BloodStainedAntlers
sic labitur aetas
- Aug 2, 2026
- 29
It hurts so much that I can feel it in my bones.
I just need to get away from everyone and everything. I want to disappear completely, leave no traces. I want to feel again, nothing feels the way it used to, not even crying feels the way its supposed to feel anymore, when I can cry at all. I'm so tired. I'm so fucking tired. I want to lay into a river and let it run over me until I become one with the water and never come back. I want to feel free from it all just one last time before I go. I cant stand to live like this. I wouldn't technically even want to die, I have people and things worth staying for, but I just can't live like this anymore. I feel too much but too little at the same time. I feel like im suffocating on all the things that are trapped inside me, and it's becoming an unbearable feeling.
I don't know how much longer I can keep my head over water anymore. I'm trying to keep going as well as I can, but I don't know how much longer I can until its too much.
I just need to get away from everyone and everything. I want to disappear completely, leave no traces. I want to feel again, nothing feels the way it used to, not even crying feels the way its supposed to feel anymore, when I can cry at all. I'm so tired. I'm so fucking tired. I want to lay into a river and let it run over me until I become one with the water and never come back. I want to feel free from it all just one last time before I go. I cant stand to live like this. I wouldn't technically even want to die, I have people and things worth staying for, but I just can't live like this anymore. I feel too much but too little at the same time. I feel like im suffocating on all the things that are trapped inside me, and it's becoming an unbearable feeling.
I don't know how much longer I can keep my head over water anymore. I'm trying to keep going as well as I can, but I don't know how much longer I can until its too much.
