coolcow1289
Student
- Mar 17, 2026
- 194
I had a work meeting that went horrific today. I spent the last 4 weeks preparing for it. And it still went wrong. I got pushback and looked like a clown.
My stupid bullshit job is all I have. I don't even make much money. I try so hard because I want people to think I'm smart and capable. I can't do anything if it's not perfect. Debilitating OCD. If I were actually smart and capable I'd be able to fix my life.
I have nothing else. I go to work, come home, immediately take sleeping pills and crash. On the weekends I go to the library to get ahead on work. I invent tasks to do - study guides, things to memorize, SOPs. All so I'll be better at my job. That or I reorganize files on my computer. It's all I have.
I have no friends. My only phone contacts are my family who I call once a week. No personal life. I try and build one but I just can't do it. I can't relate with people. I feel more alone whenever I try and meet people.
I resent everyone else at work. Fake corporate ladder climbers. LinkedIn word architects who care about nothing except making more money for their stupid vacations and meaningless hobbies.
I'll get them back when they're forced to haul my corpse out.
My stupid bullshit job is all I have. I don't even make much money. I try so hard because I want people to think I'm smart and capable. I can't do anything if it's not perfect. Debilitating OCD. If I were actually smart and capable I'd be able to fix my life.
I have nothing else. I go to work, come home, immediately take sleeping pills and crash. On the weekends I go to the library to get ahead on work. I invent tasks to do - study guides, things to memorize, SOPs. All so I'll be better at my job. That or I reorganize files on my computer. It's all I have.
I have no friends. My only phone contacts are my family who I call once a week. No personal life. I try and build one but I just can't do it. I can't relate with people. I feel more alone whenever I try and meet people.
I resent everyone else at work. Fake corporate ladder climbers. LinkedIn word architects who care about nothing except making more money for their stupid vacations and meaningless hobbies.
I'll get them back when they're forced to haul my corpse out.
