Yeah at the moment I feel a little bit better. I try to spread some positive vibes here in recovery and provide some resources for other people who want to recover. I personally really doubt my life will have a happy end but this does not mean other people can't have it.
Having suicidal thoughts does not necessarily mean you have to commit suicide. Some only have a temporary crisis. For me personally I have now suicidal thoughts for roundabout a decade but I am not such a good example.
You can never predict the future a very intelligent man told me that. I struggle with that to be honest. I have always a very pessimistic view about my life because the past was such a pain. But there are people out there who have recovered after decades of mental torture.
I am always happy when I see people here in this forum who recover. Some really were at rock bottom and had an existential crises but then could recover. They seemed to be happy that they never ctb.
Especially when you hit rock bottom for the first time in your life you think this would last forever. At least this is what I thought. But it is likely rock bottom won't last forever. There will be better days for many.
My personal suicidal thoughts were in the past like 24/7 for roundabout 1,5 years. This time period was extremely painful. I had psychosomatic pain and it was just extreme torture. But I started to take medication. I tried A LOT of medication. I read a lot about my illness. Reading literature can help you to understand yourself better. Or psychotherapy can help you to come to terms with past traumatas. I just wished everyone in this forum had the opportunity to have appoinments with therapists. It is unbelievable cruel not to help people who struggle this much. They have blood on their hands. Politicians who do not support free health care for everyone.
I think most people who have suicidal thoughts don't finally ctb. Some survive suicide attempts and then rethink their view on life and death. I think it should not be underestimated how many people had/ have suicidal thoughts in their life. It is such a stigmatized topic. I was in many clinics and so many people were so ashamed to admit them. Most people prefer to hide them. There is no shame for having suicidal thoughts. I just wished more people could open up about them. Many are too scared about that. But this is also the fault of our societies. In our communities we should talk about this issue without so much shame. It is important to listen to someone with suicidal thoughts without judging him/her for it.
Having suicidal thoughts does not necessarily mean you have to commit suicide. Some only have a temporary crisis. For me personally I have now suicidal thoughts for roundabout a decade but I am not such a good example.
You can never predict the future a very intelligent man told me that. I struggle with that to be honest. I have always a very pessimistic view about my life because the past was such a pain. But there are people out there who have recovered after decades of mental torture.
I am always happy when I see people here in this forum who recover. Some really were at rock bottom and had an existential crises but then could recover. They seemed to be happy that they never ctb.
Especially when you hit rock bottom for the first time in your life you think this would last forever. At least this is what I thought. But it is likely rock bottom won't last forever. There will be better days for many.
My personal suicidal thoughts were in the past like 24/7 for roundabout 1,5 years. This time period was extremely painful. I had psychosomatic pain and it was just extreme torture. But I started to take medication. I tried A LOT of medication. I read a lot about my illness. Reading literature can help you to understand yourself better. Or psychotherapy can help you to come to terms with past traumatas. I just wished everyone in this forum had the opportunity to have appoinments with therapists. It is unbelievable cruel not to help people who struggle this much. They have blood on their hands. Politicians who do not support free health care for everyone.
I think most people who have suicidal thoughts don't finally ctb. Some survive suicide attempts and then rethink their view on life and death. I think it should not be underestimated how many people had/ have suicidal thoughts in their life. It is such a stigmatized topic. I was in many clinics and so many people were so ashamed to admit them. Most people prefer to hide them. There is no shame for having suicidal thoughts. I just wished more people could open up about them. Many are too scared about that. But this is also the fault of our societies. In our communities we should talk about this issue without so much shame. It is important to listen to someone with suicidal thoughts without judging him/her for it.
