Discussion Would you Record and post you CTB?

[DoomsdayCTB]

sort of. I think I want to do a docuseries of me "surging" and how no one notices or truly cares...

 

[PanaxMan]

I'm thinking about CTB in the next months, i have tought about recording myself ingesting SN, but idk yet.

Sure but not like my recordings would do any good it'll be just awkward with the way I'm going out

 

[hmnow]

When are you planning to do it?

Soon

 

[burninghill]

Nah I feel like I'd get a kind of stage fright haha

 

[CatLvr]

sort of. I think I want to do a docuseries of me "surging" and how no one notices or truly cares...

I'm not sad you are wanting to do a docuseries -- honestly that is some insane bravery. Might help normies be able to see and understand the ebb and flow of mental illness better. It just breaks my heart that no one notices or cares (this has been my experience also).

 

[Carrot]

Consider the possibility that you might survive and now there would be a video of you publicly available.

 

[hmnow]

I have planned that way - I like the idea of witnesses to my end

 

[passthisnote]

it sounds interesting

 

[BradGuy123]

I'm a private person. I wouldn't want a video of me doing anything posted online much less something as personal and intimate as my passing. But to each their own.

 

[isthisthingon]

I wish to be alone if I'm not with someone who is also ready to go. No desire to film it or share the experience with the whole dark side of the internet.

 

[buriedinmyhead]

I wouldn't. I don't want the footage to be passed around for creeps to make fun of, and it'll be an incredibly private moment

 

[valar_morghulis21]

If we're considering any "educational" objective, there's no need for it since that type of video already exists.
I would consider the people who might be affected by the circulation of this video and the impact it could have.

Can you recommend me some educational videos on suicide methods? Many thanks

 

[snow_cones59]

maybe i'll do it like my idol mister Ronnie

 

[Estrella87]

I'll do it, as I find useful for others and I don't care of consequences as I will be dead anyway. Actually I find very useful to see some videos (like fsh) for determine which method is the less painful, how to do it right, etc. Many methods like sn, tourniquet or others are lacking videos so I believe it can be useful for the community so I wouldn't hesitate. Ofc this is a very personal opinion. Some persons like to feel alone, some want to be with someone but then leave no trace of their existence, it's personal. Also it requires some skills or a someone to share the video after passing out.

 

[t8129]

Nope too ugly

 

[Mental666]

No. I don't feel the need to do that and some people on gore sites like to make jokes about suicide and I wouldn't like to be their target

 

[never mind me]

No, I don't even like to have pictures of myself in the internet. Although there are a few (sometimes it's hard to avoid for different reasons), but I would never want anybody to watch me while I ctb.

 

[Cyaneed]

I don't want to give anyone the pleasure of making jokes over seeing me laying dead on the floor in front of a camera. I want at least some dignity in death.

 

[dreamofnofuture]

I personally wouldn't record it at all. If you are asking to decide what to do yourself, then that's your decision to make in the end. But I myself wouldn't film a vulnerable moment just for it to end up on a gore site and get ridiculed by alt-right 4chan users who think slurs and bigotry are the epitome of racism. It's just not worth it. I wouldn't wanna think about that in my final moments either. I want to be completely at peace and ready to go, not wondering what weirdos online will be thinking.

In addition, there's the possibility that people may think your filming your CTB was a last attempt at attention-seeking behavior regardless of the educational intent. Many people, judgmental and close-minded as most humans are, already think SH and thoughts of ending one's life are piteous attempts at attention-seeking, so it wouldn't be your fault they think this. Do keep that in mind, though, if you deliberated this and decided you want to do film your final moments.

Sadly, the people who hurt you probably wouldn't care, or would even be glad, that you CTB'd. For you, it was a defining moment in your life; for them, it was just another day. "The tree remembers, the axe forgets" type shit.

wait hold on I meant to say "the epitome of humor" bruh​

 

[alphabetsoupz]

No. My passing is the only thing I'd have control over - I'd rather have the privacy I was never granted in life during my end.

 

[nitrogenous]

I have always recorded mine in case I survive for future references and to remind me of how much in despair I was but I don't think I would post it ever…