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Emerita

Emerita

the look of death
Jan 16, 2025
309
Before ctb Im going to repeat in my head:

Its only going to hurt for a little bit
Then I will be safe
And at peace

Its only going to hurt for a little bit
Then I will be safe
And at peace

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What mantra do you think you will you use? If you don't have one, what do you think will be the last thing tell yourself?
 
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suicidaljane

suicidaljane

Member
Feb 27, 2025
23
I dont have mantra but I thought of something similar to help me get the courage:
I might feel panic and few seconds of pain but then it will stop and I will enter eternal peace, feel nothing= death. All my problems and insecurities will be gone. But before that peace I need to endure some panic and pain.
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,802
This too will pass.
 
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TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

Illuminated
Aug 27, 2018
3,069
If there ever were one it would be this one from the movie Inception with a little added in the end.

"You're waiting for a train, a train that will take you far away. You know where you hope this train will take you, but you don't know for sure. But it doesn't matter. Now tell me why! Because I will be a child again/Because I won´t suffer anymore" either one of the two.
 
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ToANewWorld

Rarity
Apr 16, 2025
94
I am bummed about the direction my life has taken since after a horrible childhood and teenagehood I learned to love myself and love life. Which is why if I ctb I have decided to see my death as an adventure. I will finally know what is beyond the curtain of death.

I am hoping is like in "The OA".

"To a new world"
 
CentreMid

CentreMid

Midfielder
Aug 23, 2018
539
I don't have a mantra, but during my last attempt, the last thing I remember thinking was "time to go to sleep". It was very nice until SI kicked in
 
pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,331
Before ctb Im going to repeat in my head:

Its only going to hurt for a little bit
Then I will be safe
And at peace

Its only going to hurt for a little bit
Then I will be safe
And at peace

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What mantra do you think you will you use? If you don't have one, what do you think will be the last thing tell yourself?
Good idea
 
bananaolympus

bananaolympus

Specialist
Dec 12, 2024
394
I don't really thought of that but when i attempted when i let myself go the word "finally" crossed my mind
 

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