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Worthless_nobody
Enlightened
- Feb 14, 2019
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Title. Basically I just can't get over the depressing thought that I have way more years left ahead of me to live than behind me if I were to lead out my natural life. I'm only in my late 20s but I could easy have another 50 to 60+ years in this hell if I lived my natural life. It's been this bad so far I just cannot fathom 50 more years of this shit. And the world is only getting worse and turning more and more into some dystopian hellscape. Why the world would I be excited about 50+ more years of suffering.
Also very sadly longevity runs in my family. I can't believe how many people in my family lived into their 90s! Many of them in terrible health suffering in a nursing home with alzheimer's their last few years but others were in fine health. I just wish I could trade this life and genetic longevity with someone who wants it. It's so messed up.. I know I'll 100% have to kill myself regardless and there are people who want to keep living or wishing they had longevity.
Also very sadly longevity runs in my family. I can't believe how many people in my family lived into their 90s! Many of them in terrible health suffering in a nursing home with alzheimer's their last few years but others were in fine health. I just wish I could trade this life and genetic longevity with someone who wants it. It's so messed up.. I know I'll 100% have to kill myself regardless and there are people who want to keep living or wishing they had longevity.