Anyone here who are considered conventionally attractive and still want to CTB?

[Throwawayacc3]

Externals mean nothing. Yeah I got 6ft 2" and good hair and good jaw line (as that seems to be all the rage now) but the thing that's way more important (doesn't matter if ugly or good looking) is your brain. Have fucked up stuff and your life is miserable.

You can look at someone "pretty" but can be put off immediately from when they start talking. Being rude, loud, vulgar, bully, etc.

Anyways - we are all done for anyway. Looks matter if you like the attention or want to be a model or something. Nobody says "I'm good looking so now I qualify to be an astronaut" lol.

 

[Red Moon]

Don't want to brag, I got some comments that I'm handsome, look good, once gorgeous from women and my brothers wife said that I was better looking than he is but I don't think I am. I still want to kill myself though and leave.

 

[sserafim]

Yeah I've come across that quote before, though that's a different version.

I like the word dissolved. Lovecraft used it in his story too. Dissolving into oblivion. The thought gives a warm fuzzy feeling.

I like this quote. "Death must be so beautiful. To lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one's head, and listen to silence. To have no yesterday, and no tomorrow. To forget time, to forget life, to be at peace" -Oscar Wilde

I'm going to write that Oscar Wilde quote on a paper and put it in my pocket on that day. Maybe the words will bind onto me guaranteeing my wish like a silly superstition.

I wish that I could just dissolve

I know that I'm attractive, get told all the time and honestly I hate it. I feel like it makes people value me more for that than for my personality or brain. It makes me a target for stalking and obsession as well. I recently had my life ruined because someone wanted to see my face. I also feel uncomfortable going outside because people stare.

People say that I'm pretty as well. I always wear sunglasses in public because I don't like people staring at me. It makes me uncomfortable

 

[Throwawayacc3]

I wish that I could just dissolve

People say that I'm pretty as well. I always wear sunglasses in public because I don't like people staring at me. It makes me uncomfortable

"I wish I could dissolve" I laughed. Hydrogen peroxide?

Do you think that's neurodivergent thing? I get agitated if I'm in a group of people but staring is just a step up.

Don't want to brag, I got some comments that I'm handsome, look good, once gorgeous from women and my brothers wife said that I was better looking than he is but I don't think I am. I still want to kill myself though and leave.

It's frustrating when other people make comments as if their experience is a copy/paste onto another human. It does my head in

 

[Davey40210]

I'm conventionally quite attractive and tall so got a lot of gfs and one night stands out of it.

But there is something wrong with me. I think it is autism. And my childhood was traumatic so I have major attachment issues on top.

So as a result of the combination I end up finding a beautiful gf that I love to death but then I always lose them, in most cases due to my own actions.

After the initial "high" of sleeping with many girls wore off and I tried to actually have meaningful relationships/connections, I realized I will never achieve that and so life just looks like extended loneliness and suffering, with health and looks also fading so it will become even worse over time.

 

[CantDoIt]

Im ugly AF and its my own fault. Sensitive skin, excessive sun exposure growing up (not really my choice as I was forced into near constant outdoor activities but I should have protected my skin), stress, poor diet. Weight loss.
It sucks. I used to look okay probably but I kind of forget what it feels like, and I'm not that old.