Anyone else who lost everything because of one stupid mistake?

[Wayfaerer]

Yes, down the line.

 

[gramenii]

BPD ruined my most important relationship. I did a mistake and that was all. Now I'm completely numb.

 

[Hope:-)]

Yes. I took medication. Ruined my life.

Gave me some sort of brain damage which could be permanent i lost all my emotions, my personality, interest, hobbies...it demolished my soul and my body completely..it reduced me to a fraction of what i used to be. Just with one fucking shot..it can take years to recover just from one freaking shot and there is no guarantee....i turned into a zombie overnight...i'm constantly anxious, sedated, always on edge i never can relax or feel good . I lost all my motivation and completely destroyed my sex life as well i have no sex drive anymore and stopped producing semen.

Total chemical lobotomy turned my life into a complete nightmare i'm suffering everyday

Not only tis it also destroyed me spititually i cant feel my heart or heart chakra anymore

Similar story; but for me it was psychiatric meds.

 

[Astronauta]

Minha vida arruinada pela vacina covid 19.
perdi saúde e todos os sonhos se foram.

 

[Walilamdzii]

Yeah, meeting the wrong person. But it's all more complicated than that.

 

[almaranthine]

No I've made like hundreds of mistakes, all compiling one after another resulting in worse and worse circumstances, creating an impossible position to escape from. I couldn't even tell you what the first mistake really was. As soon as I became a legal adult I was a stupid fkn mess.

 

[Lifeaballache]

Yes, my brain seems to be quite impulsive and tricks me into thinking everything will be ok if I do something and then BOOM I've fucked up. I can't see it changing other than CBTing.

 

[AintNoWayOut]

yes. i did something which has given me nonstop physical pain/issues for the past eight years. my life since then, at 16, has been a nightmare and the thought of how it was all caused by that one mistake makes it even more hellish. just a constant physical and mental battle.... where im kinda just laying down and taking a beating because theres not much i can do to "fight back"

 

[Disappointered]

There were a few turning points. One in particular occurred because at the time I hadn't fully come to terms with certain realities about how the world works as a possibility in my own life, even though I'd started identifying it in general and writing about aspects of it in my life in a journal. I discovered, too late, that my wild suspicions were actually true. They had opened a door. What a shame I had already opened another one before noticing. And that was the end because if you stop thinking you stop living.

 

[whywere]

There were a few turning points. One in particular occurred because at the time I hadn't fully come to terms with certain realities about how the world works as a possibility in my own life, even though I'd started identifying it in general and writing about aspects of it in my life in a journal. I discovered, too late, that my wild suspicions were actually true. They had opened a door. What a shame I had already opened another one before noticing. And that was the end because if you stop thinking you stop living.

HI!
Your post made me cry and I had to stop by and say HI! and say that wea re ALL the same and I care and love you as a good friend. One should NEVER EVER have to feel anything bad, yes it happens, BUT there is all of us come together to help each other, like YOU!

You are a kind and loving soul, your post said that to me loud and clear and I send you lots of hugs, love and the lifelong knowing that you are a fantastic spirit!

Walter

 

[blur10600]

Yes! I'm here grasping at straws. Had a life stolen by two conscienceless individuals I let carelessly into my life.

 

[annointed_towers]

Yes, I fell in love with the wrong person. He frustrated me and I cursed God. Too hard to explain but I now feel worms everywhere in my body. God cursed me back.

 

[SamTam33]

My life veered completely off track based on a simple mistake I made as a child. I walked a few feet in the wrong direction. Less than 10 footsteps changed my life permanently.

But over the last 18 months, every single bone headed decision I've made has been fueled by alcohol.

And I keep drinking to try and numb the obsessive regret I have over those decisions.

Then I make more stupid life-impacting decisions. It's a never-ending cycle.

I need just 48 hours sober so I can seriously contemplate my CTB plan and I can't even do that.

 

[Ultracheese]

It's sad that so many others here are in similar situations. I've screwed up a lot. I let myself get abused twice, ruined the one opportunity I had to make a good life for myself and my best friend, and alienated someone I love deeply due to my selfishness. Not as bad as some people have it, I'm aware, so I feel very guilty about complaining.

 

[Reallysad]

I lived perfect life just 2-3 months ago. Then I made a stupid mistake, fell into depression, and when I recognized what I've done my organism started to produce unbelievable amounts of cortisol and adrenaline resulting in non stop anxiety. After a couple of weeks in this state, I am zombie not a human being with no emotions. cannot enjoy anything, have suicidal thoughts non-stop. For me, it is so surrealistic, that something like this can happen in such a short period of time and because of one mistake.
If I fell ill in some physical disease at least I would bear it with dignity, believe me. I would try to give a good example to others. It would be in some way meaningful.

But because I got this shitty agitated depression by a stupid mistake, that is even so embarrassing to tell anybody, one stupid mistake that ruined my whole life, I cannot look at the mirror. I started behaving very weirdly due to enormous anxiety, depression, and suicidal thoughts, and all my family looks at me with disgrace. What a shame, I used to be very respected.

The only thing that I didn't lose entirely is money(savings) but it has no value to me at this moment.

I wonder if anybody else experienced something so bizarre as my situation.

I am in the exact same position same thing happened to me 3 months ago due to a stupid mistake and the person will not forgive me.I wish you the best