My (hopefully) goodbye

[LilGhost]

I am planning to ctb tonight. I know I failed previous attempts , but I have higher hopes for this one as I'll go with complex suicide (sleeping aids (maybe with energy drink if it won't be working as barely any sleeping pills work on me and I kinda have heart problems? So there is a chance of a stroke and cambia to ease pain + again heart chances), slipping throat with artery and partial hanging, advices appreciated. Was planning initially to go with jumping off but i couldn't find high enough bridges in my area to guarantee it and tho my legs work wanky, I stay on keeping those bad boys as long as they work)

I know if their is god, they are not kind creature…. I still hope my departure would be success and I'll have mercy after death. I will probably go to hell if there is afterlife…. But honestly? It worth a shot. I have few more hours before the thing.,.. I hope it will go the way I planned

Anyway…. Thanks everyone for being kind to me. This website truly awesome. Past months were painful. I wish I died sooner. But I had stupid hope. Something little would came up that kept me alive for more. There is no of this anymore.

I fucking hate how hard it is to die. My body is decaying but I have survival rate of a fucking cockroach. Am I a fucking zombie? Please. There is one thing I wish as much as to be close with people and world peace. It's my heart to stop beating. May my destiny be kind to me

 

[Secro]

Bye LilGhost

 

[LastNite]

Goodbye, I wish you peace. Always remember if you dont feel like doing it then it's okay to back out and think things through.

 

[EternalShore]

see ya LilGhost~ I wish you the best and will pray for you~ I'm very sorry that this world has treated you so poorly, and it is nice that this site has been a light in the darkness of the world for you in your final months~

 

[Aflame5926]

have a safe journey,

i hope you get your rest man

 

[bhaloo]

Find peace.

 

[pleaseletmeperish]

Sending you so much love. I wish you the loveliest rest. Always remain in peace.

 

[darksouls]

peace and love to you, my friend

 

[LilGhost]

I am planning to ctb tonight. I know I failed previous attempts , but I have higher hopes for this one as I'll go with complex suicide (sleeping aids (maybe with energy drink if it won't be working as barely any sleeping pills work on me and I kinda have heart problems? So there is a chance of a stroke and cambia to ease pain + again heart chances), slipping throat with artery and partial hanging, advices appreciated. Was planning initially to go with jumping off but i couldn't find high enough bridges in my area to guarantee it and tho my legs work wanky, I stay on keeping those bad boys as long as they work)

I know if their is god, they are not kind creature…. I still hope my departure would be success and I'll have mercy after death. I will probably go to hell if there is afterlife…. But honestly? It worth a shot. I have few more hours before the thing.,.. I hope it will go the way I planned

Anyway…. Thanks everyone for being kind to me. This website truly awesome. Past months were painful. I wish I died sooner. But I had stupid hope. Something little would came up that kept me alive for more. There is no of this anymore.

I fucking hate how hard it is to die. My body is decaying but I have survival rate of a fucking cockroach. Am I a fucking zombie? Please. There is one thing I wish as much as to be close with people and world peace. It's my heart to stop beating. May my destiny be kind to me

Little update: why ctb is so fucking hard? I'm done with phase 1 (taking pills waiting for some to kick in and taking a break. Thinking of drinking whiskey but it will definitely make me to sick to continue so so far against it) and I am already so fucking tired. Like that's generally annoying. I did failed before cause I couldn't function to long so I am scared it will happen again

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering.