Catching the bus tonight 12:00am (toronto time)

[GOODHI]

Hello everyone. I will be catching the bus at 12:am midnight (Toronto time) and was wondering it there was anyone available that I can talk to during that time or if I should just post a thread while I do it

 

[FuneralCry]

You can always just update this thread if you wish to post anything more before you leave, it's up to you really. But I envy you for leaving this hellish world, I think that those who manage to ctb are fortunate. I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[lionetta12]

Hello everyone. I will be catching the bus at 12:am midnight (Toronto time) and was wondering it there was anyone available that I can talk to during that time or if I should just post a thread while I do it

It's up to you if you want to make a thread or if you want to update this one when the time is near, whatever feels best for you. We are here for you so I hope you won't feel alone. Which method are you going for?

 

[GOODHI]

It's up to you if you want to make a thread or if you want to update this one when the time is near, whatever feels best for you. We are here for you so I hope you won't feel alone. Which method are you going for?

SN I didn't test it and I think it's 96% pure. I'm worried about failing. I also opened the container a lot, Idk if that will effect it from working how it should. I hope it does because I CAN'T do a failed attempt or the problems that will happen to me from that.

 

[lionetta12]

SN I didn't test it and I think it's 96% pure. I'm worried about failing. I also opened the container a lot, Idk if that will effect it from working how it should. I hope it does because I CAN'T do a failed attempt or the problems that will happen to me from that.

96% purity is good. I understand and I'm sorry that you're feeling worried about failing. I think the container should be fine as long as you didn't leave it exposed to air for extensive periods at a time. You can do the blood test if you feel comfortable with that prior to the attempt. Just remember to fast and follow the protocol as much as you can.

 

[GOODHI]

96% purity is good. I understand and I'm sorry that you're feeling worried about failing. I think the container should be fine as long as you didn't leave it exposed to air for extensive periods at a time. You can do the blood test if you feel comfortable with that prior to the attempt. Just remember to fast and follow the protocol as much as you can.

I hope so and thank you, I didn't opened here and there but never for hours at a time so I hope so. I will I just don't have meto and tried with just 1/8 and water no gravol or anything to see what it would be like and could barely do it. I spit most of it back out even though it was such a tiny amount and threw a like an hour later so idk how i'll do 25 G. I couldn't even swallow the rest, as soon as I drank it I spit it out without even swallow it. I am so worried I won't be able to swallow it forget keeping it down but I'll have another cup ready and I have gravol that i'll take a couple hours before and a little closer.
Does anyone have any advice besides meto on how to manage to drink it and keep it down, I am afraid I won't manage to drink let alone hold it down with the first cup and the second cup won't be any more different

 

[MidnightDream]

We're all here on this thread, or you're welcome to message me if you want to! 12am your time is around 5am for me, but I'll be awake for a bit at least.

Drinking it is absolutely the hardest part, it's difficult to really give advice on that since it does taste so horrible. I think it's just important to remember what your goal is and what you want from this

 

[Shivali]

I wish you the best

 

[Fulminare]

I think fasting and motivation is key here. Don't drink anything in the two hours leading up to it.
I can also recommend you to buy ice cubes for numbing your mouth. It helps with the taste. Also block your nose while drinking it and maybe even a bit after. That's what I do when I have to drink disgusting medicine. Good luck, we're all here with you!

 

[justwanasleep]

No advice but best of luck.

 

[GOODHI]

Thank you all, I will return here if I can and when I start my preparations

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Wishing you peace and love.

 

[GasMonkey]

See you on the Other Side.

 

[Raven2]

How are you feeling goodhi?

 

[GOODHI]

I feel scared about there being an afterlife and this scared that this will be the start of eternal torture because in the religion I was raised with it is said If you suicide your soul will be tormented and it will more painful then the torture of the physical body in this world and you will feel every bit so I'm just really scared if I close by eyes and die, I will be punished and can never come back but at the same time I am truly and sincerely done with life and don't want anything of it anymore at any cost

 

[peacetime]

You can always just update this thread if you wish to post anything more before you leave, it's up to you really. But I envy you for leaving this hellish world, I think that those who manage to ctb are fortunate. I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

There is something truly off with you posting this type of posts to everyone, while having +17k posts and still being around, with this attitude. Truly something off.

 

[FuneralCry]

There is something truly off with you posting this type of posts to everyone, while having +17k posts and still being around, with this attitude. Truly something off.

Oh really, is there? I don't care how you view my posts. I actually think that there is truly something off with you posting something like this in somebody's goodbye thread. People with disgusting pro life beliefs like you probably lack the awareness to be able to understand this but suicide isn't so straightforward for everyone. So seriously stop embarrassing yourself and if you want to post in this thread then it's better to just be supportive to the person leaving this world, ok.

 

[tchaik18401893]

I wish you the best.
Are you taking anything other than SN?

 

[almostoutofhere]

I hope so and thank you, I didn't opened here and there but never for hours at a time so I hope so. I will I just don't have meto and tried with just 1/8 and water no gravol or anything to see what it would be like and could barely do it. I spit most of it back out even though it was such a tiny amount and threw a like an hour later so idk how i'll do 25 G. I couldn't even swallow the rest, as soon as I drank it I spit it out without even swallow it. I am so worried I won't be able to swallow it forget keeping it down but I'll have another cup ready and I have gravol that i'll take a couple hours before and a little closer.
Does anyone have any advice besides meto on how to manage to drink it and keep it down, I am afraid I won't manage to drink let alone hold it down with the first cup and the second cup won't be any more different

You can try getting some mouthwash and mouth numbing gel. It should help with masking the taste. Also try downing it all at once. A lot of people throw up after, don't worry about that. Just have the second cup ready in case.

 

[GOODHI]

Yes I have been fasting since 1pm (although I hand a handful of popcorn at 3ish I don't know if that will effect anything) and I just took gravol immediate release and long acting caplet at 5pm (so 7 hours from 12:00 am). I think i'll might it to 1am so it's will have been a whole eight hours since I took gravol. Then I am going to take two extra strength tylenol ( paracetamol/Acetaminophen (1000mg) one hour before drinking SN, then another gravol 45 minutes before drinking. After that 4 extra strength tums (antacid) half an hour before and then the SN. I hope this is enough.

I really wish there was a reverse suicide hotline right now, where you can call and they provide encouragement for the decision I have made urge me to do it and talk me through it to help me pass on

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

Per ardua ad astra

 

[SeenMoreThanEnough]

Hello everyone. I will be catching the bus at 12:am midnight (Toronto time) and was wondering it there was anyone available that I can talk to during that time or if I should just post a thread while I do it

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[mayweallgetpeace]

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the fucq

 

[Dark Moon]

Hope you get some peace goodbye.

 

[ianista]

Wish you a good flight and hope you will find the peace you are looking for

I'm here if you want to talk or anything

 

[reverse03]

May everything work for you. SI will be a big hurdle to overcome, hopefully you can overcome it. May you find peace that you are looking for.

 

[GOODHI]

Thank you for the well wishes
it's just the fear of eternal hell and punishment in the grave that will be the hardest to overcome

 

[almostoutofhere]

Thank you for the well wishes
it's just the fear of eternal hell and punishment in the grave that will be the hardest to overcome

I keep telling myself if that place is real, and I'm supposed to go there, it doesn't make a difference if I end up there now or ten years later.

 

[FrozenMango]

I wish you find peace. Best wishes

 

[blackwidow]

Thank you for the well wishes
it's just the fear of eternal hell and punishment in the grave that will be the hardest to overcome

I wouldn't let your head go there.. Noones ever come back and told anyone whats on the other side so I hope you managed to have some peace in your mind.. And where ever you are now., I wish you well