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Jadedcat

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Jun 26, 2020
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When I was thinner I was probably.. average I guess, maybe slightly below average in the face at least. I had a decent body back in the day which I think people were attracted to more than anything. Now I'm basically invisible and might as well be a man. I don't even get desperate men and most men see me as a bro. I went from being one of the nicer looking ones in my friend group to not even being acknowledged hardly at all, let alone someone they're interested in. It messes you right up.
 
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seeking2learn

Member
Aug 18, 2021
51
I am on the fence with this one. I always give good looking people a good looking. I guess that that would make me more of a good looker as opposed to good looking. Now if someone found me good looking and gave me a good look....perhaps I would be good looking for that moment in time.
 
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PinkSakura

PinkSakura

Rip Flower I'll never forget you </3 我想你花
Feb 8, 2021
137
I think I'm good looking, I usually get compliments on my looks
 
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ChaseBees

Member
Sep 30, 2021
50
I do. I've been in modeling and I certainly get lots of looks, but I think lots of women would agree that that's pretty common. I'm not sure
 
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irememberinnocence

Student
Jun 10, 2020
128
My body shape and my face are attractive. But I don't have the finances to maintain my appearance. I can't keep up a nice wardrobe or haircut or face appearance. So I just look average I guess. And I'm chronically ill so some days I hate how tired I look and the worst thing is that some of my eyebrows fell out. But if I had money I could take care of that.
 
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agate

Member
Sep 29, 2021
54
I know it's a weird question.

My other thread "How are you financially" showed fhat majority are under some form of financial stress.

So, do you consider yourself good looking. Do you get a lot of attention from the other sex? Do people notice you walking in the streets etc?

Personally, I would say im average. I get some attention, but no use when your mind is so destroyed...
Let me put it this way. Between how I look right now , or if I could change my appearance to that of a monster, I would choose monster.
 
A_miStake_of_NATURE

A_miStake_of_NATURE

I wish no one had to CTB..........
Aug 14, 2020
703
I used to. I think? I don't remember anymore…..
Nowadays, the more I look at myself in the mirror, the more I hate what I'm seeing. And I genuinely cannot fathom why I ever considered myself good-looking/attractive…. It's really mind-boggling
 
forgotten15

forgotten15

Specialist
Aug 24, 2021
332
I have a lot of insecurities from when i was little. I was an ugly child i know that but people really needed to point that out, even relatives told me indirectly that, so you can imagine to what extent that hurt me and how worthless made me feel. I just grew with the idea that ugly people will never be good enough and that looks are important.
Now at 30 I managed to somehow get out of that toxic thinking others inoculated in me, i know looks don't mean anything, but i am still insecure no matter what.
I think i look decent but i always compare myself with other girls.
I would never be able to have a relationship because of my insecurities though, i would always think that the person that is with me will like someone else better and think i am not enough.
 
Heartaches

Heartaches

You tried your best with me, I know
May 6, 2021
147
Short answer: I'm unfuckable

Long answer: (Small TW for mentions of sexual harassment/inappropiate behavior as a minor) I've never viewed myself as attractive and people rarely said positive things about my appearance, I was almost invisible.

I'm transmasc, but when I thought of myself as a cis woman I would always feel bad about myself, I always wished to be more conventionally attractive like the other girls. I was way taller than most, very curvy, developed faster sexually, been fat/borderline obese most of my life, suffered from severe acne in early adolescence, very hairy in general, have a rectangle(?-shaped face with a serious/cold expression most of the time, among other things. Most of my female classmates were the opposite and took very good care of their appearance while I stuggled to shower even once a week due to my undiagnosed depression at the time.

Things got a bit better later, I started showering way more often, taking care of my skin, lost a ton of weight, took better care of my hygiene and dressed more femininely as suggested by my then therapist (and to an extent, also under the influence of my partners at the time). But honestly? I never felt fully comfortable with it, it was as if I wasn't living in my own skin. Looking back, I felt I overplayed my femininity in order to try and fit in with other girls and pressure from others; I've always been a loner and very recluse so at the time I was desperate to fit in somewhere and be accepted. I also feel I tried to overplay my sexuality due to my attributes (big boobs, big hips, big butt, you see where I'm going) and desiring male attention, which nowadays I feel ashamed for doing that, especially since I was still underaged.

I've never gotten laid but I had many sexual interactions with guys online and they always praised my body, though now I feel they were fetishizing my body type rather than actually finding me attractive.

Currently I don't have a very high opinion of my appearance, I loathe it almost entirely because of my past and my desire to look more masculine, to "pass" if you want to put it that way (yes, I know you don't have to pass to be valid, but god I hate my curves for many reasons); my depression hasn't helped much as I haven't taken as much care of myself as I used to. I've been having an unhealthy relationship with food for a while now and it's made more stressed out than before.

Though, not everything is bad, I bought a make-up kit a couple of months ago and while I haven't used it, I'm super excited at the idea that I'll be able to look a little bit more masculine and do fun decorations in my face, I have classmates that do very creative stuff with make-up and I'd like to try my hand with it. I'd also love to buy new clothes and create outfits inspired by people who make me feel positive and confident about my masculinity. Last but not least, I'd like to go back to the gym or pick up a physical activity such as dancing or running to lose weight and mold certain parts of my body in a way that makes me feel better.

I don't think I'd get much attention from others or become super attractive, but I sense they could be good steps to fit the person I am today rather than trying to please other's ideas of how I should be.​
 
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downndone2

Living in misery
Jan 23, 2022
1,270
Yes but I feel terribly ugly on the inside
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

She wished that she never existed...
Sep 24, 2020
34,102
Absolutely not. Everything about my appearance is horrible but I think I am past caring at this point. Even if I tried to wear makeup or make myself look prettier it would do nothing for me. I believe that if I was physically beautiful it would make me want to die even more. I am used to the way I look and it matches how I feel on the inside. I may have already replied to this thread many months ago, I do not even see the point to me writing about this. Avoiding mirrors is what I like to do though.
 
TheBigGuiltHaver

TheBigGuiltHaver

Member
Dec 25, 2021
34
If you look at everything from the bottom half of my forehead down to the bridge of my nose, ignoring the hair that's to the sides, there's a slight chance. Other than that, I look fucking horrible and have no way of fixing it. I'm so genderfucked that I don't have the slightest clue what I'd truly be happy with if I could have any human body, so I've stopped looking as it uses up too much physical and mental energy just trying to imagine it and be permanently happy. All this accompanied by my body looking horrible, hair everywhere, fat everywhere, thin hair alongside a shitty hairline.
I cannot fix anything as I've been at a point with my weight for the longest while that even if I decided to go down to say, 220 pounds, probably a fifth to a quarter of that weight is purely just loose skin all over the place that's damn near impossible to hide, and as for the hair, I do not have enough hair for the top of my head unless I want a new hairline and hair thickness problem around the bottom of my head.
So basically, there is no point in even trying to fix anything because it's all set in stone unless I have like 20k to spare for surgeries and things like that.
 
dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
Im really good looking.
I have beaten depression, really with testosterone, around 300mg per week cypionate.(2 shots per week)
I'm also a good fuck, sometimes I use viagra or cialis, but I don't need it everytime anymore.
I'm kinda funny, really , people around me laugh.
I fart once in a while.
Im skinny but not weak, like skinny build but I exercised before at the gym, now I'm a runner. 5 to 15k. Around 100km per month.

But my really flaws are:
I live on regret, regret about money and regret about a girl I felt I had to let go for her better sake, and she's doing good, great I'd say, that kind of bothers me.
I don't like I have to work, gosh I could've been a millionaire, I had around 7million worth of crypto back when it was useless, had to sell ot to pay for a car crash, cause my parents wouldn't pay the fine.
I'm at the moment working on as a software tester, I could improve my skills and be better or I could do... I don't know what else.... but the thing is.... It's like if I didn't wanted too....

How could I turn my head around this?
Man this is a post itself.... thank-you... copying and posting now
I used to. I think? I don't remember anymore…..
Nowadays, the more I look at myself in the mirror, the more I hate what I'm seeing. And I genuinely cannot fathom why I ever considered myself good-looking/attractive…. It's really mind-boggling
That's a beautiful pretty small image you've got there... cheerup
 
Kristicide

Kristicide

I am a prisoner locked up behind xanax bars
Dec 16, 2021
330
Yes. I don't take it for granted and realized it's helped me out in many situations (like getting pulled over while driving). And reading about others on here with their struggles about not feeling attractive I know I am lucky in that sense. Usually if I wanted someone I could get them. Had my fair share of models - one gracing the cover of dutch vogue. And was scouted twice on the street to be a model myself but wasn't interested.
 
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rudebeat

Member
Dec 18, 2021
61
People in my college described me as looking, "Okay but a little too freshmany for me." This was when they were ranking like 15 people I think and I was the highest one, so relatively it sounds high but this was also in a gaming club so it's not like anyone else was working out. This was back before I injured myself a ton and lost my ability to work out so I'm definitely worse now. It's a shame, I was planning on bulking a ton and I was just starting to see the outlines of a 6 pack before I got injured but now it feels like those goals will never be achieved. Also for how attractive I consider myself now I definitely feel above average but just barely.
 
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Al Cappella

Al Cappella

Are we there yet?
Feb 2, 2022
888
I'm ok-looking, but it doesn't matter. I know how to cook. Like, really cook, restaurant cooking. I can make anything you want, even working with chocolate. And bread. Women have found that rather appealing over the years…
 
ihatemen420

ihatemen420

weed addict, antinatalist, loser
Jan 8, 2021
22
Yeah and I even have awesome titties. Too bad nobody is ever going to see them again. My body is wasted on me 🤪 can't even monetize it bc I'm too fucked in the head to convincingly act sexy. Smh.
 
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dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
Yeah and I even have awesome titties. Too bad nobody is ever going to see them again. My body is wasted on me 🤪 can't even monetize it bc I'm too fucked in the head to convincingly act sexy. Smh.
Ohh come on, get to an endocrinologist and get some hormone checkups please... for the happiness of someone* and you, even if it's not me.🤪
 
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Looooser

My 2 cents
Feb 3, 2022
212
I've actually been told by a few women that I'm to fat to date. So yes I think I'm ugly and unworthy
 
Zegers

Zegers

Misfit
Dec 15, 2021
1,762
Im below average due to disability, without this condition probably it would get better (obviously) I was in the gym to feel a bit better and lose weight and all I got was got injuried, so it's over. 🤷‍♂️

Suffering a disability you are fucked up even if you look like Christian Grey.

People in this world is too focused in appearances (particularly America)

Looks, Health, Wealth, can make things a bit more... joyful? anyway.
 
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ImpulsiveFreak

Member
Feb 18, 2022
40
It does suck how appearances mean so much In life, I generally try to keep a positive outlook on it but I have a bunch of birthmarks on my face and body which constantly fucks me up when I look in the mirror 😢. I feel like that's all people look at when they see me. Thank god for when masks came around lol. I hate my looks so much… Such a big contributing factor to why I want to CTB.
 
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sad_gurl_thoughts

Member
Feb 8, 2022
44
I mostly feel fortunate that I am attractive. I get attention from men…until they realize how intense I am. Then I scare them away every time.
 
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