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[Defenestration]

I planned this suicide for a very long time. It will be today in the evening, night .......

but the closer it gets, the more I'm scared and the more the survival instinct holds me back...

I'm going to take alcohol, valium, opioids.

I know the whole family is going to go crazy... but I tell myself for all the time that I have been preparing suicide, the countless hours of hours that I have spent there, a crazy energy...

I will jump from 50/55 m (at home there is no higher) whether on hard or grass, I will prefer the hard but hard to aim...


I hope to have the courage to do it TO DO

 

[90starve]

i'll be thinking of you tonight - i hope everything goes as planned and you can transition peacefully <3

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry I don't understand French (??) but anyway, have a pleasant and peaceful journey! Farewell and good luck!

 

[Defenestration]

I'm sorry I don't understand French (??) but anyway, have a pleasant and peaceful journey! Farewell and good luck!

Its in english now

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Its in english now

I'm sorry that life brought you to this point. Jumping to me is such a horrible way to exit this world and suicide itself is such a difficult taks in the anti-cusice society we have to live in. I'm certainly not a pro-lifer and as you say SI is kickin' already long before, are you really sure you want to jump? There'd be way better methods with less SI disturbance. May I ask you what's your reason that brought you to this point?

 

[Defenestration]

I'm sorry that life brought you to this point. Jumping to me is such a horrible way to exit this world and suicide itself is such a difficult taks in the anti-cusice society we have to live in. I'm certainly not a pro-lifer and as you say SI is kickin' already long before, are you really sure you want to jump? There'd be way better methods with less SI disturbance. May I ask you what's your reason that brought you to this point?

Sévère Social anxiety disorder +++++
bipolar
borderline
généralised anxiety
death of my boyfriend last year

 

[Letgo]

I sm sorry for everything you have bern through. Wish you peace and rest. Will be thinking of you.

 

[Vizzy]

Hope you find peace and everything goes as planned

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm really sorry you have to go through all this. It's certainly a life that is not worth to be lived anymore. However jumping needs a lot of courage, I don't have it. I envy you if you can overcome and SI. But I still suggest to consider more peaceful methods. Anyway I wish you all the best may you find peace & freedom! Farewell and good luck!

 

[Defenestration]

hope the police don't find me as I posted here...I've seen members here visited by the police before. I'm in France

I'm really sorry you have to go through all this. It's certainly a life that is not worth to be lived anymore. However jumping needs a lot of courage, I don't have it. I envy you if you can overcome and SI. But I still suggest to consider more peaceful methods. Anyway I wish you all the best may you find peace & freedom! Farewell and good luck!

I'm really sorry you have to go through all this. It's certainly a life that is not worth to be lived anymore. However jumping needs a lot of courage, I don't have it. I envy you if you can overcome and SI. But I still suggest to consider more peaceful methods. Anyway I wish you all the best may you find peace & freedom! Farewell and good luck!

Jumping is lethal over 47 meters at 95/98/100...

 

[Praestat_Mori]

hope the police don't find me as I posted here...I've seen members here visited by the police before. I'm in France

Most of these people ordered SN and probably had a record or someone else (therapist / sth the like) suspected sth. If you regged here anonymous, who should know who you really are? Don´'t worry!!

 

[Defenestration]

I wrote my advance directives not to resuscitate myself, no therapeutic relentlessness

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

Per ardua ad astra

 

[Shirokuma]

Je te souhaite le meilleur. Plus j'y pense et plus je me rapproche de la mort, plus ça me fait peur. Même si c'est ce que je veux.

 

[FuneralCry]

I admire those with the courage for the jumping method, I hope that you find the freedom you are searching for.

 

[Kasumi]

I'm sorry you have to result to jumping, I hope all goes well for you and that you won't have to suffer even more fears before.
Take care ♡

 

[Defenestration]

It seems very hard to me to jump from so high...I try to drink a little opioids, benzodiazepines...but being sober it's impossible.
I am here...19 th stage now

 

[Ineedtodie]

You must be feeling so lonely with this. I wish you peace either way.

 

[_Minsk]

safe travels, i hope you find peace

 

[Defenestration]

I dont think i jump...scary...and to be so near of death...give me need toblive
Im lost
Please speak me

I'm sorry that life brought you to this point. Jumping to me is such a horrible way to exit this world and suicide itself is such a difficult taks in the anti-cusice society we have to live in. I'm certainly not a pro-lifer and as you say SI is kickin' already long before, are you really sure you want to jump? There'd be way better methods with less SI disturbance. May I ask you what's your reason that brought you to this point?

Its true its frightening

 

[HerculePoirot]

Solidarité... C'est dérisoire, désolé

 

[Defenestration]

I think i cant jump

 

[HerculePoirot]

That's perfect. No shame at all. Calm down.

 

[kionu09]

Dont jump man

 

[Ineedtodie]

I think i cant jump

I can feel a wave of fear just from this pov.. don't feel guilt. It's a horrible way to die for sure. Wish I had more supporting things to say. It's truly sad.

 

[HerculePoirot]

Your time hasn't come yet. Come back with us for now. Hugs.

 

[BehindTheWall]

Ne saute pas, il n'y a pas de honte à revenir sur sa décision.

 

[dggtscccvfd]

Calm down. Don't jump! If you're not sure, then it's best to have another think until you're sure; the roof will still be there tomorrow, you could jump then. Best not to do it until you're really sure as what's done cannot be undone.

 

[Defenestration]

Im little drunk but i like the life.
fuck off!
i cant jump...perhaphs night...

 

[sunsetboat234]

You have things to live for don't