
Wayfaerer
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- Aug 21, 2019
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Similar story; but for me it was psychiatric meds.Gave me some sort of brain damage which could be permanent i lost all my emotions, my personality, interest, hobbies...it demolished my soul and my body completely..it reduced me to a fraction of what i used to be. Just with one fucking shot..it can take years to recover just from one freaking shot and there is no guarantee....i turned into a zombie overnight...i'm constantly anxious, sedated, always on edge i never can relax or feel good . I lost all my motivation and completely destroyed my sex life as well i have no sex drive anymore and stopped producing semen.
Total chemical lobotomy turned my life into a complete nightmare i'm suffering everyday
Not only tis it also destroyed me spititually i cant feel my heart or heart chakra anymore
HI!There were a few turning points. One in particular occurred because at the time I hadn't fully come to terms with certain realities about how the world works as a possibility in my own life, even though I'd started identifying it in general and writing about aspects of it in my life in a journal. I discovered, too late, that my wild suspicions were actually true. They had opened a door. What a shame I had already opened another one before noticing. And that was the end because if you stop thinking you stop living.
I am in the exact same position same thing happened to me 3 months ago due to a stupid mistake and the person will not forgive me.I wish you the bestI lived perfect life just 2-3 months ago. Then I made a stupid mistake, fell into depression, and when I recognized what I've done my organism started to produce unbelievable amounts of cortisol and adrenaline resulting in non stop anxiety. After a couple of weeks in this state, I am zombie not a human being with no emotions. cannot enjoy anything, have suicidal thoughts non-stop. For me, it is so surrealistic, that something like this can happen in such a short period of time and because of one mistake.
If I fell ill in some physical disease at least I would bear it with dignity, believe me. I would try to give a good example to others. It would be in some way meaningful.
But because I got this shitty agitated depression by a stupid mistake, that is even so embarrassing to tell anybody, one stupid mistake that ruined my whole life, I cannot look at the mirror. I started behaving very weirdly due to enormous anxiety, depression, and suicidal thoughts, and all my family looks at me with disgrace. What a shame, I used to be very respected.
The only thing that I didn't lose entirely is money(savings) but it has no value to me at this moment.
I wonder if anybody else experienced something so bizarre as my situation.