Method Buying SN today

[nonialabaster]

I'm diving in. I sold my late husband's electric guitars to a reputable music store. Got a very fair deal, way more than enough to purchase SN. I feel strangely calm. I'm going to go for expedited shipping, so should have it in about three days. I'll keep y'all updated, if you're interested. I just want to thank this community for the support I feel here. Even though I don't post much and am new to this forum, reading your stories and seeing the kindness given to others has given me courage and reassurance.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best, it must be a relief to know that your way to exit this world will soon be arriving.

 

[Mimi_]

Bought it from IC?

 

[nonialabaster]

I will give you true reassurance, don't do it. It always gets better, maybe not today or tmr, but it WILL. Trust me. I know from my experience and the experiences of others. Reconsider, I'm begging you. Reach out for help.

You're in the wrong forum, my friend. I'm a highly educated 53-year-old woman who has struggled with Major Depression my whole life. My husband died last year from terminal kidney cancer that spread to his brain. We had 13 days from diagnosis to death, at home, under hospice care. My job, which I loved, basically told me to hit the road. I have no family, few friends.
Don't you dare come into this safe space and condescend like that. Get out of here, with your insulting, holier-than-thou views.

Bought it from IC?

Yes

Bought it from IC?

Indeed I did.

 

[Mimi_]

Indeed I did.

Oh, I will keep an eye on your update then, I also am planning to buy SN from IC

My husband died last year from terminal kidney cancer that spread to his brain.

I am truly sorry for your loss, I hope you will be able to rest in peace with your husband soon

 

[LookAway]

I will give you true reassurance, don't do it. It always gets better, maybe not today or tmr, but it WILL. Trust me. I know from my experience and the experiences of others. Reconsider, I'm begging you. Reach out for help.

I appreciate your kindness I really do. Your account's going to get banned. Your life and the experiences that you're having is your life and the experiences that you had and that does not mean that somebody else is going to have the same experience. For some people it's not going to get better and these platitudes really don't help any at all maybe for some people it will but for most people here it's not going to. You know instead of dishing out these get help platitudes why don't you ask these people questions about themselves and their life and try to get to know them and maybe listen to their story? Don't you think that will help a bit more?


-Someone who used to be a pro-lifer



@looseye thanks

 

[ChildrensITV]

You're in the wrong forum, my friend. I'm a highly educated 53-year-old woman who has struggled with Major Depression my whole life. My husband died last year from terminal kidney cancer that spread to his brain. We had 13 days from diagnosis to death, at home, under hospice care. My job, which I loved, basically told me to hit the road. I have no family, few friends.
Don't you dare come into this safe space and condescend like that. Get out of here, with your insulting, holier-than-thou views.

Way to tell that person! You expect that sentimental shit on r/suicidewatch where none of them are even serious. Not here.

 

[nonialabaster]

Way to tell that person! You expect that sentimental shit on r/suicidewatch where none of them are even serious. Not here.

Thanks. I'm just sick of that shit. "Oh, you have so much to live for!" What, what do I have to live for? Tell me one thing! "Uh, uh, uh...your family?" You mean the family I don't have, the people who turned their backs on me because I'm depressed and they called me weak?
Yeah, get outta here with that sanctimonious bullshit. There's no white knight coming to save me. My life is my own, and I can choose to end it, whenever I please.

I appreciate your kindness I really do. Your account's going to get banned. Your life and the experiences that you're having is your life and the experiences that you had and that does not mean that somebody else is going to have the same experience. For some people it's not going to get better and these platitudes really don't help any at all maybe for some people it will but for most people here it's not going to. You know instead of dishing out these get help platitudes why don't you ask these people questions about themselves and their life and try to get to know them and maybe listen to their story? Don't you think that will help a bit more?


-Someone who used to be a pro-lifer



@looseye thanks

Looks like that dipshit ran away or got banned. Good riddance to bad rubbish!
Everyone on this forum is hurting, going through the absolute worst times of their lives. The last thing we need is somebody coming here with false platitudes. Don't you think we've tried everything already? Geezy Peez, it's just so insulting.

 

[Torch]

Bought it from IC?

I'm new here, looking at SN as available option for me, what's IC?

 

[nonialabaster]

I'm new here, looking at SN as available option for me, what's IC?

It looks like you are too new to do PM. Post a bit more and you can try to PM. Nobody's going to straight-up tell you where to purchase, on the forum. Just general advice to keep trolls and pro-lifers out of direct information.

 

[Torch]

It looks like you are too new to do PM. Post a bit more and you can try to PM. Nobody's going to straight-up tell you where to purchase, on the forum. Just general advice to keep trolls and pro-lifers out of direct information.

Thanks for the info. I'll keep posting and see if I can get to the point where I can PM.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

They say it will get better based on their experience and that of others. Basically, everyone but OP's lol.
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[nonialabaster]

Thanks for the info. I'll keep posting and see if I can get to the point where I can PM.

You're welcome. We're just trying to keep this place safe from people like the person who immediately responded to my post with "Don't do it!" I've met far too many Evangelical Christians in my life who think it's their calling to prevent suicide, concerned that the suicidal person would go to Hell. They're not worried about the aftermath of their interventions; It just scores them Brownie Points with Jesus or Saint Peter.

 

[WorthlessCoward]

Unrelated and off topic and mods can and should free to delete this post but: did you have one of those guitars that are kinda like white V but sideways? like a >

 

[nonialabaster]

Unrelated and off topic and mods can and should free to delete this post but: did you have one of those guitars that are kinda like white V but sideways? like a >

Ha! No, but he had an Ibenez 8-string, which blew them away. The store owner called all the employees to check it out. I was worried they wouldn't buy it, because, while cleaning it up, I found a tiny crack, where the neck meets the body. Mark bought it after his father died, and I hated the sound of it. It's a combo guitar and bass. That thing was a monster! Mark always threatened to buy one of the guitars you are referring to. Then he came home with that Ibenez monstrosity!
I have a video of him playing it, and the funniest thing about the video, is our sweet Kristen (a lovely Khao Manee), just placidly napping on a chair, while her Papa is just ripping it with that guitar!

Unrelated and off topic and mods can and should free to delete this post but: did you have one of those guitars that are kinda like white V but sideways? like a >

I also sold his Fender Telecaster, an old Johnson and a small amp. I walked away with some good money. I'm keeping his acoustic, even though I'm not a musician. That guitar was the last one he played, three days before he died. Sorry if I'm maudlin, but that's what this place is about, right? To support each other, in whatever we choose. BTW, I got a shit-ton of money for the Tele.

 

[Tartuffe]

Ha! No, but he had an Ibenez 8-string, which blew them away. The store owner called all the employees to check it out. I was worried they wouldn't buy it, because, while cleaning it up, I found a tiny crack, where the neck meets the body. Mark bought it after his father died, and I hated the sound of it. It's a combo guitar and bass. That thing was a monster! Mark always threatened to buy one of the guitars you are referring to. Then he came home with that Ibenez monstrosity!
I have a video of him playing it, and the funniest thing about the video, is our sweet Kristen (a lovely Khao Manee), just placidly napping on a chair, while her Papa is just ripping it with that guitar!

I also sold his Fender Telecaster, an old Johnson and a small amp. I walked away with some good money. I'm keeping his acoustic, even though I'm not a musician. That guitar was the last one he played, three days before he died. Sorry if I'm maudlin, but that's what this place is about, right? To support each other, in whatever we choose. BTW, I got a shit-ton of money for the Tele.

The good thing is those guitars sold will bring a new life into someone else. The provenance isnt attached but someone will buzz off the telecaster and you get your SN. I bought some and it gave me happiness that was missing

 

[stoopid]

I hope you can get the peace you desired, just be sure of your choice. You're strong to make it this far, I'm in mid 20s and I just have a few weeks left, can't imagine live soo long. Keep us updated or you need 2 speak we can try to comfort you until the final time comes.

 

[ChildrensITV]

Thanks. I'm just sick of that shit. "Oh, you have so much to live for!" What, what do I have to live for? Tell me one thing! "Uh, uh, uh...your family?" You mean the family I don't have, the people who turned their backs on me because I'm depressed and they called me weak?
Yeah, get outta here with that sanctimonious bullshit. There's no white knight coming to save me. My life is my own, and I can choose to end it, whenever I please.

My heart goes out to you. You seem to be in a genuinely fucked situation that can't really be resolved. A situation that is characterized by the lack of resolution possibility, by your age and by the fact that it is an ongoing situation rather than past trauma. I identify with people like you more so than many others here so you have a friend in me. I will try to keep up with your posts to see how you're doing.

This is what I like about this place: apart from that idiot, there is no condescending platitudes - as if we haven't heard them before.

 

[FFTMGD]

Thanks for the info. I'll keep posting and see if I can get to the point where I can PM.

Were you able to find out?

 

[Torch]

Were you able to find out?

I was. Ordered a few hours ago.

 

[ExistHarm]

I have a video of him playing it, and the funniest thing about the video, is our sweet Kristen (a lovely Khao Manee), just placidly napping on a chair, while her Papa is just ripping it with that guitar!

sweet memory.

i recently received my SN. i have can't say i have experienced something as terrible as losing a SO in less than two weeks. however life itself has been more than enough for me in the short time ive been here.

did you order METO as well?

i appreciate you sharing your story and i hope that you have a safe, calm, painless release when it comes

 

[nonialabaster]

I was. Ordered a few hours ago.

sweet memory.

i recently received my SN. i have can't say i have experienced something as terrible as losing a SO in less than two weeks. however life itself has been more than enough for me in the short time ive been here.

did you order METO as well?

i appreciate you sharing your story and i hope that you have a safe, calm, painless release when it comes

It was awful, and you are very kind. I'm planning on a great steak, with creamed spinach, two days prior. I don't have Meto, but I have Zofran and some beta-blockers.
I hope that will do the trick. The rapid heart-beat is what scares me the most, about this method. But, I have severe anxiety, and I think I can calm myself down from tachycardia. Fingers crossed!
I'll be here for a few more days. I love this community!

 

[tiredangelgirl]

just wanted to say I read all your replies in this thread and your responses about that asshole are hilarious if you decide on staying I would read a book written by you.
whatever decisions you make just know we are here for you and im sending you lots of love! (I can't figure out how to hug react but virtually sending you a big hug)

 

[ExistHarm]

It was awful, and you are very kind. I'm planning on a great steak, with creamed spinach, two days prior. I don't have Meto, but I have Zofran and some beta-blockers.
I hope that will do the trick. The rapid heart-beat is what scares me the most, about this method. But, I have severe anxiety, and I think I can calm myself down from tachycardia. Fingers crossed!
I'll be here for a few more days. I love this community!

any antiemetic should work so Zofran sounds good.

i want to get my hands on some beta-blockers because rapid heart beat scares me as well. well, fortunently i have 1mg alprazolam so that may be enough to calm me down, when the time comes.

i love this community too. peace

 

[nonialabaster]

The good thing is those guitars sold will bring a new life into someone else. The provenance isnt attached but someone will buzz off the telecaster and you get your SN. I bought some and it gave me happiness that was missing

I was a little tearful, selling his guitars. I washed my face, gathered myself, and just did it. I knew that some young guitar-player would be thrilled to find a Tele for $600.. Had to listen to Townes Van Zandt before I did it.

just wanted to say I read all your replies in this thread and your responses about that asshole are hilarious if you decide on staying I would read a book written by you.
whatever decisions you make just know we are here for you and im sending you lots of love! (I can't figure out how to hug react but virtually sending you a big hug)

Thank you. I have a comedic voice, so they say. You are very sweet. My dad calls me "a funny little fucker." I'm a 105 pound old lady, but, I'll take the compliment. I'm a big fan of George Carlin, Richard Pryor and John Belushi.

 

[MrbearX]

I hope everything goes well for you in your journey I am waiting for mine to get here and Im seriously excited I've acquired everything else I need I am so glad I found this forum it's been amazing The short time I've been on here

 

[nonialabaster]

I hope everything goes well for you in your journey I am waiting for mine to get here and Im seriously excited I've acquired everything else I need I am so glad I found this forum it's been amazing The short time I've been on here

There are good people here. Like I told my husband, when he was dying in front of me, (from cancer, not suicide) "You're exactly where you are supposed to be."

 

[warriorofeld]

I'm new here, looking at SN as available option for me, what's IC?

What is IC? anyone who knows pm me please as I'm looking for SN as a best possible method.

I'm new here, looking at SN as available option for me, what's IC?

I am also new and looking at SN as a viable option what does IC?

 

[nonialabaster]

What is IC? anyone who knows pm me please as I'm looking for SN as a best possible method.

I am also new and looking at SN as a viable option what does IC?

Post more, then you'll be able to PM..

What is IC? anyone who knows pm me please as I'm looking for SN as a best possible method.

I am also new and looking at SN as a viable option what does IC?

Post a bit more. Then, you can PM.

I hope everything goes well for you in your journey I am waiting for mine to get here and Im seriously excited I've acquired everything else I need I am so glad I found this forum it's been amazing The short time I've been on here

I stumbled upon it a few months ago. The community is great! With all social media, there are assholes, but I've found this community to quite supportive. I'm glad you found us, and welcome home! We will be here as long as you need us.

 

[nonialabaster]

My order from IC is being processed, thank Jebus! They're keeping me updated and their customer service is very good. I had to transfer money into my PayPal account for the purchase, so be aware of that. It's a little pricey, but you don't have to jump through hoops to buy it, like lab-grade stuff. I'm calmer than I've been in months, though I may be overfeeding my cat. She loves her new food, I just can't help myself!
Wanted to say, again, how much this community has helped me. You are all great (except for that one guy).