wannabeangel
ź°į Missing Wings ą»ź±
- Mar 14, 2026
- 202
I HATE WAKING UP LATE I FUCKING HATE WAKING UP AT ALL. IM TIRED OF REMEMBERING AND IM TIRED OF BEING SO FUCKING TIRED ALL THE TIME. i dont know why i try to vent to my mom, it doesnt make me feel any better, i just feel like a burden and spoiled for complaining when people have it so much worse than me, it doesnt feel like i have the right to complain. im just so tired of thinking and breathing and being in this bed, i keep wishing i just suddenly die in my sleep. i want my heart and body to give up on me, it already showed my heart acting up at the hospital after the divorce, i hope it gets worse. kill me so i dont have to consciously do it, let my death be "natural" and i am remembered for being a girl who tried but her body didnt let her, not a girl whos mind was too ill to continue trying. it'll be put on my mental health history and not everything else that lead me to be how i am
how long do i have to pretend to be okay to others? how long do i have to wait until i get a break? do i just keep praying? i've been trying to get into my spirituality a bit more again, i have been so exhausted tho. maybe it'll come back to me. for now im gonna distract myself with daydreams and projects i can do
how long do i have to pretend to be okay to others? how long do i have to wait until i get a break? do i just keep praying? i've been trying to get into my spirituality a bit more again, i have been so exhausted tho. maybe it'll come back to me. for now im gonna distract myself with daydreams and projects i can do
