Venting A selfish Post

[Imeavie]

I don't have anything meaningful to contribute, or a question to ask this time.
This is a selfish post, and but I do not know what else to do. I just need somewhere to say the words that are trapped inside my chest for fear of drowning in the empty air.

I am sorry.
I love you, and I am sorry.
To everyone, and the only one.
I wish things could be different, be more than what they are now. Yet if I were to write my wishes on paper, we would lose a forest, and I would be to blame.

I was only eight-years old, and I made the choice to step backwards, and not forwards.
For that, I am truly sorry.
To you, to everyone, to myself.
I was young, I did not know. How could I?

I thought about correcting that mistake tonight.
It extended enough to reach the floor as long as I sat lower than the bed.
But how could he live knowing years ago that he put the down payment on his broken heart?
It was dry despite the common rule to never do so. Add it to my list.
I lament that it likely wont be live tonight.

Though its not first, nor last, nor even important, I am sorry for wasting the time of anyone who stopped to read this.
You also deserved better.

 

[rainhappy]

No problem at all, really . I didn't waste my time because I chose of my own free will to read this entire message . It's not selfish—it's actually wise to realize that putting these words down on paper is what will help you feel better. It's meaningful because you're opening up your heart to explain what you're feeling and going through right now, and that's a tremendous display of courage. You can really be proud of yourself. I'm not quite sure what you're referring to when you mention "8 years," but everyone makes mistakes . It's not a weakness to fail every now and then—that's just life. And we learn precisely from those mistakes; this mistake—whatever it was—allowed you to move past it. The proof is that you're sorry and you feel guilty about it. Good people reflect on their actions when they've caused pain. Of course, it can hurt to realize you might have caused someone pain, but you're acknowledging that it was a mistake—people with bad intentions will never reflect on their actions, or worse, will shift the blame onto others. So no, this post isn't selfish—it doesn't bother us at all—and it's extremely brave. You can really be proud of yourself because not only do you know how to reflect on your actions to stay on the right path, but you also know what can help you feel a little better, and you have a lot of courage to speak out about all of this—be proud of yourself .

 

[cantthinkofusername]

sending hugs. it is okay to just say words. its not selfish. hugs