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Tarnished_

New Member
Aug 17, 2025
4
Over the course of my life (mid 20's) I have come to realize that I am simply incompatiable with this world. Like if there was a higher power, that they made a mistake with me. I feel like an anomaly. An outcast from both my friends and family. It would explain why I feel so alien to them and it would further explain why I have such difficulties living a "stable" life compared to others. My friends don't care about me. My family would probably celebrate my passing when it comes. I should just die.
 
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Jadedmeursault9

Jadedmeursault9

Burned Out, Still Glowing
Sep 26, 2024
27
Often times I feel like I've been placed in the wrong world. Or, I wasn't made for these times.

I feel as if there's some beauty in it though. I'm pretty strong headed, and, the challenge and difficulty drives me to a certain extent. I might mope and bitch but I do better when my back is to the wall. There's something so so so gratifying about overcoming the odds. It makes the pain worth it.


Maybe you can find some comfort in that mentality or this song.
 
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Tarnished_

New Member
Aug 17, 2025
4
Often times I feel like I've been placed in the wrong world. Or, I wasn't made for these times.

I feel as if there's some beauty in it though. I'm pretty strong headed, and, the challenge and difficult drives me to a certain extent. I might mope and bitch but I do better when my back is to the wall. There's something so so so gratifying about overcoming the odds. It makes the pain worth it.


Maybe you can find some comfort in that mentality or this song.

To an extent I feel the same way. Enjoying the thrill of overcoming hurdles, but after a while... I would rather not have to fight with the world. Why can't it just accept me? Also very appropriate song for my thoughts right now. Hit the nail on the head.
 
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Jadedmeursault9

Jadedmeursault9

Burned Out, Still Glowing
Sep 26, 2024
27
Is it the world that can't accept you or is it the people around you?

Which ever the case, I accept you. You're welcome here.
 
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Tarnished_

New Member
Aug 17, 2025
4
Is it the world that can't accept you or is it the people around you?

Which ever the case, I accept you. You're welcome here.
Appreciate it. To be honest, I'd say it's more the people. It's just that so much of life is spent being with others that it almost feels like that IS the world. I know the simple solution would be to be around people I feel accept me but uhhh I've been through a few groups. Some acquaintances. Some close friends. All end the same. Me pushing them away either intentionally or not.
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,175
I feel like an alien since I was born. It may be autism. Or it just may be this world driving me crazy
 
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fallendevil

fallendevil

Horrible Woman
Oct 6, 2024
779
Definitely

I've said this before but even as a child I remember sitting in the living room and being like "hmmm, I've lived for WAY too long, I guess it's time for me to die and go on to the next life" and I closed my eyes and started singing the "ending credits" to no avail.

I've also always had a small interest in the supernatural like mermaids or fairies so maybe it was my inner self screaming to get out
 
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dearlydeparted44

Specialist
May 21, 2025
330
I've felt like this practically my entire life. I never belonged to this world. I hope I find the one I do belong to. And I hope it's better than this one. Of course, that's not hard to be.
 
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princexhhn

princexhhn

did i make a mistake?
Sep 26, 2023
474
Exactly!! I feel the same!! This world just feels… wrong for me. I feel like I could thrive, just… not here.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,384
I am not autistic but I also suffer from the wrong planet syndrome since my birth
 
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badatparties

badatparties

Elementalist
Mar 16, 2025
814
It just feels so imperfect. Everything is so messy and hard to do. We are trapped in a meat suit that requires constant daily upkeep just to not look like absolute shit. We are surrounded by insane religions, governments, ugly vicious people.....................i dono.

I'd like to think in this vast infinite universe, there are better places that exist.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,186
I personally just never should had suffered in this existence at all, I was certainly never meant to be burdened with this cruel, futile, deeply undesirable and torturous existence and as long as I exist I'll just hope for the peace of non-existence, to me existence just feels like a mistake and I wish I never suffered more than anything.
 
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thelostautistic

Arcanist
Jul 31, 2025
451
This is a feeling I massively relate to because my Autism. I feel like an alien in this world
 
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Ligottian

Enlightened
Dec 19, 2021
1,279
Often times I feel like I've been placed in the wrong world. Or, I wasn't made for these times.

I feel as if there's some beauty in it though. I'm pretty strong headed, and, the challenge and difficulty drives me to a certain extent. I might mope and bitch but I do better when my back is to the wall. There's something so so so gratifying about overcoming the odds. It makes the pain worth it.


Maybe you can find some comfort in that mentality or this song.

I mentioned this song in a post I made a couple of weeks or so ago! RIP Brian.
 
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notreallybored

Specialist
Nov 26, 2024
372
ב''ה, I'm really just an example for a religious crowd that already knows / has no interest except maybe I sometimes cause people to say "thank G-d I didn't do that."
 
The_Sadness_of_Life

The_Sadness_of_Life

I Will Die Soon
Sep 8, 2025
52
Actually I felt more like why I'm placed to this world of existence called Life, I wish the Creator would talk to me first and show me what my life would be from beginning to end then ask me if I would want to be place in this world and live. That would be more fair right? Rather than just being placed on this world and exist. The only fear I have about CTB is what if there is spiritual world or a purgatory where you waiting to be judge, cause imagine you wanted to escape this torment of life so then CTB is the perfect escape thru nothingness to no longer exist but then be awaken in spiritual world where you are in purgatory waiting to be judged but this time there is no escape what we did can not be undone. This what holding me back that fear because you never know.
 
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