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Venting The rapid shift of emotions is really exhausting

tulipsforever

tulipsforever

lost soul
Aug 7, 2026
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I just want to end it all and tbh I don't even know why I still can't do it. I've tried multiple times and failed and to be a hundred percent honest, I was hoping for it to fail during attempts.

One second I feel euphoric, another second I'm wanting to CTB. Yesterday I've ran around telling everyone that I'm happy and how beautiful life is, 30 minutes later I was planning to end it all.

I just want people to notice that I'm not really doing good whenever I said I am. I am sick in the head for so long.

I really hope I can CTB this year.
 
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