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charlieee

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A lot of what drives me to want to leave this mortal coil is a huge backlog of traumatic memories and experiences and a lost love who I should hate but still struggle with caring about. I often wonder if I would feel better with my memory wiped. What about you guys?

I think it would help a lot but not fix everything as there's still a lot of other factors that have me this way, but I think I would perhaps be passively suicidal rather than actively. it would help with an awful lot of wounds.
Depends. I feel like the pain isn't just from the memories in your head but also how the different trauma you went trough does affect the way your body and brain functions. If the memories go with all of that, I would probably not ctb ever. Maybe think about it some time to time, given what kind of world we live in, but I would probably be happier so no ctb in that reality.
 

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