Venting CTB day tomorrow or Wednesday. With SN

[Wilt-On-High]

Hey all.
I'm going to CTB tomorrow/Wednesday
(I don't think anyone saw my last post about where its gonna take place.)

In all honesty I'm really scared.
And nervous but in the end I know this is the right path for me to take
This site doesn't work anywhere else so I won't be able to update when I actually do it so.

Some of the Factors that are influencing this:
- The constant name calling I've experienced (and it increased over the years)

- My Life going downhill
I was fairly happy until I started feeling Sad around 13-14 (or earlier I think)
my parents (especially my Mother) would encourage me to tell me what I was feeling but then would belittle me and say that in not paying any bills and I have no reason to be sad or she would tell my Father. OR she would use what I said to her against me. So I just bottled up everything

- what is happening right now.
I wouldn't say kicked out but...sent out (my Father is getting kicked out) for being such a Narc (THE ONLY THING HE HAD TO DO WAS SHUT UP AND WE WOULDNT HAVE TO FIND ANOTHER PROPERTY TO LIVE IN AND I WOULD BE IN COLLEGE TODAY BUT NOOOOO.)
And I'm getting dragged into it.


I CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO MENTION THE REST SO IF ANYONE WANTS TO FIND OUT WHY I CTB'D YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO LOOK AT MY POSTS OR SOMETHING (though...its only bits and pieces of what I went through...not the full story.)


Thank you SASU + MY ONLINE SASU friends + Everyone who comforted me when I was down.

I'll probably update tomorrow morning or something

Thank you everyone.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope you find peace. Good luck!

 

[Odwin]

If you aint doing it. Dont ghost us of all people the one here would understand.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best.