Are you not afraid?

[Ben]

Fear is the only outside option that can justify your reason for staying here.

I've learned, that you owe it to people who care about you, to show that you are trying.

I refuse to belive life is inherently bad. Do people get tucked over? Yes. Is life fair? no.

But you asking us..if life worth living...YES IT IS.

Hey. If you think life sucks, I encourage you to keep that to yourself

Why? This is pro-CHOICE homie. People here are allowed to fuckin HATE suicide, but accept it as some peoples only option.

How fucking dare anybody tell ANYBODY here say life is inherently bad. You clearly haven't been exposed to the kindness that humans have.

The reasons to die should be PURELY stemmed from your own perspective, not how you THINK life should be

 

[Clover_]

how are you going to kill yourself , if i may ask? Do you have everything planned to the last detail so you could execute at any moments notice?

I did have every detail planned, I've since re-evaulated my plans since the planned route wasn't deadly enough. I was going to use pills. I have a date and time planned, and I have an ideal method and a backup. I'm planning on using sn if I can get it (likely) and a suitable anti-emetic (less likely). Alternatively I can jump off a bridge whenever I please.

 

[deflagrat]

I am not afraid because of the method I will be using. Taking a few capsules is easy and a no brainer. I even have pills to make me sleep through the whole process so I don't even think about possible pain because I will be unconscious. Back when I was thinking about killing myself with SN I couldn't stop thinking about the possible pain and I couldn't handle it, now all my worries are gone. If I fail I will simply try again in the same way and I will succeed.

 

[Lra888]

I am not afraid because of the method I will be using. Taking a few capsules is easy and a no brainer. I even have pills to make me sleep through the whole process so I don't even think about possible pain because I will be unconscious. Back when I was thinking about killing myself with SN I couldn't stop thinking about the possible pain and I couldn't handle it, now all my worries are gone. If I fail I will simply try again in the same way and I will succeed.

What kind of pills if you don't mind me asking? I would prefer that over hanging but i'm afraid I'm not informed enough to do it properly.

 

[0blivi0n]

Dying isn't easy; don't get me wrong, I'm not scared of death- just terrified of the mess that it will create. That and the possibility of failure: being forced to live out the rest of my days incapable of function.

 

[Lra888]

Dying isn't easy; don't get me wrong, I'm not scared of death- just terrified of the mess that it will create. That and the possibility of failure: being forced to live out the rest of my days incapable of function.

Agree. When I act I'll combine 2 methods and make sure that no one will find me for several days. Overdose & partial.

 

[0blivi0n]

liar/delusional. OP anyone who says they arent afraid either are lying or they havnt come that close to actually executing their plan. Most of these people that say they arent afraid only think about suicide, never making it real (at this moment in time at least).

There is nothing that can be done op, you either overcome it or you dont, thats it. 200000 years of human survival, there is a reason for it. Our overwhelming fear of death.

Not trying to pick a fight, but to be honest I'm a little curious to know how you can specifically dictate how each individual human mind functions?
We are not carbon copies of each other, so how can you assume the mental attitude of people to whether they fear death or not prior to suicide?
Fearing one's suicide doesn't necessary equate to fearing the act of death; pain caused via suicide method, failure of death & potential life changing consequences as a unfortunate result sound a lot more terrifying then the act of death itself, in my opinion.

 

[GeorgeEastman]

Do you have everything planned to the last detail so you could execute at any moments notice?

Plans fail. The real success stories are people who are simply overcome with suicidal urges and take whatever means necessary at that moment to get the job done.

 

[deflagrat]

What kind of pills if you don't mind me asking? I would prefer that over hanging but i'm afraid I'm not informed enough to do it properly.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/amitriptyline-cocktail-method.260/

 

[CJM]

Its a ballsy thing to do. That last moment before you do it will be a mixture of emotions, scared will probably be one, there's no coming back.**


**Unless you believe you will come back in one form or another then by all means.

 

[CRM]

I think that death - especially death by suicide - is something people have to come to terms with on their own. We can try to ease the path for each other, but the final act is ours alone. I think everyone on here has heard the "life is meaningless, everyone dies, so who cares?" before, and yet we still breathe. I hope that you and everyone else on here can eventually overcome that hurdle.

 

[Lra888]

For some people life is unendurable whether because of chronic pain, mental illness, health problems, circumstance, abuse etc. To have the ability to leave this life is a gift.

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

I've had this kind of strong anxiety I always feel before doing something I know I have to do... it was fucking dreadful. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't think, I was just sitting here like paralyzed. Surreal experience.
Whatever is needed to overcome this fear - I don't have it. I thought that I'm at peace with my decision but I'm not. Perhaps my life isn't shitty enough yet.

 

[throwaway123]

I've had this kind of strong anxiety I always feel before doing something I know I have to do... it was fucking dreadful. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't think, I was just sitting here like paralyzed. Surreal experience.
Whatever is needed to overcome this fear - I don't have it. I thought that I'm at peace with my decision but I'm not. Perhaps my life isn't shitty enough yet.

Sorry to hear that.
I thought you were dead.

 

[Volatile]

I'm scared but thankfully life is becoming more scary than death

 

[ThisIsTheEnd]

I'm fucking terrified. Dying is scary, however, being alive sucks more, we just need to overcome our hardwired instincts.

 

[406blue]

It's very bad during sleepless nights. It's good when i'm researching/putting it off and with a bottle of wine. You find out how fearful you are when you're at the moment of truth and all that remains is, when you're prepared, in the location and you just have to do it.

 

[Nik]

Petrified, failure mostly. The future is too bleak no to.

 

[406blue]

For some people life is unendurable whether because of chronic pain, mental illness, health problems, circumstance, abuse etc. To have the ability to leave this life is a gift.

We all leave one way or another. The ability to leave at the moment of our own choosing is somehow a curse and a blessing. The gift is being able to leave it at peace with ourselves and the rest of the universe, if we can manage it and however it comes. That might be a gift we have to create for ourselves. I expect most people in here are truly sensitive people who struggle with things that the majority wouldn't ever consider. It's very hard but perhaps that's a gift of sorts, that curses and blesses us. The beauty and also the incredible pain of it all. Would anyone rather just be a consumer zombie and be content and question nothing, or live a life of hell with the occasional moment of beauty. The odd moment of beauty is necessary to not get to the point where we just say 'fuck it all'.

 

[RainAndSadness]

I'm not scared because I don't fear death, which will be neverending nothingness in my opinion. I seek that state of peace but I have to say that I'm scared of anything that might happen between me taking N and death, for example some weird near-death experience is definitely something I want to avoid.

 

[Fucking loving it]

I'm not afraid to attempt. I'm not afraid to die. I've almost made it 2x.
I guess I'm most afraid of failing again.

 

[1234dave]

I'm not afraid to attempt. I'm not afraid to die. I've almost made it 2x.
I guess I'm most afraid of failing again.

how did you fail?

 

[Fucking loving it]

I took fentanyl and 2 other strong opioids. Along with 3 different muscle relaxers and 3 different benzos. I was found unresponsive both times.

 

[1234dave]

what doses did you use?

is it pain free?

 

[Fucking loving it]

It was a lot. I don't specifically remember. It was patches and many many many many many many loads of pills... so wtf. Idk. Everyone thought it was so fucking great I was alive....

 

[Fucking loving it]

Completely pain free

 

[Schopenhauer]

I'm only afraid of failing, or dying in pain. Dying by itself doesn't scare me at all.

 

[Shay]

I'm only afraid of failing, or dying in pain. Dying by itself doesn't scare me at all.

Failing scares me. I don't want to end up worst than I am. And fear of unknown

 

[Ella Disenchanted]

I'm in the process of finalising plans and I'm terrified. I go from feeling calmly assured, to relieved, to excited, to pure terror. I'm glad that I'm going through this now rather than at the time. I keep waiting to wake up in the hope that my life hasn't really gotten to this point but it has.

 

[Deutschv2]

SSRIs make me feel zombielike for the most part. But occasionally emotion flares up again, which I silence with some benzos. Drugs help with fear.