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lucyanne
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- Apr 9, 2025
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I'm not entirely sure why I am posting this, in fact I didn't even know this site existed until some bbc article.
I don't want to bore people with sad stories or trauma dump.
From the outside I seem mostly happy, married and settled.
The truth though is no matter where I am in life, not being here has never been far from my mind since my early teens and I'm now approaching 50.
I feel like I've given everything I have got and more and I'm just so tired of fighting, living in constant pain and as a very visible minority and target.
I don't want to bore people with sad stories or trauma dump.
From the outside I seem mostly happy, married and settled.
The truth though is no matter where I am in life, not being here has never been far from my mind since my early teens and I'm now approaching 50.
I feel like I've given everything I have got and more and I'm just so tired of fighting, living in constant pain and as a very visible minority and target.