Would you rather die alone, or with someone?

[Deadlyroses]

I like the thought of spending my last moments being held tightly and lovingly in someone's arms. But not if they're dying with me. I just want the support and love and companionship. I could never do an actual "partner" or "pact" sort of thing. I don't want to see, hear, or acknowledge anyone's death but my own.

 

[motel rooms]

my family would probably sad so idk id probably feel bad if i didnt include them

You wanna ctb in front of your family?

 

[Simba]

You wanna ctb in front of your family?

Probably not but itd be sad leaving them out of it all if i did ctb

 

[motel rooms]

Probably not but itd be sad leaving them out of it all if i did ctb

I don't quite understand your logic, but okay

 

[Jumping_realms]

Like a cat. I'd wander off to die somewhere alone.

 

[motel rooms]

I'd like to blow up a couple of enemies suicide bomber-style, that would make me feel all warm & fuzzy inside in the moments before the explosion

 

[Luchs]

Feeling "happy" would definitely feed your SI & make it much harder for you to ctb...

I've come to terms with dying, I think I can easily overpower it, as all it takes is a pull of the trigger. The few times I was happy in the last few years are my happiest memories, but also my biggest regrets since I didn't ctb right afterwards, which I should have, since it always goes downhill.

 

[Jumping_realms]

I've come to terms with dying, I think I can easily overpower it, as all it takes is a pull of the trigger. The few times I was happy in the last few years are my happiest memories, but also my biggest regrets since I didn't ctb right afterwards, which I should have, since it always goes downhill.

Just genuinely curious if you are waiting for a next "low" point or what, if you pretty much realize the misery progresses?

Don't take this question the wrong way, in many ways I have no clue why I haven't CTB yet, successfully anyhow.

 

[Luchs]

Just genuinely curious if you are waiting for a next "low" point or what, if you pretty much realize the misery progresses?

Don't take this question the wrong way, in many ways I have no clue why I haven't CTB yet, successfully anyhow.

Quite the opposite, I'm waiting for the next high, so I can end it all on a good note.

 

[Simba]

I don't quite understand your logic, but okay

Sorry.. i mean heres example , 2 friends go to a shop buy chocolate ,1 kid wants to join them.. the 2 friends would feel bit bad leaving the 1 kid out of it all so they let the kid join in too ,idk if that helps to explain

 

[Jumping_realms]

Quite the opposite, I'm waiting for the next high, so I can end it all on a good note.

Makes perfect sense now, I was under the impression you felt you lost your ability to feel "happy moments" :)

Sorry.. i mean heres example , 2 friends go to a shop buy chocolate ,1 kid wants to join them.. the 2 friends would feel bit bad leaving the 1 kid out of it all so they let the kid join in too ,idk if that helps to explain

That may not be the best analogy, but we understand you don't wan't to hurt your family through your act of suicide.

 

[suisuiforum]

Alone 100%. Even if dying with someone wouldn't incriminate them, and even if they wouldn't try to stop me, it would just be an uncomfortable experience, considering the people I know in my life. Well, I wouldn't mind being administered a lethal injection if voluntary euthanasia is ever legalized, but there's no way that's happening anytime soon IMO.

 

[wanttodie]

'd love to die together with someone.

 

[PDAnnie2610]

Mind sharing the plan?

I've occasional pretty bad lower back pain so I've stuff that will knock me out as I pass on. 'Nuff said.

 

[Grumpy Bear]

With someone. Unless they are going to run their mouth or get all sentimental right before hand. But some days I fantasize about doing it alone with the only person who understands me — myself.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

Alone. The majority of my life has been devoid of meaningful connections, and I now no longer wish to be around others anyway. I was born and have lived through this world on my own, so I want to leave on my own.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

 

[Luchs]

Makes perfect sense now, I was under the impression you felt you lost your ability to feel "happy moments" :)

Sometimes, I feel a little spark of joy at something, so I still have hope that somehow I might regain happiness, even if just for a day, or even just a few minutes.

 

[time4sleep]

I thought I was going to live with somebody but in a few short days I now know I'll die alone.

Strangely at peace with it now as well.

 

[nolongerhuman]

I don't want to die alone but I don't want the other person to die I just want them to hold my hand. I'd feel even more like crap if I thought someone was feeling pressured to ctb just because I wanted to do it.

 

[NoPointToContinue]

I lived alone(even though I had partners and people around me, I was always alone) and I will die alone.

 

[insanedoomer]

alone , anyways i'll be in my own proper peace after it , isn't it ?

 

[RedundantRecord]

I'd rather die alone, it's much more secure and peaceful to me. I find solace in death with a certainty in not being and not experiencing that it seems few share or desire.

 

[Apricity]

Not entirely sure what you mean by "with someone", as it could mean they ctb with you or someone is by your side while you take your trip. I'd like to go holding my wife's hand or cuddling her after taking N if i had the money for it. As it stands, I'll likely go alone because I wouldn't want her to see me with a bag over my head.

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

Hmm I'm not sure. I think with right person it could be something what feels good to me, but I don't think I'm gonna meet anyone; probably if I find someone it's going to end badly somehow. So maybe alone.

Still I would like to die outdoors somewhere in forest or something, but I would be afraid of the dark there alone, so that could be reason why I want to be with someone x)

 

[Ch92921]

You die alone anyway? Whats your point?

 

[khz89]

The most appealing to me would be to be with someone, take some sedatives and lay down to sleep while burning charcoal. There's something comforting about people leaving together, like it's not such a big deal anymore. Camaraderie in death.
I don't think this will happen though, so i'll have to go out alone with a plastic bag on my head :/

 

[nebulaz]

Alone regardless of it being self-annihilation or any other cause of death. It's something so intimate I want to experience it without infringement, concern, or any other tainting emotions flowing from another being.

I want to die either spontaneously and instantly or comfortably by my own hand. I don't want to weaken and age until I'm someone's problem and even for a moment- they look at me with contempt and annoyance when they once did with love and admiration. It's humiliating— I hope I'll be long gone before that happens.

 

[nopointofliving]

Probably alone in my bathroom. I have noone to die with

 

[Seiba]

Alone. Dying "with" someone or having them having them around is less dying with them more so than making your death an object for them to consume at that point. I would be however be fine with a clean area for suicide with a good method, but obviously I will be forced into a hotel room or in the woods when the time comes. I've also been homeschooled and always by myself for long parts of time so I think having someone around would compromise me emotionally and otherwise make my death less mine at that point due to the observing eyes.