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SentimentalTrip

SentimentalTrip

Member
Mar 30, 2023
83
I've always sort of struggled with the idea of aging, even outside of the context about wanting to CTB. I just think its sort of sad to get old and decrepit. I'm young, but I look back at pictures of myself from a few years ago and I see an unusual amount of aging. Maybe it's stress. I have aspirations, but I know that they're almost certainly not going to occur, especially with this debilitating depression. I get sad about the thought of getting older living this way and seeing myself become an old, gross failure. If I were to CTB, I'd never have to see myself arrive at that point, which I feel is almost certainly going to happen.

When you die young, there's still the idea that you might have gone on to accomplish something. Of course the only people who're going to have those ideas are those you leave behind.

Anyone else see things this way? Or am I just an angsty weirdo?
 
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badatparties

badatparties

Elementalist
Mar 16, 2025
814
Beautiful, not necessarily. Aging does suck and would be much less scary if people were afforded the right to die on their own terms.
 
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plast1c_sk1n

plast1c_sk1n

no longer human
Jul 4, 2024
51
I've always sort of struggled with the idea of aging, even outside of the context about wanting to CTB. I just think its sort of sad to get old and decrepit. I'm young, but I look back at pictures of myself from a few years ago and I see an unusual amount of aging. Maybe it's stress. I have aspirations, but I know that they're almost certainly not going to occur, especially with this debilitating depression. I get sad about the thought of getting older living this way and seeing myself become an old, gross failure. If I were to CTB, I'd never have to see myself arrive at that point, which I feel is almost certainly going to happen.

When you die young, there's still the idea that you might have gone on to accomplish something. Of course the only people who're going to have those ideas are those you leave behind.

Anyone else see things this way? Or am I just an angsty weirdo?
I think the same & I like the way you worded it.
Personally, I can't picture myself old at all. Being old sounds unbearable to me. As a kid I always wanted to die before 30. But now that I'm nearly 20, I feel maybe I'll die at 40 instead. Maybe as I get older things will change again? Maybe one day I will want to grow old?
But I've not yet ever felt that way. Always been perplexed by people saying they want to grow old. I never want to be seen that way.
I want to be a kid forever. Dying young sounds wonderful. I think there is something beautiful about it in a way.
 
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_Gollum_

_Gollum_

Formerly Alexei_Kirillov
Mar 9, 2024
1,673
To me what's beautiful about it is that you save yourself so many years of suffering. I wish I had killed myself when I was much younger -- quitting while I was ahead, so to speak. Now I've lost so much more and gained so many more scars, and it'll all have been for nothing.
 
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YandereMikuMistress

YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
1,389
Yes,, because that is when I am,,, beautiful,, 30 is the plan or more like 29,, but im afraid ill have to do something really not okay in order to..

But really it wouldnt matter when I die as my death young or old will bring me,,, equality,, with a bullet through my head that is.

I must be diligent i have to be patient, not hysterical..
 
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$ixty-2wo

Member
Oct 23, 2025
60
I've always sort of struggled with the idea of aging, even outside of the context about wanting to CTB. I just think its sort of sad to get old and decrepit. I'm young, but I look back at pictures of myself from a few years ago and I see an unusual amount of aging. Maybe it's stress. I have aspirations, but I know that they're almost certainly not going to occur, especially with this debilitating depression. I get sad about the thought of getting older living this way and seeing myself become an old, gross failure. If I were to CTB, I'd never have to see myself arrive at that point, which I feel is almost certainly going to happen.

When you die young, there's still the idea that you might have gone on to accomplish something. Of course the only people who're going to have those ideas are those you leave behind.

Anyone else see things this way? Or am I just an angsty weirdo?
There is absolutely something beautiful about dying young. No one will ever know what the world will be like without you.
 
Leonard_Bangley39

Leonard_Bangley39

Hate life but scared of death
Nov 6, 2025
228
i wish i could be immortal honestly. to be more specific, i wish i could be immortal the same way Fushi from To your Eternity is. Stay young forever, but still be able to agree if i want, and also be able to recreate anything.

If i had that ability, i wouldn't have to worry about anything anymore
 
ginko0

ginko0

To be or not to be
May 8, 2025
199
Yeah, I do. I picture it as ending life while the flame (that is, vitality and soundness of mind) is still alive. While the heart still can feel and the mind can still understand.
 
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madwoman

madwoman

what a shame she went mad
May 7, 2025
613
Yeah, I don't want to continue feeling the way I do - feeling so lonely and hating myself so much that's only going to get worse as I age. I don't want to keep going on like this and being sad everyday - quality of life is not good. I am barely living and spend most of my life in fictional words and without a partner and it's only going to get harder as I get older and less attractive too. 36 now and felt I lived enough.
 
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Lamentice

Lamentice

Schizoid
Mar 27, 2023
111
Immortalized youth does sound romantic.
 
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Bitch With An Apple

"Student"
Jul 10, 2019
271
when I was in my 20s I had this weird notion that I wanted to kill myself because I was at my peak (of pleasure) and I knew it would only go downhill
I was right, but I also feel I've grown through age, and at the time I didn't understand that I would or how it would happen
I hate youth obsession. my mental machinery has definitely been fraying, and I'm not attractive anymore, but I'm also stronger than I was before, in a way.
I see it like a tradeoff between power and wisdom. I was powerful but stupid before. now I'm still stupid, but a little less so, and that power is dampened but I have the faculties to make it into a well-placed breeze if I need to. even if I can no longer summon storms I can't control like I used to.
 
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gomer1978

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Oct 23, 2025
39
Dying young is the most tragic death.
 
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PI3.14

PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
554
Nope, if anything, it's a very tragic thing.
 
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Ashes of a Dreamer

Ashes of a Dreamer

Looking for freedom out of this hell
Dec 29, 2024
161
Yes, I do. By dying young, you avoid the consequences of aging (gradual loss of senses, vitality, recovery, autonomy, as well as increased visits to the doctor and chances of getting sick). People say that elder achieve the "best age", but, honestly, it seems like the worse. Anyway, I can be wrong, and you don't have to be old to face these consequences - in fact, they can happen at any time, but are more common on elderly.
 
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fedup1982

Wizard
Jul 17, 2025
612
From the outside, a person dying young is always tragic. But from the inside, if a person wants to die due to suffering, then for them it's always beautiful.

It's sad from the outside because people recognise the potential of that person being destroyed. But it's beautiful from the inside because you come to accept death as the release from all problems.

The contrast there is itself tragic. That people can't reconcile the difference between internal and external perception. It explains why people are so hesitant to support the right to die in most countries. But the solution should not be a blanket ban. It should be a compromise. First, try to help the person as much as possible, and if their death wish is really persistent, then give them the means for a peaceful death.
 
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NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
568
I'm 25 and it seems like a nice number to end it all on, but my birthday is in about few months so I need to make up my mind.
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
1,470
No. It's just sad. Sadder is the world that pushes that without remorse.
 
immolation

immolation

mensajera de la santa muerte
Oct 31, 2025
21
I think the same way !! I do have goals but realistically i dont think theyll happen. Almost every attempt ive done has been right before a birthday because getting older scares me so bad. The younger i die the more beauty is in the death in my opinion .