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Redt2go

Redt2go

flower child
Jan 5, 2019
1,643
Hey guys

Does anyone else sometimes enjoy sex and the thought of sex but at other times find it utterly disgusting?

I think part of my disgust with sex comes from some slight sexual abuse but sometimes I think it's ocd-ish or depression.... Like all the sweating and the act itself disgusts me... maybe I'm disgusted with myself for kinkyness... I think I just think too much
 
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Exile

Predator, criminal, emotional blackmailer
Jan 28, 2019
181
Sex can be fantastic. When it's not, it's overrated as an activity. Certain things I find very unappealing, so I don't do them.
 
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ShadowOfTheDay

ShadowOfTheDay

Hungry Ghost
Feb 14, 2019
331
Yeah. Whatever enjoyment I had during sex was always outweighed by self-loathing. Same with food. Same with booze. Same with just about everything.
 
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Nitromask

Specialist
Feb 18, 2019
324
My issue is I've never had sex as good as it was with my ex from like 4 years ago...so even 'good' sex is like mehhh
 
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anthomaniac

anthomaniac

Member
Oct 10, 2018
40
I feel the same sometimes, but i think mine it's more entitled to gender dysphoria (me being a FTM) and the fear of intimacy. I can remember all the other times i've had sex before, with people i trusted and felt good with and it was amazing, and those memories don't disgust me oor make me feel bad. But as soon as i picture myself trying to be intimate with anyone else again or showing my body in such ways or seeing my body in such ways does not only gives me a high feeling of disgust but also of sadness
 
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Whatshername

Whatshername

That Ghost Lady on the Hill
Dec 14, 2018
1,352
I wouldn't necessarily say disgusted, but my libido left the building over a year ago.I simply can't even imagine myself doing it anymore. Another thing I used to enjoy, but no longer can :(
 
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Meretlein

Meretlein

Moderator
Feb 15, 2019
1,199
I'm asexual. I sometimes feel as if I'm the equivalent of being born without taste buds or a love of music.
 
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LasttoKnow

LasttoKnow

Member
Jan 5, 2019
13
I wouldn't say disgusted, but there's a whole reality not living up to the fantasy thing that's been kind of problematic. Thanks internet, lol
 
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Kyrok

Kyrok

Paragon
Nov 6, 2018
970
Of course. Gets boring with same partner. Gets even more boring as you get older.
 
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ArtsyDrawer

Enlightened
Nov 8, 2018
1,438
Due to my condition, I've learned to see sex simply as a breeding mechanism. Considering my condition, I would very much prefer to not breed and have my child suffer from the same disease.
It exists, but I want none of it.
 
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Redt2go

Redt2go

flower child
Jan 5, 2019
1,643
Hmm okay so noone finds the intricacies disgusting. My issues with sweat and orphices must be OCD related
 
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Mr. Hang Man

Mr. Hang Man

Just hanging around
Mar 11, 2019
69
I'm a virgin, these emotions are foreign to me as I do not quite understand them. However I do at times feel disgusted with the act itself especially when it's a one night stand or with a prostitute.

It's sex but without any form of actual intimacy instead it's just for the pleasure of said action then actually looking to be intimate with the person they are doing it with.
 
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Jc40

Jc40

Specialist
Mar 3, 2019
354
I wouldn't necessarily say disgusted, but my libido left the building over a year ago.I simply can't even imagine myself doing it anymore. Another thing I used to enjoy, but no longer can :(
Not had sex in roughly 3 years. Feel same as you
 
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Robbyna

Robbyna

Student
Mar 6, 2019
182
I don't necessarily feel disgusted by it, but I do feel numb to it and I have no desire to have a partner anymore. I think it's all a part of my severe depression and one more reason to CTB.
 
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Angst Filled Fuck Up

Angst Filled Fuck Up

Visionary
Sep 9, 2018
2,711
I only seem to like sex with a new girl. As soon as things become routine, it's a total chore for me (in most cases). Some aspects of sex I find a little gross, but not enough to put me off in the moment. But basically outside of that initial excitement/novelty I don't care for it. Just starts to feel like exercise and usually not even as good as masturbation.
 
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bruisedtorso

bruisedtorso

Filthy rotten no good punk
Mar 10, 2019
35
My ex made me go off sex for a long time, he was emotionally abusive and broke up with me because i "wasn't putting out anymore".
 
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406metallicblue

Student
Sep 7, 2018
180
I have gone off sex because of the reasons you suggest, messy and demeaning. Besides, i have seen the damage it can do to sensitive souls. Getting all naked and entangled, fear of not performing and being judged, the whole build up to it. Grim.
 
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Cookiedough8956

Wowzers
Feb 24, 2019
636
Most often, i dont have sex for myself, rather just do it to please the guy.
But it depends on my high or low "cycles", im very sexually active during my highs and from my lows i dont even wanna get touched.
Its common but its what happens to me
 
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Redt2go

Redt2go

flower child
Jan 5, 2019
1,643
Ooh look there's a meme about it so it must be a thing ! 8869
 
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Roberto

Wizard
Jan 19, 2019
684
I always thought it as something dirty.
I don't have any fantasies. I did love sex with my second (and last) girlfriend, as a way to be one. My previous girlfriend (and she was my wife later), she didn't like to make love with me. I was frustrated.
But now, I just don't care about it. Yes, I could say I imagine it like disgusting sometimes. Other simply I just don't go for it or feel atracted by anyone. I could say I'm a bit like asexual right now. My only priority is to wait for ctb. I associate sex with love, and love with willing to live.
 
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reznikoff

reznikoff

Despondent
Jan 13, 2019
43
Sometimes. Mostly because I do it and I have only done it with one person, ever. I love sex, don't get me wrong, but I feel like it gets really repetitive, and as someone before me said, a chore.
 
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Norest4thewicked

Norest4thewicked

Losing it
Nov 4, 2018
270
Disgusting, no. Bored, yes. Especially with the same partner. Personally, I love the rush of a new girlfriend. The getting to know you phase, the build up of friendship, the mutual lust. For me it fades over time
 
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Eren

Eren

Si hablas español mándame un MP
Oct 27, 2018
1,075
not boring, just frustrated and confusing, it prevents me from having a partner and is one of my reasons for CTB
 
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Sundayafternoon

Sundayafternoon

Cosmic panic
May 18, 2018
394
Hey guys

Does anyone else sometimes enjoy sex and the thought of sex but at other times find it utterly disgusting?

I think part of my disgust with sex comes from some slight sexual abuse but sometimes I think it's ocd-ish or depression.... Like all the sweating and the act itself disgusts me... maybe I'm disgusted with myself for kinkyness... I think I just think too much

Yes. I go through cycles where it's all i think about (mostly drug induced) Then weeks months, hell years, where the thought of being touched in a sexually manner grosses me out.

I've been dreaming about it constantly though recently.
Ooh look there's a meme about it so it must be a thing ! View attachment 8869
But i can definitely relate! Borderline by any chance?
 
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Redt2go

Redt2go

flower child
Jan 5, 2019
1,643
Yes. I go through cycles where it's all i think about (mostly drug induced) Then weeks months, hell years, where the thought of being touched in a sexually manner grosses me out.

I've been dreaming about it constantly though recently.

But i can definitely relate! Borderline by any chance?
Yup yup what drugs induce it if I may ask
 
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KiraLittleOwl

Lost in transition
Jan 25, 2019
1,083
I don't hate sex but I suffered from my libido, thankfully it's now in check because I am on antiandrogens. I feel much more in control over my body urges.
Anyway I don't have a sex partner and hook ups are not something I want.
 
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Broken Widow

Broken Widow

Wildlife crisis
Aug 20, 2018
36
I'm asexual. I sometimes feel as if I'm the equivalent of being born without taste buds or a love of music.
I'm demisexual, so I'm basically ace 99% of time. Aside from that, I don't have much libido.
 
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GeorgeJL

GeorgeJL

Enlightened
Mar 7, 2019
1,621
Hey guys

Does anyone else sometimes enjoy sex and the thought of sex but at other times find it utterly disgusting?

I think part of my disgust with sex comes from some slight sexual abuse but sometimes I think it's ocd-ish or depression.... Like all the sweating and the act itself disgusts me... maybe I'm disgusted with myself for kinkyness... I think I just think too much
IMO the slight sexual abuse probably didn't have anything to do with it. It's probably more that your depressed than anything else. I know people that have been sexually abused and like it. It depends also on how high or low your sex drive is. And that has to do with your hormones.
 
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BeHope

BeHope

Member
Oct 31, 2018
89
I've never had any interest in sex so I'm probably asexual. I don't mind reading it so long as it's not straight sex (which has always grossed me out for some reason, no offense) but I cannot watch it - no, no, no.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
I have sex often with many men although since coming off Adderall ive become pickier again, because my disgust sensitivity increases and mainly seeing regulars as of late lol! On adderall it lowers my disgust sensitivity and I'm able to have sex with people I normally couldn't with. I'm just like omg! Lol! I'm sorry to gross everyone out. I do still enjoy it but often see it as a necessary evil these days. The guys I see are nice but yea it's why I missed out on marriage and kids. It started off as promiscuity and developed into a way of life. I can't really imagine a different life anymore. I'm in too deep and it's been too many dicks lol! I'm sure it's impacted me psychologically. It eases loneliness and makes me feel wanted and appreciated I guess. I get a bit of attention and feels good. I know i can't live like this forever and expect to have a short life.
 
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