oofuf
hope is the seed of despair
- Feb 13, 2023
- 47
Honestly I'm not sure. If life wasn't as painful as it is I probably would just enjoy it while it lasted.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 37,250
My wish is to permanently cease existing with this existence completely forgotten about. The true problem lies in existence itself so therefore I only wish for the peace of eternal nothingness.
In my case wanting to cease existing is all that feels rational, the only way to escape from having the ability to suffer is to die, no matter what I will always see it as preferable to not exist.
I don't desire existence, it was never something desirable in the first place, I see it as such a terrible burden having the ability to exist as a conscious being who is capable of suffering so extremely in this existence where chance so cruelly determines everything.
I'm just not meant for existing as well and I see no benefit to it, existence just causes harm, existence just creates problems there was never a need for in the first place. I'd always prefer to not exist as one cannot suffer from the absence of everything, I only envy the non-existent who are at peace now.
In my case wanting to cease existing is all that feels rational, the only way to escape from having the ability to suffer is to die, no matter what I will always see it as preferable to not exist.
I don't desire existence, it was never something desirable in the first place, I see it as such a terrible burden having the ability to exist as a conscious being who is capable of suffering so extremely in this existence where chance so cruelly determines everything.
I'm just not meant for existing as well and I see no benefit to it, existence just causes harm, existence just creates problems there was never a need for in the first place. I'd always prefer to not exist as one cannot suffer from the absence of everything, I only envy the non-existent who are at peace now.
sserafim
brighter than the sun, that’s just me
- Sep 13, 2023
- 9,011
Part of my problem is having to live and be an adult so…no, I wouldn't take my life as in continuing to live. I honestly think that I was meant to die in childhood or my teenage years, and never reach adulthood. I think that I'm just not fit or meant to be an adult. I think that even if I were neurotypical I wouldn't want to continue living. I never even wanted to grow up in the first place and I don't think that would change. I think that only death can solve my problems, as my problem is life itself.
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Blurry_Buildings
Just Existing
- Sep 27, 2023
- 452
My 5 biggest problems are unfixable/ permanent. If they did not exist then I'm sure I could enjoy life.
Well said. I take it as quote.
I thought it about a bit more recently and every time I hear your arguments about afterlife (eternal nothingness.) it is becoming more convincing for me. I hope you experience %100 painless ctb.
Maybe not for the time being but eventually- probably. It's not like new problems won't come along! That's life. People seem to say that with the overtone that we all must accept that- but sorry- we don't and I don't intend to.
That's life. The ultimate problem solving power move is to ctb painlessly.
If my current issue was solved then I wouldn't plan to CTB. I'd prefer to live in this case.
If circumstances later on in life required CTB to be considered then sure it would be an option again.
If circumstances later on in life required CTB to be considered then sure it would be an option again.
DyingToDie123
she/her
- Oct 25, 2023
- 385
Interesting question. I've lived with depression/anhedonia my whole life so I don't know what it's like to just intrinsically enjoy life. If that was solved maybe I wouldn't. But then I feel like I wouldn't be me anymore at that point, depression/anhedonia shape my whole life philosophy. Plus I'm not like desperate for that in any way if that makes sense? I could just kinda take or leave life when at my best. I just don't really see a point. Even if it's good to you, then you have to fear death, which isn't fun (I mean I already fear death as a suicidal person so as a non-suicidal person I can't imagine how much worse that'd be).
asian.neet
Specialist
- Oct 13, 2023
- 307
Yes.
It will never fill the void.
My life wish is to die soon.
Yes.
It will never fill the void.
My life wish is to die soon.
It will never fill the void.
My life wish is to die soon.
Yes.
It will never fill the void.
My life wish is to die soon.
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