Do you hate yourself or just life in general?

[Lobster_Toast1281]

Everything bad that has happened has been my own fault. So, yeah, I do hate myself. It's perhaps my worst enemy.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I hate myself. Have since childhood.

 

[deathslament]

Everything
Misanthropy

 

[untothedepths]

I learned to loath myself from others. So I hate myself, and the messed up parts about life. The good parts are great potentially, but its just all that bad that pretty much makes my case hopeless.

 

[willitpass]

I hate myself and have for as long as I remember. My self hatred and constant urge to inflict severe pain on myself in every way possible is unbearable at times. I hate some things about life, but love others. I don't have an inherent hatred for everything about life, most of the things I hate about life revolve around my hatred for myself.

 

[theboy]

life

 

[Hotsackage]

Why would anyone hate themselves? We are not responsible for our genetics or chemical make up, everyone here for the most part are decent human beings.

 

[sserafim]

Why would anyone hate themselves? We are not responsible for our genetics or chemical make up, everyone here for the most part are decent human beings.

I don't understand this either

 

[deathslament]

Why would anyone hate themselves?

Because I'm not social/like everyone else.

We are not responsible for our genetics or chemical make up, everyone here for the most part are decent human beings.

As nothing to do with the actions of living.

 

[sserafim]

Because I'm not social/like everyone else.



As nothing to do with the actions of living.

I'm not social or like everyone else either, but I don't hate myself. I don't really have an opinion on myself; I'm ambivalent

 

[druggedonsurvival]

I had a misanthropic phase as a teenager but I don't hate humanity anymore. I think human nature is deeply flawed and our society breeds suffering, but most people are oblivious to this fact and moreover we are all victims of birth. Therefore, I don't really blame anyone else for being how they are since we're all sort of forced into existence. But still, I do hate myself, because it seems like so many people are fine with being alive, so many people seem happy even, but I am not. I hate myself for not being able to be like them, for not being grateful for what I have in life, for sabotaging all the chances I've had over and over again. All the problems in my life seem like my fault (aside from my existing in the first place); maybe because I can't bring myself to hate anyone else there's only one other place for that hatred to go.

 

[deathslament]

I had a misanthropic phase as a teenager but I don't hate humanity anymore.

Do you know what's it like to lose someone who you could only genuinely talk to.
Knowing I have no family (don';t even know them enough to call them that) that moment I had with him did mean a lot.
so maybe i am more bitter now, but i don't care.

 

[walkingdead2023]

This is the way I feel I don't relate to so many, I only hate life and I don't hate myself in any way, I hate how I was burdened with the ability to exist and I believe I deserve better than existence, I deserve the peace of eternal nothingness because to me existence itself is the true problem, it's an imposistion, an hellish abomination and an unnecessary harm.

Simply being conscious and aware is a curse to me and I'm always thinking about how tragic it was how life even evolved at all, like why does life even have to exist when the absence of everything is perfection. I despise existence as it only causes meaningless suffering and problems there was never a need for, existence is completely useless and also just so unnecessary.

To me non-existence will always be preferable as those who no longer exist cannot mourn for how they lack the ability to suffer yet there is no limit as to how torturous existing can get and I simply don't wish to suffer just to risk experiencing way worse suffering at any moment, yet ceasing to exist solves everything, brings peace from all current suffering and removes any possibilities to suffer in the future. Existence is just evil to me, I'm not the problem but rather existence is.

And unlike many other suicidal people I'm not into self harm, I'm already harmed enough simply by existing and I don't wish for harm, I only wish for the absence of everything, it sounds so beautiful to never be able to think or feel ever again. But overall I only hate existence as existence itself is the ultimate source of my suffering, I was just unfortunate enough to be forced into existence, it's really sad how humans procreate, I wish they just wouldn't as it'd prevent so much pain caused by existing.

Both I hate myself people and life

 

[mtoro998]

I dont hate myself just life and this world we live in.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

I hate my sick body.

 

[CuriosityAndCat]

Can I have another option?

 

[BardBarrie]

I both hate myself and hate life.

 

[turbomightbegone]

I think I hate the way how I live my life more than I hate life itself.

I'm a lazy, mentally ill person that rots in my bed all day. I normally need assistance with the most simplest things, I can barely function by myself. It doesn't help that my family is toxic and rude to me either. I'm too tired to fix myself, and too scared to cbt.

I don't exactly hate life in general. Good things exist, it's just that I normally can't experience any of it thanks to my own self-destructive existence. So I'd say I hate myself and my lifestyle.

 

[Mea Culpa]

Both, life is a burden unto me and ergo I am a burden upon my peers.

I was given a life I never wanted and now I'm a useless, worthless failure and all I do is cause pain and hatred.

Life has done nothing but hurt me, take away the things I love, and destroy whatever person I was and now I'm nothing but a husk. A walking corpse.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I thought it was common sense that if ur suicidal you hate yourself but it seems I was wrong. I learn something new every day I guess.

I used to hate myself before I joined this forum. After I joined the forum, it's because of users like FC who don't hate themselves which made me realise that me hating myself was completely irrational and that what I should be hating instead is life. However, I was hating myself all these years because I thought that was the only way to be and I didn't have the critical thinking to not hate myself because, prior to this forum, I never seen a single suicidal person not hate themselves

Now I can't understand why people do hate themselves. In my case, I only hated myself because I thought it was the only way to explain things (until I realised it wasn't) but people here seem so dead set on hating themselves and I don't understand it

 

[sserafim]

Both, but mostly myself bc of all the horrible things I've done in my past and how much of a burden I am to ppl.

Ngl, I'm suprised to see that there are people who are suicidal who doesn't hate themselves. I thought it was common sense that if ur suicidal you hate yourself but it seems I was wrong. I learn something new every day I guess.

I don't hate myself. I hate society, the world and other people instead.

 

[sklvlp999]

Myself

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Why would anyone hate themselves? We are not responsible for our genetics or chemical make up, everyone here for the most part are decent human beings.

I can't believe that it took me using this forum to comprehend this. Prior to this forum, I couldn't comprehend something like this as I've never seen anybody think like this but, now that I'm here, I don't understand why people do hate themselves. After all, like you said, we're all victims for the most part. We never asked to be born

 

[Silent_cries]

I don't hate myself. I hate society, the world and other people instead.

I hate those things too, but personally I have a crippling self-hatred for myself. I utterly and completely despise myself. Honestly you're lucky you don't hate yourself bc self-hatred is not fun to deal with, trust me!

I used to hate myself before I joined this forum. After I joined the forum, it's because of users like FC who don't hate themselves which made me realise that me hating myself was completely irrational and that what I should be hating instead is life. However, I was hating myself all these years because I thought that was the only way to be and I didn't have the critical thinking to not hate myself because, prior to this forum, I never seen a single suicidal person not hate themselves

Now I can't understand why people do hate themselves. In my case, I only hated myself because I thought it was the only way to explain things (until I realised it wasn't) but people here seem so dead set on hating themselves and I don't understand it

Well, I can't speak for others, but I personally hate myself bc I've done horrible things to others in the past and I'm still afraid of myself bc of it and sometimes I still screw up bc of my anger issues. I think this is a relatively common reason some ppl hate themselves, coz it's never fun knowing you caused others damage, unless it's your worst enemy or you're a psychopath that is, and so you're obiovsly going to blame yourself for it. I'm sure there are other reasons people hate themselves too, like poor body image and such but that's my main reason anyway and I'm pretty sure many can relate.

Idk, I hope this helped giving you a little insight on at least one of the reasons ppl hate themselves. I get that the world can be confusing sometimes though, I too find it confusing sometimes.

 

[Right2die]

I think both. Maybe life more than myself. I just can't bear the idea of finishing school, only to go into a monotonous cycle of work.

One of the reasons I want to ctb is because of work... That's all it is, work work work everyday.

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

I don't hate myself as in i think I am an okay person, but I very much dislike many traits I'm prone to like emotional heaviness and overthinking and investing in people and giving a shit about my responsibilities.

 

[IonicLemon69]

I hate myself for the mistakes I've made in the past & how I can never fix them, I'd like to think I'm a good person but do & say bad things to the people I love more often then I'd like to admit. :( With that though I think I hate living in general more than I hate who I am.

 

[idk3]

Both. Even if I wasn't reminded on a daily basis that I'm inferior in every single way compared to blessed people who won the genetic lottery, this world is still not for me. There's just simply too much suffering and I'm unable to ignore it.

 

[Mi Mi]

This is the way I feel I don't relate to so many, I only hate life and I don't hate myself in any way, I hate how I was burdened with the ability to exist and I believe I deserve better than existence, I deserve the peace of eternal nothingness because to me existence itself is the true problem, it's an imposistion, an hellish abomination and an unnecessary harm.

Simply being conscious and aware is a curse to me and I'm always thinking about how tragic it was how life even evolved at all, like why does life even have to exist when the absence of everything is perfection. I despise existence as it only causes meaningless suffering and problems there was never a need for, existence is completely useless and also just so unnecessary.

To me non-existence will always be preferable as those who no longer exist cannot mourn for how they lack the ability to suffer yet there is no limit as to how torturous existing can get and I simply don't wish to suffer just to risk experiencing way worse suffering at any moment, yet ceasing to exist solves everything, brings peace from all current suffering and removes any possibilities to suffer in the future. Existence is just evil to me, I'm not the problem but rather existence is.

And unlike many other suicidal people I'm not into self harm, I'm already harmed enough simply by existing and I don't wish for harm, I only wish for the absence of everything, it sounds so beautiful to never be able to think or feel ever again. But overall I only hate existence as existence itself is the ultimate source of my suffering, I was just unfortunate enough to be forced into existence, it's really sad how humans procreate, I wish they just wouldn't as it'd prevent so much pain caused by existing.

I hate life
I hate annoying people
I hate my lack of knowledge and courage
But me as a person
I actually adore her

I have actually done a LOT of research into why that is because I also find it a fascinating phenomenon. It's way too much to lay out my findings here though.

I've actually considered writing a book about it before. But my depression is too bad for that, tbh.

You can write a book if you want.
I'm reading a book now by a woman who was depressed, suicidal and had the same method as me.
If she can do it you can
There's no time frame
When you're done will you include me in the thank you's

 

[Red Moon]

I hate life and the society. I don't think I hate myself but I don't feel good about myself either.