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lexx

lexx

Member
Nov 13, 2024
32
Planning CTB and i'm in this dilemma. What would you do? Even if I tried to hide it, I don't know how I would, do it in a desolate place? I feel like they would eventually find me anyway. What do you think?
 
pharma

pharma

Member
Mar 4, 2023
90
i'm shooting myself which is very graphic so i don't want them to see me. far away where they wouldn't think to look for me. somewhere where the police would find me
 
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DeathSweetDeath

DeathSweetDeath

Visionary
Nov 12, 2025
2,196
I think it's rough enough on family already without having to find you, without having that be their last mental image of you, and without having their home turned into a place they'll probably feel the need to move out of.
 
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lexx

lexx

Member
Nov 13, 2024
32
i'm shooting myself which is very graphic so i don't want them to see me. far away where they wouldn't think to look for me. somewhere where the police would find me
have you looked for the place yet?
 
3rdworldsadness

3rdworldsadness

Can you ever stop the suffering?
Dec 22, 2024
328
I always has this little fear, I don't want to anybody find my body and wasting their time for a digging a grave it's all sounds really idk but embarrassing. I always think about going to an abandoned place suicide and actual forgotten by the time and buried there until I become nothing but ashes. I think about setting myself on fire too but that would be too painful...I really like the lonely death in Japan that happens it's not I'm idolizing but an very insignificant person like me should have like that....
 
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sadbh—itstimetogo🤎

Mage
Apr 4, 2026
544
I don't want to die in my family's house and metaphorically haunt it. I also don't want someone easily traumatized to find me. Would rather it be a stranger or professional.
 
ilovecats1

ilovecats1

Student
Apr 15, 2026
130
i dont want to traumatize them which is the only thing holding me back from attempting now that they are here. i want to try and schedule a friend and message an hour after my death to call the police so the body will be recovered and my family gets resolution so that im not missing.
 

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