Discussion Would your younger self be proud of you?

[Darkover]

i learned a lot and did have some success but in the end i failed so no

 

[Borgrot]

ha ha ha ha ha ha ha no

I'm probably a 'better person', I used to delight in saying awful things for shock value and I can't believe the terrible stuff I would say, I'm more caring and empathic but...

I'm colossally fat, I'm in a relationship where both of us are utterly miserable and no-one can get out, I hurt myself regularly, I gave up all my dreams...younger me would probably attack me

 

[Forever Sleep]

To some extent, my younger self would be 'happy' that some of our ambitions came true. She already realises how messed up we are- so- she'd be grateful that some of the hard work she's putting in now will eventually pay off to some extent. Of course- I wouldn't have the heart to tell her that ultimately- it won't feel like it was worth it. That one day- she'll lose the drive that keeps her going at the moment. Honestly- it would be kinder to just kill her there and then.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

No.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, I would just feel disappointed at the fact that I'm still trapped here, enduring the futile process that is just waiting around to die. It feels like I've existed for such a long time now, it's so horrible to think that I could potentially suffer for decades longer.

 

[deomlez]

I am more than 50, and considering average of life time for women in my country is more than 80, so +30, is scaring me...i have decided to stop at 70 then 60 then asa my last condition is filled

 

[Victim.Of.Life]

I was a very troubled kid in middle school, I was the failure of the family. I had to change field of study every year because I kept failing.
Teachers suggested to my parents to put me in a school for kids with special needs. I was also very depressed so I had very bad hygiene, not many friends, etc.

Now a couple of years later I've made a complete turnaround. I'm in my last year of law school, I'm an avid chess player and have more friends then ever.
So I guess I would be proud of myself.

It's just that it all doesn't matter even one bit anymore.
I've done some things I can never forgive myself for.
My younger self wouldn't be able to understand.

 

[mlcs]

I've had this thought for awhile, I always think about this question and I can't say why, but If I was able to see my younger self I'd break down, I'd tell him I failed, I failed the promises I made to myself, I failed everyone around me, and how no matter how hard I tried I ended up failing. Thoughts like these make just wanna cry and accept how I'll forever be a fuck up within my own mind, always battling myself and my past

wouldn't be on this site if the amswer was yes

 

[Techef]

Certainly not, but I think deep down inside, they'd understand. I don't remember exactly when I first wanted to die, but it was early on in childhood. They'd probably be disappointed and sad, and knowing my personality nitpick and argue about some of my questionable decisions, but overall I think there'd be a sense of inevitability they'd feel.

 

[kovu]

It depends on the age of my younger self, but I think he'd be pretty understanding. I've been in the same headspace for so long; certain aspects haven't changed in a long time. Honestly, the fact that I managed to move out and find a job would probably impress my younger self. Of course, I'll be moving back home, and I quit my job, but the achievements still stand. If you were to ask my not-that-much-younger-self, he'd just be confused as to why I'm still here. He had more guts than me. He'd not be disappointed in me, but I'm envious of him. Though I'm not failing him, I'm failing my older self.

 

[Rocinante]

Hell yeah

 

[ollo]

I will choke him to death

 

[forum user JJ 23/34]

noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. and im only 19

 

[Asingletwig]

Younger me would hate who I am now. I had potential and could have actually been alright in life but no I had a massive ego. I chose not to get help about my issues and over time and more abuse just broke me. Turned to drink and risky behavior for what little solace like some dumb alco exactly the kind of person I used to think I was above and that there was no way Id ever fall to my dad's level. Yet here I am, a drunk construction worker that's got nothing in his life but drink and work. Well I used to anyway now it's just drinking from 11am to whatever time. I think younger me would just fall in front of a train.

 

[forum user JJ 23/34]

My younger self would be disgusted with me. I wish I would've gone through with my plan when I was twelve.

bro me too. 6 for me. you would think I would be comforted by the fact that someone here has the same experience as me but no im disgusted with myself for being here but also need to be here to stay alive.

 

[weisel]

I wouldn't b if I tell myself after all this time u still never get a gf, u still feel alone, and I failed at all the attempts. I did learn to drive

 

[bedtimebabe]

I actually think about my younger self a good deal and how many dreams and ideas I had, and how much confidence too. I always felt I was meant to do great things.

And now oh how it's all changed and the only thing I dream of and think about is CTB. I think my younger self would be fully and devastatingly heartbroken if I shared with her how my life turned out and all the disappointments that led me to my current state. It would destroy her.

 

[toxibabs]

I'd like to think my younger self would be friends with me. She was very helpful and a listener, hyper and lonely. Now? I look at old photos and I can't recognize myself in them. All I can really be certain of is I'd give her a big hug and tell her I'm proud of her.

 

[Lumina]

It breaks my heart just thinking about how dissapointed he would be. I failed him and I'm so sorry. I'm not sure if I can still turn things around

 

[tora]

I've had this thought for awhile, I always think about this question and I can't say why, but If I was able to see my younger self I'd break down, I'd tell him I failed, I failed the promises I made to myself, I failed everyone around me, and how no matter how hard I tried I ended up failing. Thoughts like these make just wanna cry and accept how I'll forever be a fuck up within my own mind, always battling myself and my past

I feel the same way; whenever I see pictures of myself as a child it makes me sad to think about how happy and full of potential I was. I enjoyed life and had friends and had plans to live a long life, and it hurts to think about how much I failed my younger self. she'd be so disappointed to see who she turned out to be.

 

[StolenLife]

Nope, she would be horrified at how much I lack empathy now and at how many mental illnesses I have.

 

[▪︎⚠ ＫＯＨＩ ⚠▪︎]

He would be happy for me for studying the career that since little I wanted to.
But I would tear apart in tears in front of him 'cause of how much I miss those old days in which I used to be so happy and carefree, years where the thought of killing myself so badly wouldn't even cross my mind.

 

[bedhead_baby]

Nope

 

[Jamesun]

I think he would hate me, or see me as a disappointment and I don't blame him my life is so bad lately even I do.