Yes i made many mistake need to ko but scared i ruined my beautiful family
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VoidDesirer22
A dream inside a locked room
- Sep 6, 2021
- 673
I was manipulated into taking it by a nurse whom i trusted..big mistake i shouldn't had i could leave the hospital if i take the shot...i wish i stayed on pills instead
Yeah, I was living a great life only a few months ago and I was so comfortable. One rule in life regardless of how you feel mentally is never get too comfortable. health problems coincided with one mistake after the other which lead me into a black hole which I have made a small comeback but the deficit is too big to make up. I remember the last weeks of my good life like it was the last days of my life in a strange way, cos it literally felt like I've died. sometimes things like health problems can affect our judgement and i made all the right decisions to get to where i was in life but it can unravell in a matter of days. I'm a lost soul now but I never like to admit defeat but I'm living for my parents. I need a time machine desperately!
Fadeawaaaay
Visionary
- Nov 12, 2021
- 2,160
Darkover
Archangel
- Jul 29, 2021
- 5,568
markimobzzdeasui
Life is a cruel joke
- Oct 24, 2021
- 1,150
I made the greatest mistake of my entire life in 2019! For some sane person it may not sound like a mistake,but for me it lead to the total destruction of EVERY SINGLE area of my life.
Both my parents are some sick level narcissists with my father being a malignant narcissist(the most dangerous kind). They have been abusing me for past decade, taking away my friends,total privacy, chances of having a decent job even when I cleared a very tough exam to get it, and essentially house arresting me for the past 7 years of my life. It was soo much damaging that their enablers(colleagues and relatives) got free pass to abuse me whenever they wanted. I was ready to try sucide once more in 2019 but somehow I came to know that it is called narcissistic abuse and I have C-PTSD through some random videos. For few days I felt the happiest person in the world as I finally understood it was not my fault and healing is possible. But then I told others about what they did. It proved to be a fatal mistake for me as they refused my treatment for multiple mini brain strokes and tinnitus last year and instead admitted me to a psych ward for 3 times. Every now and then when I get seizures, I not only have to somehow pick myself up but also have to hide from these monsters. I am shit scared of going to hospital now. My reputation,soul and everything died in these 2 years. From being a nerd to not even able to read a paragraph for the past many months,it is an extreme level hell for me.
Both my parents are some sick level narcissists with my father being a malignant narcissist(the most dangerous kind). They have been abusing me for past decade, taking away my friends,total privacy, chances of having a decent job even when I cleared a very tough exam to get it, and essentially house arresting me for the past 7 years of my life. It was soo much damaging that their enablers(colleagues and relatives) got free pass to abuse me whenever they wanted. I was ready to try sucide once more in 2019 but somehow I came to know that it is called narcissistic abuse and I have C-PTSD through some random videos. For few days I felt the happiest person in the world as I finally understood it was not my fault and healing is possible. But then I told others about what they did. It proved to be a fatal mistake for me as they refused my treatment for multiple mini brain strokes and tinnitus last year and instead admitted me to a psych ward for 3 times. Every now and then when I get seizures, I not only have to somehow pick myself up but also have to hide from these monsters. I am shit scared of going to hospital now. My reputation,soul and everything died in these 2 years. From being a nerd to not even able to read a paragraph for the past many months,it is an extreme level hell for me.
I am in the same boat. I used fina and it destroyed my life. How did fina destroyed your life?
Suicidebydeath
No chances to be happy - dead inside
- Nov 25, 2021
- 3,558
Lost my girlfriend because I yelled at her once but hey she set me free and now I can ctb in peace!!
peepo
Member
- Nov 11, 2021
- 75
Porn addict. I had sex with bunch of guys (I am also a guy) and I feel I have STI/HIV/STD. Don't want to live like this.
Even if I test negative, it's going to be in my head forever.
Even if I test negative, it's going to be in my head forever.
VKVK
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- Oct 18, 2021
- 112
My major mistake was being born into my father and mother, the rest is history.
We win some, we lose the rest.
We win some, we lose the rest.
stay strong fren
Insomnia, anhedonia, emotional flatness, extreme depression and anxiety, muscle wastage, tinnitus, joint pain, complete sexual dysfunction, penile shrinkage, thinning skin, dry skin, brian fog, and the list goes on. I have basically lost everything and had to move back with my parents as I can barely function. I am a very severe case. I have been donating to research through the PFS Network. I have had this for a year now and for severe cases like myself it's my only hope. Nothing else I have tried has worked. The disease is highly variable and a lot of people get better with time so if you are still fairly early into it I would give it some time and try some therapeutic attempts. Consider donating to the research project through PFS Network. It is very promising and the most important thing for future treatments and a cure. Also you may consider joining the propeciahelp forum to speak with other patients.
Exactly this for me. I got a nose job and lost my identity. Now all I can do is be sad/manic over that mistake….I lost all my desire to live over it. 1 stupid mistake….I did zero research before the procedure, I figured it was a smart move, couldn't go wrong. Now I don't recognize myself.
I'm so sorry about this. Psych drugs are not to be messed with. There's too much we don't understand about the brain to be ingesting things like this. I took amitriptyline for a couple of weeks coz they said it would help with nerve pain and it was the most awful experience of my life. I wonder if it's still affecting me because my brain has not felt the same since.
Dr Iron Arc
Into the Unknown
- Feb 10, 2020
- 21,391
Not quite everything, but I did lose a lot of my sanity when I left a drawstring bag filled with some game controllers in my car. I didn't realize that California ate stupid pills and thought it was a good idea to let Proposition 47 pass which basically makes it so that people can't be arrested if they steal any property valued under $950. This has led to an uptick in car break-ins that have only gotten worse in the past 7 years since the law was passed. I just happened to be one of those victims.
When this happened to me, I felt incredibly violated. I was so emotionally disturbed and lost a lot of the empathy and kindness I felt towards fellow humans, the same ones who thought it was okay for this to happen to me and that did nothing to catch the monster responsible.
This caused me to distance myself from some of my friends including one coworker who I had feelings for and had this not happened I likely would have been able to ask her out but instead I wasn't ready until about a month later at the Christmas party at work. Funny enough, that was exactly six years ago from today.
It was there that I found out I was too slow and that she had gotten with someone else. That was the straw that broke the camel's back for me. From that moment on, my hatred for all people of that guy's kind, of all the kinds of self-righteous idiots who let that law happen, of myself for letting that happen, all of that spite proliferated today and has left me unable to ever move on or let it go. And all because I left a bag in my car that could just as easily have had sweaty socks and underwear in it since back then I was also going to the gym back then. It wasn't really about the fact that I lost the controllers. I got those replaced. It was about the fact that someone felt entitled to my stuff just because it wasn't theirs. Whoever they are, I hope they're happy. I hope they're getting fucked by their lover unlike me who will never get to experience the joys of true love or lust as a result of this singular event. I also hope their partner is into hardcore bdsm like torture and that they aren't. I hope their genitalia gets lit aflame and burnt to ashes like my heart was on that day six years ago when I found out I was too late.
When this happened to me, I felt incredibly violated. I was so emotionally disturbed and lost a lot of the empathy and kindness I felt towards fellow humans, the same ones who thought it was okay for this to happen to me and that did nothing to catch the monster responsible.
This caused me to distance myself from some of my friends including one coworker who I had feelings for and had this not happened I likely would have been able to ask her out but instead I wasn't ready until about a month later at the Christmas party at work. Funny enough, that was exactly six years ago from today.
It was there that I found out I was too slow and that she had gotten with someone else. That was the straw that broke the camel's back for me. From that moment on, my hatred for all people of that guy's kind, of all the kinds of self-righteous idiots who let that law happen, of myself for letting that happen, all of that spite proliferated today and has left me unable to ever move on or let it go. And all because I left a bag in my car that could just as easily have had sweaty socks and underwear in it since back then I was also going to the gym back then. It wasn't really about the fact that I lost the controllers. I got those replaced. It was about the fact that someone felt entitled to my stuff just because it wasn't theirs. Whoever they are, I hope they're happy. I hope they're getting fucked by their lover unlike me who will never get to experience the joys of true love or lust as a result of this singular event. I also hope their partner is into hardcore bdsm like torture and that they aren't. I hope their genitalia gets lit aflame and burnt to ashes like my heart was on that day six years ago when I found out I was too late.
Centende
Member
- Dec 18, 2021
- 23
This is actually my biggest fear in life and has been since I was 12 or 14 That I might say the wrong thing to my family that exposes exactly what I am or humiliate myself so much trying to feel some sort of joy that my entire family turns on me. Its scary to think about how much worse life could get for me its really bad now but at least my mom and dad do not really know what I am
Hello dmoon. I am almost 60 years old and my entire life, has been one BIG fucking stupid mistake after another. BUT. life has taught me. Everyone, on earth, is a fucking Idiot, just like me. And I work that to my advantage. As you should do too.
Yes and it affect me deeply. I couldn't sleep , became depressed and push me to the edge which ctb seems is the only option. I've got SN but still need to figure out how to get other medicines as stated in the Stan guide.
StevieNixs
Specialist
- Jul 22, 2021
- 316
My sole, singular and enduring mistake has always been to trust people,
little helpers
did I tie the tourniquet on my arm or on my neck?
- Dec 14, 2021
- 518
hypnosis…man. sometimes it's "therapeutic practice", other times it's cult programming.
's the first time I heard of this drug…stupid brand name with abhorrent risks it seems…
is it okay for me to ask if it was involuntary? cuz I been in your place for a very long time before. not induced by psych meds, but abuse, trauma. I was in a state of DP/DR for almost a year. total fucking zombie. before shrink stopped us from dissociating by plunging me into the depth of "trauma processing". went from one extreme to the next. from constant dissociation to week-long flashbacks that lasts 24/7.
it could be the trauma of being strapped up and injected with this shit that led to your situation. dissociation rarely happens without a reason. survival reasons. even though it paradoxically makes people wanna die from the sheer amount of suffering.
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That sounds awful. How long did you user fina? I hope you will find some relief and a cure in the future. There is no hope for me. My case is very different than yours. I used fina for 14 years without any side effects. After 14 years of use i have been diagnosed with an extremely rare and aggressive type of cancer. I now have severe tinnitus and chronic pain because of the cancer treatments. I am 90% sure the fina is the cause of my cancer. This is a very dangerous drug and I can't believe this is still on the market. I am not going to CTB because my cancer is now uncurable and it will take me out in a couple of years. I try to enjoy the little things in life but in the end I am just waiting to die.
liberty_222
psychotic
- Nov 28, 2021
- 361
No i honestly wake up and make the same mistakes everyday because i lack impulse control and my mood swings are horrible. Adding to that i have this jealous rage and loneliness. I just want to be held tight and be loved but I'm also a fucking bitch and so difficult to be around. I hurt everyone why would anyone want to be near me?
I am very sorry to hear this. I pray that you can find some relief from your suffering. I took fin twice. Once for a month. Next time for only a week. Then I had a horrible crash and got hit with all these symptoms. To make it worse many people do not believe in PFS because of the misinformation on the internet and the lack of bio markers for the disease. You are right, it is a tragedy that a drug like this for a cosmetic purpose is on the market. It has destroyed many lives. I am trying to help PFS Network spread awareness and also donating to research to try to find a cure. You can check them out by searching PFS Network in Youtube. Take care.
Sherri
Archangel
- Sep 28, 2020
- 13,794
I also couldnt look for the mirror for a long time, still struggle with that, my biggest mistake was leaving a well paid job to another who I make less than half that I used to, cause of an end of relationship. How stupid was I. Unfortunately I can't turn back time. Sorry for all your pain, we all had it and some of us still do. Sometimes even taken a shower was a huge task for me, disgusting I know.
You are @Sherri a truly caring and loving soul here on SS. I so agree with you as far as folks having had pain and some still do. That is one of the reasons SS is such a valuable site, to comfort folks, exchange ideas and just be a family to one another.
Take great care of yourself and have an awesome rest of this week.
Walter
I checked them out and I will donate when I have money. Tbh I don't think it will change much. Big pharma are making big money out of this drug. Healthy people and doctors are too ignorant. Like you said, the misinformation on the internet is shocking.
I think through scientific research and medical advances such as CRISPR there is some hope. I dont think the drug will every be totally removed from the market but if we can prove the mechanism of action by which finasteride caused these problems then we can go to court and get payouts plus the labels can then be updated to warn consumers. We can also recreate PFS in animal models and test treatments. The Baylor study was a very significant finding and this new study will build off those results.
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Ihadagoodlife
Member
- Jan 18, 2021
- 51
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