• UK users: Due to a formal investigation into this site by Ofcom under the UK Online Safety Act 2023, we strongly recommend using a trusted, no-logs VPN. This will help protect your privacy, bypass censorship, and maintain secure access to the site. Read the full VPN guide here.

  • Hey Guest,

    Today, OFCOM launched an official investigation into Sanctioned Suicide under the UK’s Online Safety Act. This has already made headlines across the UK.

    This is a clear and unprecedented overreach by a foreign regulator against a U.S.-based platform. We reject this interference and will be defending the site’s existence and mission.

    In addition to our public response, we are currently seeking legal representation to ensure the best possible defense in this matter. If you are a lawyer or know of one who may be able to assist, please contact us at [email protected].

    Read our statement here:

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC): 34HyDHTvEhXfPfb716EeEkEHXzqhwtow1L
    Ethereum (ETH): 0xd799aF8E2e5cEd14cdb344e6D6A9f18011B79BE9
    Monero (XMR): 49tuJbzxwVPUhhDjzz6H222Kh8baKe6rDEsXgE617DVSDD8UKNaXvKNU8dEVRTAFH9Av8gKkn4jDzVGF25snJgNfUfKKNC8
BluesRunTheGame

BluesRunTheGame

Blackpilled
Dec 15, 2020
1,715
Then the bad days come back and you're like wishing you'd been planning ctb a bit harder on the good days?
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: Arvinneedstodie, NekoNomNom, Bauhaus and 19 others
S

Spitfire

Enlightened
Apr 26, 2020
1,273
Yes
 
  • Like
Reactions: SadRat, disabledandhopeless, Meditation guide and 4 others
W

WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,163
Yes, all the time! (especially because of being a bipolar guy.)
 
  • Like
Reactions: NoneMoreNegative, Teal_Blue_Dreams, Purpose and 5 others
signifying nothing

signifying nothing

-
Sep 13, 2020
2,553
Yes, sometimes the same day. One part of me is convinced things are getting better, just need another day, another week, things are changing. Then by the end of the day I'm back on my ass or worse than I started.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: Arvinneedstodie, NekoNomNom, Bauhaus and 7 others
_Kaira_

_Kaira_

This Isn't Fine
Oct 2, 2020
825
Yes. I don't seem to learn from it either.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Arvinneedstodie, NekoNomNom, Bauhaus and 6 others
BluesRunTheGame

BluesRunTheGame

Blackpilled
Dec 15, 2020
1,715
It's like another facet of mental illness: temporarily tricking you into thinking things aren't that bad? I guess in a way it's just more taunting from the demons.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Bauhaus, Deleted member 24006, Meditation guide and 2 others
Lilmeowssi

Lilmeowssi

I just want peace
Sep 6, 2019
77
I love the good days while I am experiencing them but when the bad days come back I get super disappointed and mad at myself.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: NekoNomNom, Bauhaus, Deleted member 24006 and 3 others
B

Bigpink

Warlock
Oct 12, 2020
706
I'm too suspicious and aware, so no I don't.
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: SadRat, Teal_Blue_Dreams, BluesRunTheGame and 1 other person
AnniesHideaway

AnniesHideaway

Member
Jul 1, 2020
52
Thankfully I have no good days.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: Teal_Blue_Dreams, Pookie, BluesRunTheGame and 1 other person
muffin222

muffin222

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2020
1,187
I wouldn't say so. No emotional state is permanent, so the good days are bound to come from time to time, but they're so infrequent compared to the pain and sorrow that they don't feel worth staying alive for,
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: Arvinneedstodie, NekoNomNom, Teal_Blue_Dreams and 3 others
S

skinnystudent

Member
Dec 6, 2020
17
Unfortunately even on the good days, I feel like dying
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: Teal_Blue_Dreams, Pookie and BluesRunTheGame
M

Mthom2

Student
Oct 19, 2020
156
I get maybe one decent day a week, and it's just enough to give you a glimpse of hope. Then, back into darkness.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: Teal_Blue_Dreams, neverever, BluesRunTheGame and 1 other person
D

Deleted member 19276

Wizard
Jun 28, 2020
682
Yes, it's the vortex of life... No pun!
Honestly, I feel confused mostly nowadays than anything.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Teal_Blue_Dreams and BluesRunTheGame
Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
6,082
I have a day or two a month where I don't have pain and can move around better and do a few things. I think to myself finally this is getting better. Maybe I can recover after all. But then the next day I'm back to the usual pain and disability.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: Arvinneedstodie, muffin222, Teal_Blue_Dreams and 4 others
NodusTollens

NodusTollens

Nov 17, 2020
989
Oh yeah.
Between the physical pain & constant struggle with my MH- ugh, YUP.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Arvinneedstodie, Teal_Blue_Dreams and BluesRunTheGame
MindFog

MindFog

:Professional Hypocrite:
Nov 19, 2020
733
Yeah, can't even enjoy the good days cause I keep bracing myself for something bad to happen. No good thing ever last.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: Arvinneedstodie, Teal_Blue_Dreams, disabledandhopeless and 4 others
aeon

aeon

XIII
Dec 6, 2020
1,358
No, good days are gone and ok days are few.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: Teal_Blue_Dreams, Salvation_, Pookie and 2 others
D

Deleted member 24006

Member
Nov 20, 2020
59
I love the good days while I am experiencing them but when the bad days come back I get super disappointed and mad at myself.
YEP -
 
  • Like
Reactions: Teal_Blue_Dreams, Meditation guide and BluesRunTheGame
stygal

stygal

meow
Oct 29, 2020
1,731
Hell yeah!

Sometimes I numb or distract myself for a time period - successfully it seems at first - but it all comes right back to me eventually.
I can never escape the feeling of having to leave urgently.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: BluesRunTheGame, Teal_Blue_Dreams, neverever and 1 other person
issyishere

issyishere

Goodnight and always remember that’s life
Nov 5, 2019
441
Holy shit is that relatable. I had a few good days a week ago but recently had bad days once again. Tbh it's even worse when you go from a good day to a bad day because it's that much more jarring.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: BluesRunTheGame, Teal_Blue_Dreams and neverever
D

Deleted member 23885

Experienced
Nov 18, 2020
293
yes :)
 
  • Like
Reactions: BluesRunTheGame and Teal_Blue_Dreams
Sprite_Geist

Sprite_Geist

NULL
May 27, 2020
1,595
Yes. Those "good days" are like a marketing tactic to draw you in; only to realise that the actual product is broken.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: Arvinneedstodie, Bauhaus, BluesRunTheGame and 5 others
Pookie

Pookie

Somebody you used to know.
Oct 18, 2020
1,051
I don't have any good days so no trickery there.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: BluesRunTheGame, Teal_Blue_Dreams and issyishere
S

Southwinds

Member
Dec 1, 2019
21
Yes, I have learned to not trust the good days, They will pass and the shit always comes back The shit ALWAYS WINS. So don't fight it.
 
  • Aww..
  • Love
Reactions: BluesRunTheGame and Teal_Blue_Dreams
Throwmyselfaway

Throwmyselfaway

Not gone yet but soon
Jan 14, 2020
797
On lord yes. The other day we were having a good day, talking about the future and everything. Then I lay down and I'm like well shit. At least I'm getting good at faking talking about the future. But for a split second I was like oh the future talk sounds good.
 
  • Like
Reactions: BluesRunTheGame and Teal_Blue_Dreams
justanotherstar

justanotherstar

Life: you can’t fire me, I quit.
Nov 23, 2020
345
Yea, my ideation never really changes but kn good days It is harder to plan and carry out plans. I haven't yet figured out whether this is a useful feature of this one meaningless life we live
 
  • Like
  • Love
  • Hugs
Reactions: BluesRunTheGame, neverever and Teal_Blue_Dreams
Salvation_

Salvation_

"Please, finish my story."
Nov 25, 2020
235
There are no "good" days. Only okay, bad, and disastrously terrible.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: BluesRunTheGame, Teal_Blue_Dreams and justanotherstar
Teal_Blue_Dreams

Teal_Blue_Dreams

Arcanist
Sep 15, 2020
401
Yes, sometimes the same day. One part of me is convinced things are getting better, just need another day, another week, things are changing. Then by the end of the day I'm back on my ass or worse than I started.
Same. Same. Same!
 
  • Love
Reactions: BluesRunTheGame

Similar threads

Someplace_nice
Replies
1
Views
155
Recovery
timf
T
voidangel
Discussion thinking of ctb
Replies
2
Views
169
Recovery
Pale_Rider
Pale_Rider
T
Replies
4
Views
284
Suicide Discussion
itsoverforme303
I
Csmith8827
Replies
1
Views
127
Offtopic
Forever Sleep
F
Olivie_420
Replies
0
Views
119
Suicide Discussion
Olivie_420
Olivie_420