Discussion Pretending to get better for loved ones — Is it immoral?

[Tomorrow Is Today]

Just wanted to get some thoughts on this. I'll probably try to CTB again this month, and I've wanted my friends and family to remember my last days as my normal self before everything and not some wreck. I'm putting in effort to be less of a shut-in and focussing on self-care, get my hair cut and re-permed so that I look like my old healthier self. I've also put on a more jovial and outgoing front to put them at ease.

I can't help but feel guilty because I'm basically leading my family and friends on, but I also have my selfish reasons of wanting to be remembered a certain way. What are your thoughts on this?

 

[PugnaEnjoyer2137]

Whether you still have CTB on your mind or not, you're still putting in effort to lead a healthier life by caring for yourself. Whether you are miserable or not before you CTB, it will be difficult for them to deal with, if they care about you. You shouldn't feel guilty over caring about your appearance, or about wanting to be remember in a certain way.
If you will CTB, and those things make it easier for you, there's nothing wrong with that. If you won't CTB, then those things have helped you to set you on different path.
You shouldn't be that hard on yourself. Caring for yourself will make you feel better, in one way, or another

 

[Forveleth]

After 40 years I am exhausted from spending so much time trying to be something I am not for everyone else. As said above, it is good that you are putting in an effort to take care of yourself but I found that acting happy and outgoing was not sustainable for me. I also believe in being genuine with people so if I feel like a it, I do not hesitate to say so.