Discussion Would you Record and post you CTB?

[SMxj9]

I'm thinking about CTB in the next months, i have tought about recording myself ingesting SN, but idk yet.

 

[mjolnir]

I wouldn't do that, what would be the point?

 

[SMxj9]

I wouldn't do that, what would be the point?

Idk, maybe show others SN effects and How fast or not It kills.

 

[dearlydeparted44]

No. Why would I? My escape is a private and loving moment I want for myself. I'm catching the bus to leave hell, not for attention or to make a statement.

 

[mjolnir]

If we're considering any "educational" objective, there's no need for it since that type of video already exists.
I would consider the people who might be affected by the circulation of this video and the impact it could have.

 

[thelostautistic]

Absolutely not. I can't understand why anyone would film and post that.

 

[WishfulNeanderthal]

No, absolutely not. For several reasons:
1. The clip will be spread on gore sites, where deranged and twisted people will mock, make cruel comments and generally be despicable about it.
2. Those same clips could eventually be used as shock footage to scar innocent people and that isnt a legacy i'd ever want to leave behind.
3. Some sickos degenerate enough to get off to that kind of stuff, my death will not be someone else's sick pleasure.
4. I firmly believe that death is supposed to be a private thing (as in, not filmed or made a spectacle), due to it being one of the most important moments of a person's life.
5. I would not want to help or inspire another person to CTB if they watched it.

Of course these are things that one could say "Well i'll be dead, it wont matter, i wont know". But i believe in a dignified death, not just another gore clip that some chronically online person on WPD or any other site will look at for thrills.
And as many other user's said, the educational effect is moot, there is multiple clips, transcriptions, audio recordings, etc on the effects and death's of SN (including taking way too much SN).
And as another disclaimer: If one is doxxed after death, their families WILL be sent those videos by sick people.

 

[Aflame5926]

I probally will.

but the reason is more about that to prove i handeld alone.
there is no helpers or anything. it will help the people that ill leave behind.
so the police wont make impossible scenerio's for my family

 

[chargirl]

I don't think I would, but I'm curious to hear others' answers...

 

[shinitai-chan]

i'd want to. i think it could be helpful

 

[Harrier]

I just been reading about two people who ctb on live television.

Suicide of Christine Chubbuck - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

R. Budd Dwyer - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

 

[chargirl]

I just been reading about two people who ctb on live television.

Suicide of Christine Chubbuck - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

R. Budd Dwyer - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

That's really interesting, thank you for sharing this bit of history

 

[idciwtkms]

i wouldn't, don't want my loved ones to see me turn cold live, as if seeing my body wouldn't be traumatizing enough why would i add to that

 

[KinderCorn]

No, absolutely not. For several reasons:
1. The clip will be spread on gore sites, where deranged and twisted people will mock, make cruel comments and generally be despicable about it.
2. Those same clips could eventually be used as shock footage to scar innocent people and that isnt a legacy i'd ever want to leave behind.
3. Some sickos degenerate enough to get off to that kind of stuff, my death will not be someone else's sick pleasure.
4. I firmly believe that death is supposed to be a private thing (as in, not filmed or made a spectacle), due to it being one of the most important moments of a person's life.
5. I would not want to help or inspire another person to CTB if they watched it.

Of course these are things that one could say "Well i'll be dead, it wont matter, i wont know". But i believe in a dignified death, not just another gore clip that some chronically online person on WPD or any other site will look at for thrills.
And as many other user's said, the educational effect is moot, there is multiple clips, transcriptions, audio recordings, etc on the effects and death's of SN (including taking way too much SN).
And as another disclaimer: If one is doxxed after death, their families WILL be sent those videos by sick people.

All good points. I understand and respect why some do, but downsides seem greater.

 

[HollowSoul]

I just been reading about two people who ctb on live television.

Suicide of Christine Chubbuck - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

R. Budd Dwyer - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

Christine Chubbuck story always amazed me, she def didnt care about traumatize other people

And no, I wouldnt do It for that reason alone, I think It would be enough pain for my family and friends to known I ctb couldnt imagine if they also saw me actually doing It..

 

[killdozer]

I would, im not sure on my method yet but if i went out with a gun or jumping yeah, just livestream it i suppose. Probably won't because neither of those methods are available and the other methods aren't as record-able (outside of hanging but I can't do that)

 

[theearthisburning]

i definitely would , almost as to like rub it in the faces of the people who hurt me and wronged me for so long. kind of as a way of saying "i told you i was sick"

 

[voc_89]

no. I have a neice and nephew and a much younger sister (about 16 years younger than me). I don't want to damage them nor their opportunities. Cause sadly, regardless of your affiliation, once u related to someone who did x, you blacklisted. I want to stress this

 

[hurts2b]

Fuck no. Don't wanna be someone else's jerk off material. Beyond that, I have qualms about posting my face online. There's always the risk of the video going viral and the few people in my life becoming targets for harassment. I just don't want to inflict that kind of BS on anyone. The Internet mob can be brutal.

 

[DoomedDarkCircles]

No. I don't want to expose myself like this, especially in such a moment. The video could also reach my loved ones and it's the last thing I want. Finally, as a woman, I don't want the possibility of disgusting creeps lusting over my suicide.

 

[violetforever]

i have to be aware as a young woman and say absolutely not. people are fucking depraved. even with men its still horrible too, they make a cruel joke out of them.

 

[LastPenance]

If I was going out with a gun or rope maybe I would, assuming I had the energy to set up a Livestream. would wear a mask though so my identity isnt easy to figure out. I wouldn't want to become like Ronnie who had his ctb be sent to his family over and over. I know how much it would hurt my dad if he saw that. I see a lot of people saying they wouldn't want to become the subject of cruel comments and jokes, but for me I feel like I deserve that. For people possibly lusting over it, I honestly don't really care. I wouldnt be alive anymore anyways, it's meaningless to me. I probably would deserve that as well

 

[hmnow]

Yes I would - and prefer it - will plan it that way
Happy to talk to anyone that is interested in watching the livestream

 

[SMxj9]

Yes I would - and prefer it - will plan it that way
Happy to talk to anyone that is interested in watching the livestream

When are you planning to do it?

 

[hmnow]

When are you planning to do it?

in about a month

 

[CatLvr]

No, absolutely not. For several reasons:
1. The clip will be spread on gore sites, where deranged and twisted people will mock, make cruel comments and generally be despicable about it.
2. Those same clips could eventually be used as shock footage to scar innocent people and that isnt a legacy i'd ever want to leave behind.
3. Some sickos degenerate enough to get off to that kind of stuff, my death will not be someone else's sick pleasure.
4. I firmly believe that death is supposed to be a private thing (as in, not filmed or made a spectacle), due to it being one of the most important moments of a person's life.
5. I would not want to help or inspire another person to CTB if they watched it.

Of course these are things that one could say "Well i'll be dead, it wont matter, i wont know". But i believe in a dignified death, not just another gore clip that some chronically online person on WPD or any other site will look at for thrills.
And as many other user's said, the educational effect is moot, there is multiple clips, transcriptions, audio recordings, etc on the effects and death's of SN (including taking way too much SN).
And as another disclaimer: If one is doxxed after death, their families WILL be sent those videos by sick people.

Exactly. All of what you have said ran through my mind when considering how to answer this thread. But mostly when I do "take my leave" I don't want the family who loves me to be traumatized any more than they are gonna be already. There ARE people out there who would LOVE the chance to hurt my family. Not gonna give the ammunition, so to speak.

 

[SoverignDreamer97]

No.

 

[dreamofnofuture]

I personally wouldn't record it at all. If you are asking to decide what to do yourself, then that's your decision to make in the end. But I myself wouldn't film a vulnerable moment just for it to end up on a gore site and get ridiculed by alt-right 4chan users who think slurs and bigotry are the epitome of racism. It's just not worth it. I wouldn't wanna think about that in my final moments either. I want to be completely at peace and ready to go, not wondering what weirdos online will be thinking.

In addition, there's the possibility that people may think your filming your CTB was a last attempt at attention-seeking behavior regardless of the educational intent. Many people, judgmental and close-minded as most humans are, already think SH and thoughts of ending one's life are piteous attempts at attention-seeking, so it wouldn't be your fault they think this. Do keep that in mind, though, if you deliberated this and decided you want to do film your final moments.

i definitely would , almost as to like rub it in the faces of the people who hurt me and wronged me for so long. kind of as a way of saying "i told you i was sick"

Sadly, the people who hurt you probably wouldn't care, or would even be glad, that you CTB'd. For you, it was a defining moment in your life; for them, it was just another day. "The tree remembers, the axe forgets" type shit.

 

[dustoff]

ye i'll leave webcam on record for popo just to make their day worse but what's point no 1 cares anyway

 

[xXiloveyouXx]

I'd do it as a form of art, yeah. I want to end up on a gore website.