Your baby is lovely. She/He looks like a Tuxie.
I have a question, but I'm pretty sure it can only be answered in texts. I'm too new to have the ability to message first. Would you be willing to answer a question for me?
Hey, I have a question about procurement, but you can only chat or whatever after so much engagement. I was hoping it'd be different if someone messaged you first. Anyway I have a question if you have the time and would be willing to share.
I can't share on the forum. Post a few more times and you can PM. It's against forum rules to post sources. I'm sorry, but we have to keep this community safe. I can't PM you without more activity. Not being a meanie, but this community has been vilified in the media, and I want to keep my sisters and brothers safe.
Your replies to and about the pro-lifers are cracking me up. I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your husband. I lost my mother to cervical cancer about 7 years ago and have been trying to make sense of a world without her, but have always come up short. Your posts are actually fueling me with a bit more courage to pull the trigger and get this over and done with. I've had too many people try to talk me out of it for way too long. I've also tried a bunch of different things to feel better but always return to the same familiar place and I'm tired of it.
Can't do it. Just post and react a bit more. It shouldn't take long. You can probably do it within a few hours. There's not a magic number of posts, just stay active, smoke a bowl and go for it!
Thank you. Kristen was The Queen of Everything!
The day it gets here, I'll start my fast. I'm a little frustrated that it's going to take longer than I anticipated, but you can never tell, with shipping dates. I hardly eat anymore, so that shouldn't be a problem, and I don't weigh very much, hovering between 105 and 110, depending on fluid retention. I just don't have an appetite, and I've got a freezer full of food, a stocked pantry and great cookware. I just don't have the heart to cook, anymore, since Mark died. I've been drinking a lot of cheap wine. Funny thing is, I can't get drunk! Everything about this process is hard.
I love the "departure." You sound like a flight attendant! "Our departure will begin after you all buckle your seat-belts."
Haha. Yeah, I'm trying to make sure I tie up all loose ends before I split. I've been combing through previous posts made by other members regarding checklists and hoping I don't miss anything important! You've added some great ideas for me.I'd be happy to discuss more with you. Thank you for your kindness, and, I'm going to assume it's not just morbid curiosity.
Awww, I love the photo of Kali! She's very cute. I don't know if you remember me from my other thread, where I put a photo of my cat as well. If I may ask, and it's not too personal, do you have things in place for Kali after you're gone?My IC order is shipped! Hooray! But, estimated delivery is April 4. I cheaped out, because I had to pay my water and gas bills, and get some litter and food for KaliKat. And put some money back for my final meal. Here's a picture of little Kali: Apologies for the poor formatting. I'm a Gen Xer. Didn't grow up with computers.
I'm in my bed now, and this kitty won't stop putting her front paws on my cheeks! I love her, dearly, but, sometimes it's just, "Give it a rest, babydoll!" :)It takes a Herculean effort for me to want to cook or eat when I'm feeling low, so I get it. At least your body will be used to the lack of food and fasting beforehand will be a non-issue and a total breeze.
I'm hoping that Zofran will be good enough as the AE, it was from my mother's cancer stash and all that I've got. Are you using Propanolol?
Haha. Yeah, I'm trying to make sure I tie up all loose ends before I split. I've been combing through previous posts made by other members regarding checklists and hoping I don't miss anything important! You've added some great ideas for me.
I have two dogs of my own that I'm worried about. I always said that I'd wait until they were gone first before I did anything, but the pain I'm in is beginning to exceed everything else. Here's hoping that Kali finds herself in a safe home environment with another soul as incredible as yours.
Thank you for that. I'm hoping that my friend can find her a home. I'm afraid, since she's technically a semi-feral, she might not be adoptable. At least through the Humane Society.
That's very sweet. I'm sure she'll find a good, loving home. The cat I have now was owned by an old lady for all of her life and I adopted her after her owner had to get surgeries and could no longer care for her so I imagine something can be done for Kali, and she can find a sweet, loving home!
You are so kind. I hope to see them again; the fact that Mark saw Kristen twice in his last days gives me that hope. That was before he was in hospice and on the "heavy hitters," liquid Morphine and Methadone, so it wasn't an opiate-induced hallucination. When he was discharged form his 6-day stay in the heart-wing, where we received his devastating cancer diagnosis, those cruel doctors sent him home with a script for 10 of the lowest-dose hydrocodones, knowing they weren't even touching his pain.@nonialabaster I just have to say that I have thoroughly enjoyed reading your thread. You are one witty woman! I'm so sorry that life has brought you to this point, but I sincerely hope that when your bus comes, the ride will be smooth, and you will be reunited with your beloved Mark and kitty Kristen.
My friend Diane is an old hippie who does hair for a living. I'm planning on her being the first name in my contacts list, that will be taped to my bedroom door. She has a lot of older clients who love kitties, so I'm hoping she'll find someone for Kali.
I hope you have the best passage you can. I haven't quite gotten my SN yet, as I'm finishing a few games I wanted to finish, finishing a few tv shows, and watching a few movies. Just finished wolf of wall street, that was a pretty good movie. Hope you come to enjoy your last few moments knowing you will experience peace and be with your husband. Good luck.
Aww that's such a sweet story to hear. I think your friend should be able to find her a good home, she looks like a sweet, and unique cat so I'm sure someone will want her! I don't know too much about cat breeds. My cat, "S'more" is my first ever cat and I love her so much! She's a domestic shorthair, but I don't know much beyond that. She's almost 2 years old and I got her from Petsmart on my exes birthday as a gift for her (she couldn't take her when we broke up so I kept her and I'm happy I did).
Aww that's such a sweet story to hear. I think your friend should be able to find her a good home, she looks like a sweet, and unique cat so I'm sure someone will want her! I don't know too much about cat breeds. My cat, "S'more" is my first ever cat and I love her so much! She's a domestic shorthair, but I don't know much beyond that. She's almost 2 years old and I got her from Petsmart on my exes birthday as a gift for her (she couldn't take her when we broke up so I kept her and I'm happy I did).
Also please, don't apologize for feeling sentimental and reflecting. Even if you're normally stoic, it's fine to show some emotion, it won't make anyone think any differently of you.
Also, it's fine to reply here, that's what this place is for, you can vent all you'd like here, it's your thread and nobody will get mad.
Also, I believe dreams can be otherworldly, as dumb as I may sound there. I had a few recurring dreams that never had an ending, I haven't had it in forever but I used to and I vividly remember these dreams.
I'm so sorry you're dealing with the loss of your husband. You seem to be a very strong woman though, and I think Mark is up in Heaven, hopefully playing with Kristen.
You're very welcome. I hope you're with us for a bit, but I understand your goal here, and it's not my job to talk you out of it. You want to be reunited with your husband, and I understand that. Either way, I hope you're doing okay and I hope you get a good nights rest, hopefully with minimal Kali scratches
That'll be a thing, because as soon as Kali sees I've settled in my bed, she comes rushing in, pushing her butt into my face, then moving around, making all the biscuits. She eventually settles down, after she's head-butted me and flopped beside me. She is such a sweet baby. The only entity I will miss, when I go. And she goes back into the parlor, after I'm asleep. I think she knows that something is up. Cats feel our energy.Aww that's such a sweet story to hear. I think your friend should be able to find her a good home, she looks like a sweet, and unique cat so I'm sure someone will want her! I don't know too much about cat breeds. My cat, "S'more" is my first ever cat and I love her so much! She's a domestic shorthair, but I don't know much beyond that. She's almost 2 years old and I got her from Petsmart on my exes birthday as a gift for her (she couldn't take her when we broke up so I kept her and I'm happy I did).
Also please, don't apologize for feeling sentimental and reflecting. Even if you're normally stoic, it's fine to show some emotion, it won't make anyone think any differently of you.
Also, it's fine to reply here, that's what this place is for, you can vent all you'd like here, it's your thread and nobody will get mad.
Also, I believe dreams can be otherworldly, as dumb as I may sound there. I had a few recurring dreams that never had an ending, I haven't had it in forever but I used to and I vividly remember these dreams.
I'm so sorry you're dealing with the loss of your husband. You seem to be a very strong woman though, and I think Mark is up in Heaven, hopefully playing with Kristen.
You're very welcome. I hope you're with us for a bit, but I understand your goal here, and it's not my job to talk you out of it. You want to be reunited with your husband, and I understand that. Either way, I hope you're doing okay and I hope you get a good nights rest, hopefully with minimal Kali scratches
Oooh I don't like it when my cat makes biscuits on my chest lol. And at least you know Kali loves you, it's just a dangerous love full of pain haha. And I agree, I think pets know more than we generally think they know.That'll be a thing, because as soon as Kali sees I've settled in my bed, she comes rushing in, pushing her butt into my face, then moving around, making all the biscuits. She eventually settles down, after she's head-butted me and flopped beside me. She is such a sweet baby. The only entity I will miss, when I go. And she goes back into the parlor, after I'm asleep. I think she knows that something is up. Cats feel our energy.
I've considered putting one of those ski-masks on, but it just too damn hot in Texas! And it's only late March!
That'll be a thing, because as soon as Kali sees I've settled in my bed, she comes rushing in, pushing her butt into my face, then moving around, making all the biscuits. She eventually settles down, after she's head-butted me and flopped beside me. She is such a sweet baby. The only entity I will miss, when I go. And she goes back into the parlor, after I'm asleep. I think she knows that something is up. Cats feel our energy.
I've considered putting one of those ski-masks on, but it just too damn hot in Texas! And it's only late March!
Same. I'm also a cat whisperer. I like that term. My husband was one, too. Mark and I would visit friends' houses for gatherings or dinners, and the cats would be hiding from the noise. Mark and I always sought them out and, without fail, the kitties would come to us for strokes and pets. Not to brag or anything, just some people are more in tune with cat energy than others. Even dogs do that with me, and I'm a little afraid of dogs, having been attacked by a Samoyed when I was 13. Forty years ago, and I still have a bit of fear. It doesn't stop them from running up to me, though.
the vibes are immaculateMy IC order is shipped! Hooray! But, estimated delivery is April 4. I cheaped out, because I had to pay my water and gas bills, and get some litter and food for KaliKat. And put some money back for my final meal. Here's a picture of little Kali: Apologies for the poor formatting. I'm a Gen Xer. Didn't grow up with computers.
Didn't realized until I posted that pic that there's a half smoked bowl in there! "Hey cops, I got it from somebody else! It's not mine!"
I'd like to share some music with you, if you would like to hear it. Yes, I'm becoming sentimental. Fight me!
This is Townes Van Zandt, a Fort Worth boy, born to a wealthy family. He was a celebrated singer/songwriter who was a a finger-picker and a crooner. His songs were covered by some of the greats.
His voice is magic. He died from DTs, in 1997. He had Bi-Polar disorder and tried to self-medicate with alcohol. It didn't work.
Didn't realized until I posted that pic that there's a half smoked bowl in there! "Hey cops, I got it from somebody else! It's not mine!"
