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Passenger4224

Passenger4224

I appreciate everything that can kill me.
Mar 8, 2026
635
If one specific part of your life was different, do you think your life would be good? If so, what part of your life would you change? Of course we don't know what life would be like if things were different, but we can guess.

For example, I believe my life would be great if I was in the right body.
 
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Pvnie

Pvnie

Giga-autist Wandering Scumbag
Oct 8, 2022
68
If I was neurotypical and not fat. I'd have the normal black boy swagger I'm supposed to have and I'd have some hoes and friends and I would have never been aware of anything in the world, I wouldn't be thinking about the metaphorical matrix we call society and how we are all slaves to it, and how now that i've been born and am fully aware I wouldn't be stuck within the cosmic battle ground we call the universe or reality.
 
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AgathaChristieLover

AgathaChristieLover

Student
Jul 16, 2026
125
If my mom didn't hate me
 
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BlackCatTalk

BlackCatTalk

StrayCat
Apr 28, 2019
212
Easy, no. Nothing can improve my actyal situation
 
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TwistedNightmares

TwistedNightmares

My life is torture
Nov 1, 2025
406
My life would be good if I had competent, caring parents and if I wasn't born with my incurable syndrome.
I can't choose between these two factors. Both are bad.
 
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EternalShore

EternalShore

Hardworking Lass who Dreams of Love~ 💕✨
Jun 9, 2023
2,025
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Manfrotto99

Mage
Oct 10, 2023
554
Money - if I had money to buy a dog and have a home of my own with a garden and not be dependant on people who enjoy abusing me
 
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Riaxd

Riaxd

My medical condition ruined everything
Jul 17, 2026
299
Wasnt born with a medical condition
 
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bluupup

bluupup

cronus
Jun 7, 2026
119
If one specific part of your life was different, do you think your life would be good? If so, what part of your life would you change? Of course we don't know what life would be like if things were different, but we can guess.

For example, I believe my life would be great if I was in the right body.
yes, if my parents weren't neglectful.
 
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violetforever

violetforever

i hit my peak at 7
Dec 24, 2025
1,245
i think my life would be so much different if my family wasnt abusive. i hate to think about things that cant be changed though. its pointless and this is my life thats leading me to ctb 👍👍👍👍
 
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snow_cones59

snow_cones59

Member
Jul 27, 2026
6
it would be better if I wasn't feckin born at all
 
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Pangs93

Pangs93

Member
Jun 29, 2026
42
I'd either choose to not be mentally ill or to have had a mother who wasn't abusive. Hard to choose. Mental illness is currently my biggest problem since I'm no contact with my mother. However, had I not been so abused I probably wouldn't be so mentally ill in the first place. Both would be great to change.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
49,784
No, there really isn't anything good about existing, I don't see how existing beings tortured all for the sake of it could ever be good and the suffering and torture of existing is endless, to exist is an abomination and it's so terrible how humans cause all this suffering and torture all for the sake of it by imposing this existence, to me existence will just always be the most terrible mistake to me and for me non-existence is just all that's positive and desirable.

All I want is to be free from this existence of terrible, torturous suffering, it's just so terrible how a human can suffer for so long just to face the extreme agony of old age, to me existence will just always be the problem, I just always suffer as a result of being burdened with this existence so dreadful and torturous.
 
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gh0sttx

gh0sttx

such a pretty house // such a pretty garden
Mar 11, 2023
19
if i was born in a different country
 
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w1ngedpearl

w1ngedpearl

Member
Apr 17, 2025
82
I could've been much happier if I wasn't as stupid as I am. I did so many dumb mistakes that are almost impossible to fix.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,652
Yes if m'y mother isnt ill
 
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Vera1997

Member
Jun 16, 2026
22
If i was cis instead of trans
 
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Mental666

Mental666

Hey guys! I guess that's it!
May 20, 2026
105
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hewhowonders

New Member
Jul 26, 2026
1
If one specific part of your life was different, do you think your life would be good? If so, what part of your life would you change? Of course we don't know what life would be like if things were different, but we can guess.

For example, I believe my life would be great if I was in the right body.
If I wasn't fat. Maybe things would be different
 
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itsgone2

-
Sep 21, 2025
2,178
I could've been much happier if I wasn't as stupid as I am. I did so many dumb mistakes that are almost impossible to fix.
Same. I wish I had just been normal. Be average. Make some good decisions. Instead, nothing.
 
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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Stirb nicht vor mir
Jul 19, 2026
705
If I had my beloved life would be worth living
 
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LivedTooLong

LivedTooLong

Avoidant
Apr 26, 2018
164
There are so many things wrong with me, but maybe it would be livable if I weren't trans. I would prefer to have just been born male, but if I could have just been a cis woman (no gender dysphoria), even that would have been preferable to this. I can't stand it anymore.
 
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nayomi

nayomi

only the truth will save us all
Jul 19, 2026
224
if i wouldnt be able to suffer
 
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DeathSweetDeath

DeathSweetDeath

Visionary
Nov 12, 2025
2,457
I know it would have been good, but a catastrophic event destroyed my appearance, forever locking me out of any version of the present and future that I'd want.
 
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sotomie

sotomie

I’m the problem
Jul 18, 2026
48
Yes, if I wasn't born in this toxic family.
 
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Passenger4224

Passenger4224

I appreciate everything that can kill me.
Mar 8, 2026
635
If I was neurotypical and not fat. I'd have the normal black boy swagger I'm supposed to have and I'd have some hoes and friends and I would have never been aware of anything in the world, I wouldn't be thinking about the metaphorical matrix we call society and how we are all slaves to it, and how now that i've been born and am fully aware I wouldn't be stuck within the cosmic battle ground we call the universe or reality.
My life would be good if I had competent, caring parents and if I wasn't born with my incurable syndrome.
I can't choose between these two factors. Both are bad.
I'd either choose to not be mentally ill or to have had a mother who wasn't abusive. Hard to choose. Mental illness is currently my biggest problem since I'm no contact with my mother. However, had I not been so abused I probably wouldn't be so mentally ill in the first place. Both would be great to change.
If you could choose only one of these things, do you think your life would be good? Or would you need both of these things to change?
 
Pangs93

Pangs93

Member
Jun 29, 2026
42
If you could choose only one of these things, do you think your life would be good? Or would you need both of these things to change?
Yes, I think even with only one of these things my life would still improve. Say I choose to be mentally healthy, sure I still have to cope with the trauma of my mother, but I would no longer have OCD, depression, anxiety, etc and that alone would be amazing. If I chose to have a mother who wasn't abusive, yeah I *might* still be mentally ill but I wouldn't have the trauma and I'd have a caring mother around for love and support which would also be amazing. Though both together would still be ideal.
 
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Captive_Mind515

Captive_Mind515

King or street sweeper, dance with grim reaper!
Jul 18, 2023
855
No. Life sucks!

There are plenty of singular factors that could potentially make it worse though…
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,652
If i am not ill
 
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