Hi. I'm sorry you're going through this. It is a beautiful place. I don't know how to delete your account, but as an observation it seemed what solidified your choice was a conflict with your parents. A relationship. Do you think there is any way to either save it through therapy, or cut them out of your life? You state you are really nervous. You don't seem to have peace. The numbness and resolve you mention earlier could be the after affects from a stressful fight. I know that feeling well.
I respect your freedom to choose. I'm merely suggesting you might consider exhausting other options first before you pick a permanent one. But you know your circumstances best so I respect that.