Yew attempt

[Kali_Yuga13]

I'm sorry you are having such a tough time with things. I don't know if you posted your story and what brought you to this. I hate to see you go even if that's selfish of me. If something changes and you go to the hospital again, no shame in that. We'll be here.

 

[EternalSkies]

Thank you <3 dont knoe if I will die yet
Will ser in the coming hours
Oddly the first ekg was normal this time but feeling nauseous. More than usual

 

[Kali_Yuga13]

Glad you're there.

 

[EternalSkies]

Several effects noted on the ekg now 6 hours later.

 

[Kali_Yuga13]

How are you doing today?

 

[EternalSkies]

I had some issues for like 24 hours with the heart. But now fine. I ate an additional 11g to increase my chances of death further when the heart was doing worst.
They forced me to drink activated charcoal rendering the additional yew inaffective. They would have force fed me the activated charcoal if I didn't drink it myself..

 

[Kali_Yuga13]

I was going to ask about charcoal. In the US I'm not sure how they would handle your scenario. I have seen a person get court ordered when they declined treatment but that was for attendance an IOP program. Do you live with people?

 

[EternalSkies]

In my country a doctor can simply decide that treatment is forced by law from what I understand. But they usually avoid it.
Especially when a person is otherwise sane.

No I was at the hospital so I can see what happens to my heart. They can't do much about what has been eaten before I get there.
Since there is no antidote for yew. But if I eat it and they find out within an hour they will force charcoal likely

 

[lament.]

Hope you've still been feeling okay and not having any painful side effects from the yew. If I found a yew tree near me I too would probably be attempting suicide with it or atleast trying it in a tea or something to see it's effects on me like you are doing. You are very brave but if you plan to live life after this make sure you don't cause permanent harm, as hard as that may seem to do or to care about sometimes. Best wishes.

 

[EternalSkies]

I feel okay. Thats the good thing about yew in my experience. But that's just my body and my yew tree
Thank you <3

I gathered 38g from a new bush/tree in the botanical garden yesterday evening. This time it is japenese yew instead of european yew.
I plan on ingesting around 32-38g if I can.

On top of that I gathered 3 leafs of foxglove. Think I plan on ingesting a smaller on too.

I also gathered on smaller leaf from Aconitum/Wolfsbane. I might put it on my wet skin. It is said you could die from just touching it a prolonger period of time.
But im scared of this one because it causes lots of side effects etc. Not sure about this one yet though

Japenese yew is sparser and doesn't smell as bad somehow when made into tea/dried in an oven.

Fyi. Although yew are trees from what I understand. It is heavily used as an ornamental bush pretty much everywhere at least in my country. It might be a hybrid in ornamental form but still has poison. They're not hard to find once you know how they look