Venting Been crying non stop (((・・;)

[maggineko]

On Sunday, my mother made fun of me for wearing a little makeup (eyeshadow and mascara) and I've kind of spiraled from there. It was really bad, even though the trigger was trivial and I'd been feeling okay the previous couple weeks. I cried and cried and cried the whole day until Monday, and I'm still not feeling better since then. Wearing a little makeup was my way of feeling like not a loser, when I'm pretty much a loser every other time.

Monday, I fainted in class from crying so much. I went to the infirmary and cried more. Went home and continued to cry, and joined SaSu! Yay!

Tuesday, less crying, but still there, mostly at home. I had a cry during class but was as lowkey as possible about it. Felt a little ignored and hurt that my friend sitting right next to me didn't notice/didn't do anything, but it's to be expected. Anytime someone tries to help me, I just say "nah, I'm okay."

Wednesday, today, no crying on college premises anymore, but started crying in the backseat of the car. I'm a very quiet type of cry-er, so my parents seldom notice while driving. I mostly just break down when I close the door to my room.

I've never cried so much in my life. I don't cry very often, though I used to be a crybaby when I was younger. Some things just don't change internally! (；^ω^)

 

[Gild-Holm-’Ur]

Good morning, Nix. I would give some leeway to your friend. Sometimes just don't know how to react or what to do or what to do and just freeze.

I hope you feel better.

 

[nooneyouknow]

crying is so tiring and so relieving at the same time, hope ur holding on best you can <33 those bouts of nonstop crying always suck

 

[lastappleonearth]

On Sunday, my mother made fun of me for wearing a little makeup (eyeshadow and mascara) and I've kind of spiraled from there. It was really bad, even though the trigger was trivial and I'd been feeling okay the previous couple weeks. I cried and cried and cried the whole day until Monday, and I'm still not feeling better since then. Wearing a little makeup was my way of feeling like not a loser, when I'm pretty much a loser every other time.

Monday, I fainted in class from crying so much. I went to the infirmary and cried more. Went home and continued to cry, and joined SaSu! Yay!

Tuesday, less crying, but still there, mostly at home. I had a cry during class but was as lowkey as possible about it. Felt a little ignored and hurt that my friend sitting right next to me didn't notice/didn't do anything, but it's to be expected. Anytime someone tries to help me, I just say "nah, I'm okay."

Wednesday, today, no crying on college premises anymore, but started crying in the backseat of the car. I'm a very quiet type of cry-er, so my parents seldom notice while driving. I mostly just break down when I close the door to my room.

I've never cried so much in my life. I don't cry very often, though I used to be a crybaby when I was younger. Some things just don't change internally! (；^ω^)

Yeah it's weird how things can change. I used to basically never cry or it was at least super rare, but now it's become a common occurrence, like I can cry for hours sometimes. Though in a way I like crying, because after it you feel a bit of relief.
I hope you get to feel better

 

[maggineko]

Yeah it's weird how things can change. I used to basically never cry or it was at least super rare, but now it's become a common occurrence, like I can cry for hours sometimes. Though in a way I like crying, because after it you feel a bit of relief.
I hope you get to feel better

Thank you!! It just came flowing out like a dam broke, I guess because I'd been holding it for so long!

Good morning, Nix. I would give some leeway to your friend. Sometimes just don't know how to react or what to do or what to do and just freeze.

I hope you feel better.

Yes, I understand. It's just a lonely feeling haha, I don't blame her for not knowing how to help. I will only ever have myself regardless. But thank you so much Good morning to you too!

crying is so tiring and so relieving at the same time, hope ur holding on best you can <33 those bouts of nonstop crying always suck

Thank you, lovely! Gunna try to hold on until next May, and the next May, and the next! Hope I stop crying soon though (I'm still going actually, haha), I'm in the middle of the busiest semester ever!

 

[Pvnie]

sometimes I'd love to cry, It'd give me something to do.

 

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[Lost in a Dream]

I've had days like that before too and they aren't fun. My reasons may be different from your reasons, but yet I still understand what it's like. Sorry you're feeling so bad, I hope you can feel better soon.

 

[maggineko]

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Thank you very much Yes, I do believe my friend just didn't know how to react or help. I'm usually a very tough person and I do not cry a lot in front of other people, so it must have been shocking when I did. The song you referred to is very correct. Good things do not last forever, but fortunately bad things don't last forever too.

Please don't worry about what you wrote, I understood perfectly fine Thank you for talking to me

I've had days like that before too and they aren't fun. My reasons may be different from your reasons, but yet I still understand what it's like. Sorry you're feeling so bad, I hope you can feel better soon.

Thank you very much, I'm gradually feeling better now Your kindness is comforting.

Also, I noticed you put 'metal head' in your member tag! Would you care to share any favourites or recommendations? ("⌒∇⌒") My dad is a huge fan of Metallica and Megadeth (lol), used to be in a band that just played Metallica all day; and I've loved A Tout Le Monde and Train of Consequences since I was a kid.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Thank you very much, I'm gradually feeling better now Your kindness is comforting.

Also, I noticed you put 'metal head' in your member tag! Would you care to share any favourites or recommendations? ("⌒∇⌒") My dad is a huge fan of Metallica and Megadeth (lol), used to be in a band that just played Metallica all day; and I've loved A Tout Le Monde and Train of Consequences since I was a kid.

I'm glad I could help somehow. It really does suck feeling as bad as you have been.

I would say Epica is my favorite, since their song Unleashed is what inspired my name on this site, it literally comes from the lyrics to that song. Also, I love Metallica, but haven't listened to much Megadeth unfortunately. I've listened to some, but loved what I heard so not sure why I haven't listened to more. I also love Avenged Sevenfold too, but really my member tag should say Epica fan if I'm being honest lol. It's been a while since I've listened to music lately, so maybe I should get back to it.