Chose one, crushing loneliness or constant reminder of your own failures from the people around you

[sleepytime5]

I think I've decided to like retreat or at least greatly cut from all the people I know in real life. Seeing my friends go around just so jolly about life and stuff it's really hard for me. Worse so is that I am usually the therapist, kind of, I always tried offering my best advice and so on and I am glad they appreciated it, yet now that my problems are in my opinion catastrophic and are having me hanging around here, hearing them talk about their fight with their mom or a relationship problem is too much. BIG DIFFERENCE HERE IN CASE SOMEONE'S GOT SOMETHING TO SAY, I know problems like that might cause someone to wanna ctb, I am specifically reffering to my non-suicidal friends who complain to me about this, knowing I am suicidal. I really don't know how to tell people this cause it just sounds like me being an ass "Don't talk about your problems please" but at the same time I don't talk about mine, mainly cause most people can't advise anything for my problems, so all they say is "Just live bro" like a broken record.
My sister specifically does a lot of damage whenever she talks to me, the fact she's like the female version of me doesn't help it being much of a rub in the face of how a life can and should be, listening to her problems then looking at mine are just ctb fuel. She really triggers an inferiority complex for me, not helped by the fact she was also the favourite child.
Anyone else has this cause idk it sounds like a more niche problem, mainly people here complain about loneliness, and I really want your input wether I'm being an ass or not cause I always try my best not to but my NPD has other plans. Thanks bye !

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

I got rid of a lot of people years ago. As I have said before, I can't be fake, can't fake fake and dislike normies and their world views. It's not lonely,.it's just common sense. I would choose the loneliness anyway as preparation for an early death.

 

[SASU-KE]

Loneliness is actually peaceful. It's miserable in its own way, but you will have quite a lot of privacy,peace,quiet and solitude.So it's not horrible.

If you are surrounded by terrible people who belittle you, life will be miserable all the time.

 

[Shadows From Hell]

I'd rather be alone. Less drama and bullshit to deal with.

 

[starboy2k]

Even though I chose loneliness……the voices still provide me constant reminders of people in my life who regarded me a failure (whether if they meant it or not.)

 

[sleepytime5]

Even though I chose loneliness……the voices still provide me constant reminders of people in my life who regarded me a failure (whether if they meant it or not.)

it's not just the criticism but the idk, their succes, it's kinda like a big middle finger to me