and also be able to recreate anything.

If i had that ability, i wouldn't have to worry about anything anymore

 

[ginko0]

Yeah, I do. I picture it as ending life while the flame (that is, vitality and soundness of mind) is still alive. While the heart still can feel and the mind can still understand.

 

[madwoman]

Yeah, I don't want to continue feeling the way I do - feeling so lonely and hating myself so much that's only going to get worse as I age. I don't want to keep going on like this and being sad everyday - quality of life is not good. I am barely living and spend most of my life in fictional words and without a partner and it's only going to get harder as I get older and less attractive too. 36 now and felt I lived enough.

 

[Lamentice]

Immortalized youth does sound romantic.

 

[Black_Knight]

when I was in my 20s I had this weird notion that I wanted to kill myself because I was at my peak (of pleasure) and I knew it would only go downhill
I was right, but I also feel I've grown through age, and at the time I didn't understand that I would or how it would happen
I hate youth obsession. my mental machinery has definitely been fraying, and I'm not attractive anymore, but I'm also stronger than I was before, in a way.
I see it like a tradeoff between power and wisdom. I was powerful but stupid before. now I'm still stupid, but a little less so, and that power is dampened but I have the faculties to make it into a well-placed breeze if I need to. even if I can no longer summon storms I can't control like I used to.