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flirting with death 🖤
- Dec 31, 2024
- 66
So beautifully put. Rest in Peace; the world sure got a little darker today.
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i wish you the best. hope you find the peace you seek.(or, "Tuonetar_ Returns to the Underworld")
Well everyone, tonight is the night that I finally catch my bus. In a few hours, I will be drinking my SN, purchased from DMC.
First of all, let me start out by saying that this choice was mine and mine alone to make, and it was only done after years of research and deliberation. This was not a decision made on impulse, or as the result of inebriation, mania, or psychosis--this is what I, as an individual, want. For that reason, I would ask that no one use this thread to attempt to find sources for SN or any of the medications I have chosen to take. I cannot in good conscience recommend or encourage anyone to follow in my footsteps, so all the substances mentioned in this post will have to be sourced via your own initiative.
I have included my protocol below:
Jan 13th, 2025:
- 06:00: 10mg domperidone (Domton brand), x1
- 12:00: 10mg domperidone, x1
- 18:00: 10mg domperidone, x1
- 19:00: Eat final dinner
Jan 14th, 2025 (today):
Jan 15th, 2025:
- 00:00: 10mg domperidone, x1
- 06:00: 10mg domperidone, x1
- Eat light breakfast; begin solid food fast afterwards
- 12:00: 10mg domperidone, x1
- 18:00: 10mg domperidone, x1
- 22:00: Begin liquid fast
- 00:00: Smoke last cigarette
- 00:15: 40mg propranolol (Ciplar-40 brand), x10
- 00:30: 10 mg domperidone, x30
- 500mg acetaminophen (Tylenol brand), x1
- 00:50: Dissolve 25mg of sodium nitrite in 50mL of spring water, x2
- 01:00: Drink sodium nitrite and lay down
Like everyone else, my reasons for choosing to commit suicide are complicated. But simply put I am tired of life and being a human being. I have sincerely tried my hardest to be sociable, successful, and happy, but unfortunately life has twisted and contorted me until there was nothing left to give. I am chronically exhausted and unhappy, I have no desire to continue experiencing life, and I am very much at peace with my own mortality. For years I have felt that the light inside me was extinguished long ago, and I have survived on the final wisps of smoke. But now the wisps of smoke are gone, the light is fully vanquished, and I am ready to sleep forever.
This should not be considered a sad post, however. All things considered, I lived a good life--I achieved a lot of things in my career that I'm really proud of, I lived independently, I fell in love, I went to concerts, I traveled the country, I ate a lot of good food and drank a lot of good beer, and I met many wonderful people and had a lot of laughs on the way. I loved reading, writing, cooking, baking, and the color red. I ate my last dinner at my favorite Lebanese restaurant and I spent my last day working alongside people I really like. It was a good ride, but it's time for me to step off.
I need to finish writing my goodbye letters, so I'll leave with this: thank you. This community has been wonderful to me, and was one of the only places I could truly be myself in my final days. If I hadn't found this site a few months ago I would've overdosed with a random concoction of psychiatric medications and ended up very much alive in the hospital but with permanent liver damage. Because of this site I am able to die on with dignity, on my own terms, and in my own home. Thank you all for everythingThere is no hate in my heart, only love.
I will stay here and update for as long as a I can, but I am intentionally letting my laptop's battery drain so it will (hopefully) die alongside me. (I'm running this site in incognito mode on a purged laptop)
Reading your accomplishments made me smile. I'm happy you feel content with your life, best of luck to you, sleep peacefully.(or, "Tuonetar_ Returns to the Underworld")
Well everyone, tonight is the night that I finally catch my bus. In a few hours, I will be drinking my SN, purchased from DMC.
First of all, let me start out by saying that this choice was mine and mine alone to make, and it was only done after years of research and deliberation. This was not a decision made on impulse, or as the result of inebriation, mania, or psychosis--this is what I, as an individual, want. For that reason, I would ask that no one use this thread to attempt to find sources for SN or any of the medications I have chosen to take. I cannot in good conscience recommend or encourage anyone to follow in my footsteps, so all the substances mentioned in this post will have to be sourced via your own initiative.
I have included my protocol below:
Jan 13th, 2025:
- 06:00: 10mg domperidone (Domton brand), x1
- 12:00: 10mg domperidone, x1
- 18:00: 10mg domperidone, x1
- 19:00: Eat final dinner
Jan 14th, 2025 (today):
Jan 15th, 2025:
- 00:00: 10mg domperidone, x1
- 06:00: 10mg domperidone, x1
- Eat light breakfast; begin solid food fast afterwards
- 12:00: 10mg domperidone, x1
- 18:00: 10mg domperidone, x1
- 22:00: Begin liquid fast
- 00:00: Smoke last cigarette
- 00:15: 40mg propranolol (Ciplar-40 brand), x10
- 00:30: 10 mg domperidone, x30
- 500mg acetaminophen (Tylenol brand), x1
- 00:50: Dissolve 25mg of sodium nitrite in 50mL of spring water, x2
- 01:00: Drink sodium nitrite and lay down
Like everyone else, my reasons for choosing to commit suicide are complicated. But simply put I am tired of life and being a human being. I have sincerely tried my hardest to be sociable, successful, and happy, but unfortunately life has twisted and contorted me until there was nothing left to give. I am chronically exhausted and unhappy, I have no desire to continue experiencing life, and I am very much at peace with my own mortality. For years I have felt that the light inside me was extinguished long ago, and I have survived on the final wisps of smoke. But now the wisps of smoke are gone, the light is fully vanquished, and I am ready to sleep forever.
This should not be considered a sad post, however. All things considered, I lived a good life--I achieved a lot of things in my career that I'm really proud of, I lived independently, I fell in love, I went to concerts, I traveled the country, I ate a lot of good food and drank a lot of good beer, and I met many wonderful people and had a lot of laughs on the way. I loved reading, writing, cooking, baking, and the color red. I ate my last dinner at my favorite Lebanese restaurant and I spent my last day working alongside people I really like. It was a good ride, but it's time for me to step off.
I need to finish writing my goodbye letters, so I'll leave with this: thank you. This community has been wonderful to me, and was one of the only places I could truly be myself in my final days. If I hadn't found this site a few months ago I would've overdosed with a random concoction of psychiatric medications and ended up very much alive in the hospital but with permanent liver damage. Because of this site I am able to die on with dignity, on my own terms, and in my own home. Thank you all for everythingThere is no hate in my heart, only love.
I will stay here and update for as long as a I can, but I am intentionally letting my laptop's battery drain so it will (hopefully) die alongside me. (I'm running this site in incognito mode on a purged laptop)