Venting diary until i ctb with my sn

[alivebutnotliving]

hello all! this will mainly be me talking to myself but i received my order from dsl before he stepped away, and now that i have my method of choice with me i felt i wanted to make a thread to come to with my thoughts before i go. i've always been too paranoid to be an active poster on here, and honestly i feel paranoid even posting that i'm in possession of such a thing even though it's legal to own here. i have my last big purchase shipping to me right now, and it's the only thing im staying here for right now. i'm not sure how furries are perceived on ss, but ive been in the community since i was a little girl and am a decently successful maker, selling some pieces of my own. i made one last purchase for myself, being a 2 thousand dollar fursuit to honor that dream i've always had. the community is one of the only things that brings me joy, and i wanted to experience one last con in a suit special to me. it's absurd, but life doesn't make sense anyways. it's a huge form of escapism (those who know get it) after some momentary joy i'll catch the bus in peace as it's the only way i'll go. im very mentally disturbed and treatment resistant, at least back when i could afford consistent care lol!! eff u to the united states healthcare system. i have my sn, but the only medications i have to compliment my procedure are zofran, ibuprofen and lorazepam. i've developed serious physical health issues due to my mental and i missed the opportunity of recovery loong ago. i'm rather excited for my last months and have come to terms with my passing, preparation via some notes n such will be draining but after that i'm free

 

[SighCry]

hello all! this will mainly be me talking to myself but i received my order from dsl before he stepped away, and now that i have my method of choice with me i felt i wanted to make a thread to come to with my thoughts before i go. i've always been too paranoid to be an active poster on here, and honestly i feel paranoid even posting that i'm in possession of such a thing even though it's legal to own here. i have my last big purchase shipping to me right now, and it's the only thing im staying here for right now. i'm not sure how furries are perceived on ss, but ive been in the community since i was a little girl and am a decently successful maker, selling some pieces of my own. i made one last purchase for myself, being a 2 thousand dollar fursuit to honor that dream i've always had. the community is one of the only things that brings me joy, and i wanted to experience one last con in a suit special to me. it's absurd, but life doesn't make sense anyways. it's a huge form of escapism (those who know get it) after some momentary joy i'll catch the bus in peace as it's the only way i'll go. im very mentally disturbed and treatment resistant, at least back when i could afford consistent care lol!! eff u to the united states healthcare system. i have my sn, but the only medications i have to compliment my procedure are zofran, ibuprofen and lorazepam. i've developed serious physical health issues due to my mental and i missed the opportunity of recovery loong ago. i'm rather excited for my last months and have come to terms with my passing, preparation via some notes n such will be draining but after that i'm free

Sorry life has brought you here. I wish all the best to you. This is mostly to fulfil my curiosity but I've never spoken to a furry before like what do you do when you hang out together? I know there's conventions and stuff and a sexual element but it's always interested me. Like what makes it a great sense of community?

 

[alivebutnotliving]

Sorry life has brought you here. I wish all the best to you. This is mostly to fulfil my curiosity but I've never spoken to a furry before like what do you do when you hang out together? I know there's conventions and stuff and a sexual element but it's always interested me. Like what makes it a great sense of community?

thank you for the kind words. furry conventions are very similar to general nerdy conventions, but its more like a celebration of identity in a way? as these spaces are queer dominant and very accepting. cons consist of making friends and panels people create to talk abt their interests either inside the fandom or something else, like cars or video games. the fandom was built on kink but it's kept very separate for consenting adults only!